not sure what's wrong with me..??

I'm the happiest I've ever been in my whole life, and yet I still feel like something is missing. If I'm left alone I get slightly depressed and at night if the room's completely dark and my mind is 'left to wonder', I get some pretty disturbing thoughts. I used to have OCD but all completely fine now, as in no more rituals or panic attacks. I also see colours sometimes if I look at something for a long time...
Am I completely wierd?? :s

Reply 1

randdom

I wouldn't say that you are weird at all.

If you are really worried about it maybe talk to someone about it?

If it is only happening when you are completely dark could you maybe have a small light on or maybe one of those things which projects lights and shapes as this could distract you? Or a tape of waves etc? Obviously this isn't going to make the feelings that you are having go away but it might be helpful to distract you as a temporary measure.

Reply 2

Anonymous #1

Oops forgot to say anon or delete please.
I don't really feel like I can talk to anyone about it; they'll either think I'm being wierd or that I'm trying to get attention. Hence the post.
I suppose it's not that bad... it just bothers me that I feel this way when I have absolutely no reason to, and that I can't control it.
The colour thing can happen when I'm in the light or dark, kind of like hallucinations on a smaller scale.

Reply 3

neenbean

you remind me of me. try listening to an ipod at night as you fall asleep. if you want to talk i think we might have similar situations.

Reply 4

Anonymous #1

Thanks that would be good neenbean. I'm just quite an imaginative person. Sometimes I can't seem to control my thoughts, and I'm just a tad worried cos it's how my OCD started.