Hey there,
I’m really sorry that you aren’t feeling great at the moment, but you’ve done so well to keep going despite despite feeling unwell. The most important thing is your health and you have to prioritise this over everything else, concentrate on getting better and feeling stronger and once you do think of all you will be able to achieve. Don’t worry about other people and what they do, just focus on yourself. Gaps in cvs can be explained away, so please don’t forego your health for that.
Is there someone you can talk to? Your parents, a friend, teacher? They will be able to help you as it’s important to talk and reach out to others, who will help you to get the right support and help.
I hope you feel better soon