Hi my name is Julia I am a year 12 doing my a levels at a top school. however, my school has been sending me very mixed massages lately.
I am currently studying an EPQ chemistry physics biology and English litrature at a level and I wish to do med at Oxford University. However, in recent mock exams I only got a d in my physics and did a mock recently which I haven't got the grade for yet but I whole heartedly believe I have gotten an E. Or at the very least have not improved at all.
I have gotten privet tuition for the subject but have not made much improvement. To be honest I have not really been putting in much effort. I have had a big shock starting my a levels that reading the text book doesn't get you the top grades anymore. Moreover, I came from a school which gave me a lot of extra help with my learning, I have dyslexia dyscalculia autisim and Adhd so its safe to say i have a lot of learning challanges. I am aware there is a lot of stigma about special educational needs so please dont judge. however i did manage dispite this to achive 7 9's an 8 and a 7 my gcses.
In my new school however, i have been feeling frustrated with the lack of care my teachers are putting into things. In other subjects i was given intervention but in physics they do not care at all, this frustration i think is what is leading to my sudden lack of motivation. As ridiculous as it sounds, i was known in secondary as being the smart person, and i think like a lot of accademic people it becomes a big part of your identity. i feel like the only thjng that makes me stand out now is the fact that I have a lot of learning disabilities which is not exacly what I want to be known for.
I think if I start putting in the effort I could achieve better results in physics, however my school is putting pressure on my to drop it.
I have heard a lot of diffrent information, some people say you need to do 4 a levels for oxford some say only 3 and some say you can do biology chem and the 3 d 1 can be whatever you want but I don't know.
I know on their website they say u only need 2 sciences but what actually gets you in my be diffrent as I know it is a very competitive university
I am naturally good at English litrature and that is my 4 th subject. I don't want to drop this as its an easy a or potentially a star for me. I got 100 present in it in paper 1 on my gcse exam and 98 overall / I don't say that to brag but rather for you to understand i am much better than this than I am at physics.
dropping physics would give me so much more time and less stress but I am worried that I will not get my place at my dream university.
dropping English would be a big waste in my opinion
and taking 4 would be very stressful but may lead to the best chance, moreover if I did get a crap grade in physics I could still apply to other med schools provided I got AAA at least whilst if I did crap in physics but had no English to fall back on I would not be able to go to any medical school.
I hope you can understand my dilema and I would love some suggestions on what I should do!
Ps sorry for my spelling!