What I want to say to you..but can't.

I'm crazy about you. And I have to tell you sooner or later.
That I think I love you.. or that I could love you.

I want to talk to you every minute of the day. Be with you and be able to kiss you, hug you when I want and need to and not just behind closed doors.

But I can't. I know I don't deserve someone like you but I just can't help my self. I want you even though you are too good for me. I want you even though you are bad for me. I want you in spite of everything that happens that's why I've always settled for any time I can spend with you allbeit if that means you use me. I'd do anything if it means being close to you.

I am sorry I've fallen for you. But four years of feelings have built up to this.
Relationships come and go, and I always come back to you. You are always there .. ready and waiting but then as soon as the deed is over we are like strangers again. And it can't go on, even though I'm scared it will stop.

I'm scared I'll never be able to kiss you again. I'm scared I'll never be able to see that look in those gorgeous eyes again. That look I fool myself is meant for only me. I'm scared no one will make me laugh or cry the way you do. And I'm scared to tell you all this.