i REALLY need a life change

Maybe dump your boyfriend may help to start with

I’ve been kind of feeling the same way too, I mean I love my friends but they’re not really the yolo type and I am and I need more people like that.

i just feel stuck right now. as a kid, i'd move pretty much every year, and now being stuck in the same house for yrs, house that i hate btw, feels so suffocating! im just SO bored with everything here, hate the house, the surroundings etc tbh im bored with the country itself and would love to move somewhere nicer, somewhere SUNNIER ideally.
my boyfriends not interested. but i feel like im literally going insane with like, thlack of new experiences, and IDK what to do or how to contain it, i want to meet new fun people but its like everyone heres just - i dont even know how to describe. it's like they're already dead inside? like they're not even real, i want to be surrounded by other artists and actually experience LIFE but this place feels like silent hill

it really sucks when you cant really connect to anyone, not truly : /

is he a person who yells over blames you over protective controlling?

you have meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I get the issues the world deals with.

that's what I'm trying I want open a household that's big enough for teens that were abused or feels like they cant live at home to stay for free as long as they need no money needed and people who don't have homes a free place to stay I will work for my own money to provide for families and children and hotwater

is he a person who yells over blames you over protective controlling?

that's really awesome. personally, i could never do it, i can barely take care of myself, that's why i never wanna have kids, even tho my partner does lol

Dump him and get sober

I know you say you'll miss him but uhhhhhh, he's not doing great things for ur health ml
try find someone new, not a partner necessarily maybe just a best friend that would be willing to be room mates with u
idk how financially stable u are but
maybe if u find a cool room mate u fw with u two could try to plan out how u could move abroad to somewhere else
i believe at one point u were compelled to move to kyoto but idk if u ever did get a new passport
if u really cant move away try redecorating ur house, clean up and change how it all looks
get busy, keep urself preoccupied! try gardening or baking or reading or painting or a fibre art
u sound like a creative person, put it to use! if u do that stuff maybe u could go market pop ups and sell stuff u make - that'd be fun

not financially stable yet. but i do have an agent now so getting somewhere! its all taking ages tho
never made it to kyoto sadly : / i dont really wanna think about that time of my life tho lol
i defo am a creative person, art is literally my life. but i feel like i make my best art drunk or high so its a double edged sword haha

noo, i don't want to get sober, i want to live deliciously

sometimes i want to but i literally just CANNOT, id miss him too much

noo, i don't want to get sober, i want to live deliciously