But I'm too scared to not. Basically since I started AS Level (which I finished and dropped, now doing national diploma..) I've had insane panic attacks, worry constantly about my future. This then expands to other areas of my life, areas that matter to me a lot.
So I plan to finish this diploma and then start doing some Compass Courses (dog training). This is something I really enjoy doing and know quite a bit about. The problem is these are distance learning so I'd still live at home and have to get a job (probably advertise myself as a dog walker/sitter) but I don't want to seperate from my peers, I wouldn't have any friends of my age then. This worries me.
However I know that going to uni with everyone else is not something I'd cope with well at all- I constantly fret about my work at the moment. There are also no courses that I can find that relate to dog training, this is my main aim in life.
I have a dog training mentor who I help out with in classes and she inspires me but I'd still feel really alone if I stopped education (although not fully if I'm doing distance learning courses).
The other thing is I'm fretting right now over how my dog walking/sitting plan will work- insurance and legally. I'm terrified of being sued which puts me right off it but then again I don't have much choice.
I can't stop thinking and worrying about this which will happen in over a year away. This means I've got a year to worry and think about it. Why is it frightening me now?
It doesn't help when people try to put me off this plan saying that I have to make sure I am suitable for dog walking/training etc. I know I'm suitable- I've been volunteering for over a year with my mentor. I love it. I just can't stop worrying =[
I'd also rather people didn't comment and say oh you should do something better/ more worthwhile/ there's no money to be made etc.