Basically I'm a really happy, open gay guy (I made a post some time back about lacking relationships and not liking overly camp gay guys), but I've reached a crossroads in my dress sense after this evening.
I was in Boots today just with my housemate not really paying attention and considering getting some new aftershave when I noticed the section of make-up that is like glittery, coloured dust type stuff (think: Barry M) that I've been calling "eye shadow" all evening even though it only goes on your eyelids.
Anyway I was having a laugh with my housemate and thought it'd be really funny to wear because it was so colourful so I picked out a nice bright blue and bought it. I wore it this evening to a group meeting at a pub and everyone said it looked really nice and that I should wear it more often.
I was kinda really surprised cos I was only wearing it for a laugh and thought I could use it for fancy dress parties in the future. Thing is I'm really against the whole "overly-camp/gay" image and feel that wearing that would just be unbelievably hypocritical and would pull me down the road of conforming to that image which I really despise. It was also a nuisance to put on having never used make up before.
On the other hand, if other people think I look nice I'd like to carry on wearing it and I kinda liked myself in it because it added a bit of weirdness to my (already crazy) character, not to mention it was a conversation point in the bar:
"Do you have eye shadow on?!"
"Ha ha! Yeh I do, was just for a laugh really cos it looked like fun when I saw it in town earlier. Put it on myself, first time ever with make up, how does it look...?"
That sort of thing. But yeh I'm just worried that I'm descending into hypocrisy... normally I'm all for what makes someone feel best and so I'd like to just carry on wearing it, (screw the ideals) but I'm worried this will affect the kind of guys that'll be interested in me. They could see me as some OTT camp guy and discount me when I'd much rather have someone really normal.
Argh what do you guys think?
EDITED for spelling.