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To those suffering eating disorders of any kind

Hey i thought i would post this thread for any one struggling with an eating disorder. Im suffering from bulimia and ahve done for three years. Its hard feeling alone. Anyone who would like to share their feelings and experiences with eating disorders of any form are quite welcom, its nice not to feel alone.

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Reply 1

PointeShoes-x

14

I'd be happy to talk to you, PM me if you want. :smile:

Reply 2

Anonymous #1

I went on a crash diet a year ago and lost 2 stone. I diden't eat praticly anything for 2 months and excersised until it hurt. When i did eat i made my self sick and took laxatives constantly. Ever since i hav been on and off with this sort of thing. On a school holliday ( the reason for losing weight ) teachers noticed i liked to eat very healthy and i was never really a lunch eater and they thought that it was ok to watch me eveytime i ate and to see if it was suitable. It pissed me off so much! They went and told every teacher ( they were just heling out - not real teachers) and the lead teacher. They decided... on their own... that if i dident eat propperly i wasn't aloud to play in our matches. I was fuuuuuuuuuuuuuming! And believe me! I was stuffing myself on that holiday! I put on loads of weight too! I just dident liek to eat mc donalds like them (who were fat a hell). : ( sorry for the rant but its on my mind.

Reply 3

Anonymous #2

I had obsessive compulsive eating disorder for a couple of years when I was really depressed. It ruined my life - all I could think about was food and how disgusting I was. I'm not really sure what reduced its effects - I'm much much better now. I get the occasional binge session, but opposed to every day, I'm near sorted.

I know my disorder wasn't necessarily to try and get thin - it was to try and make myself feel better, which had the adverse effect of making me extremely overweight and therefore more depressive, which lead to binges etc.

I think as I have gotten older, the habits have slipped, I've met guys who liked me as a person and therefore I think subconsciously I stopped myself.

I do know how hard these disorders are and I don't think you ever recover properly

Reply 4

ninja679

6

I've been struggling with EDNOS, on and off, for four years. I have major anorexic tendencies and I tend to use it as a coping mechanism; I like the control of it all.

Reply 5

Anonymous #3

Ive never been diagnosed with anything but im pretty sure i have some sort of eating disorder!
No one has noticed, which is good but all i think about is loosing weight and being skinny.
I went on a diet not too long ago and lost just over a stone, it got very addictive and eventually my mum made me stop.
Ive been on and off dieting ever since and i just hate my figure completely, :frown:

Reply 6

Anonymous #4

I had bulimia 2 years ago...and I'm free of it now but its still a thing every day for me to not go back and not put myself down to go back...it got so bad at one point where I wasn't even binging I just wasn't eating put I was puking up my bile anyways and my stomach started "eating itself" and copious amounts of blood started coming out with the bile....I was found passed out on the school bathroom floor in a cubicle by a teacher and from then onwards I was put on the road to recovery. It was criminal what I was doing to my body, but it was the only thing I could have control of in my life after my best friend moved away, I had almost been raped and just my world becoming so bleak. I'm so healthy and happy now and I couldn't imagine going back to the way I was...try your hardest OP to kick the habit its painful and emotionally draining but once ure out on the other side the world looks so much better and so do u!

Reply 7

lisiloo

I am a recovering anorexic. I'm 17 and was first hospitalised at 11. I've had 6/7 relapses and been in ICU on life support twice...but this is the longest I have been in successful recovery so it's going really well!
If any one wants to talk/ask anything do PM me... I'm very knownledgable about recovery/hospitalisation and spport so don't be afraid to ask!

Reply 8

thatone

1

ninja679

I've been struggling with EDNOS, on and off, for four years. I have major anorexic tendencies and I tend to use it as a coping mechanism; I like the control of it all.

Me too.

Reply 9

Anonymous #5

I started a crash diet a few years ago just before I went on holiday. At the time I was about 8 and a half stone (5 ft just incase you're interested) and I wasn't happy because I felt bloated and my tummy wasn't flat. On a crash diet of eating pretty much a bowl of dry cereal and an apple, and drinking only water, I got down to about 6 stone. Felt great; slim, light etc. Also I was very active so didn't feel weak at the time.

During the holiday I couldn't eat healthily due to the places we ate at (was with adults)so I started to feel bloated, I was hardly active for the two weeks so I began to feel sluggish and when I did eat I sort of over ate thinking I'd feel less tired and lethargic but all that happened was that I couldn't get the full up feeling anymore and soon I went the other way and started binge eating to make me feel well again. But it didn't work and I started to put on weight. So then I started making myself sick after any meal I deemed to be too big or two unhealthy. I realised it was getting silly after a few months when I made myself sick after eating cereal with milk. So I stopped doing it and the weight kept creeping up. I also went on the pill which I believe contributed to weight gain.

Nowadays I'm a bit over weight due to being lazy and over-eating -'cause I've stretched my stomach I presume, and I actually want to do that crash diet again so I look nice again :o:

I'd rather do it slowly and healthily but I'm just desperate at the minute and keep putting off eating but it's failing because I just end up feeling lethargic. I want to be active but things are putting me off, so I'm trying to compromise with myself... possible? Also my boyfriend keeps telling me I'm gorgeous (I'm not), and that he likes me how he does. I'm sure he does but he also liked me two years ago when I was much slimmer so why is he trying to stop me from slimming?

This post seems really pointless now... although admitting it to someone does make me feel weirdly stronger.

Reply 10

Strawberry_ox

Bulima.
Eurgh, Ive suffered with this previously and used to make myself sick when ever I ate food, I wouldnt binge, Id eat as little possibe and anything I did I just brought back up. Id be sick untill my stomach hurt. :frown:

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I suffered for quite some time but got help and I am no heading in the right direction I have my off days, but anyone who has had that sort of mental disorder will always have them evil thoughts, its hard to let it go.

Reply 11

Anonymous #6

i dont quite know what i am..all i know is that i find it so so hard to loose weight due to having an underactive thyriod gland...i eat about 1000 calories a day and im still about 8 f*cking stone (5 foot 3) so i make myself sick but its not really unhealthy food like chocolate, more often it is low fat yogurt or bread or something...its all i think about!

Reply 12

Rozzo89

12

I used to be bullimic in the summer - lost weight cause of it, still practise it now and again

Reply 13

stgirl11

OP

Hey all, thanks for sharing your stories and experiences. Il explain mine.

I suffer quite chronic bulimia. Im now 20 and i have had it since i was 17. i have felt a lot of pain in my teens, my family life has spiraled out of control really. My mother has had several relationships, my step dad looked after me since i was 2 and when they split it was a big blow, i had rows with mums new partner and he gave mum an ultimatum. Also they had a child and at 16 i took care of him a lot and have many other younger siblings i have been responsible for. My mother has gotten credit out in my name without asking and i feel i have noone to trust.

My eating disorder started when i was 17 in sixth form, bearing all the above info in mind with added peer pressure and shouvenist head of course always calling me fatty, i mean i was 11 stone and im 5ft 4 inches. I began to diet, desperate to loose weight, in fact i would simply stop eating, i only ever managed to last one week though, never reaching below ten stone and by the weekend i couldnt take it any longer. this went on for about three months, constantly trying to fast and failing. One time i had done so well and over ate, in frustration i went to the toilet and purged. The feeling after was such relief i felt i had undone all the bad and it was quite immense. I continued to diet and eat a little with no premeditation to purge although i always would!.

Then it became standard that most things i ate i would purge, although not all of it. I became more and more obsessed untill i would vomit after every thing i ate and get rid of all of it. I now weigh 8 and a half stone. I purge between 3 to six times a day. its almost like im stuffing all the bad feeling down with food and then releasing it by purging afterwoulds and taking back control, its a vicious circle.

I also abuse laxitives and have recently cut myself although never have done before. I always admire anorexic people because of the control they have although im aware any eating disorder is hard and none are particuarly easier than others, i guess the self restraint in anorexics is admirable, i just feel greedy, worthless and out of control.

My friends are undertanding and im quite an open person, although i hate to out my 'drama' on them and feel i deserve to be alone with it. its a strange thing to go through and something im afraid to let go of but hate to bare at the same time.

anyone feel they want to talk about anything, just to share a little, PM me :smile:

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Reply 14

stgirl11

OP

Anonymous

Ive never been diagnosed with anything but im pretty sure i have some sort of eating disorder!
No one has noticed, which is good but all i think about is loosing weight and being skinny.
I went on a diet not too long ago and lost just over a stone, it got very addictive and eventually my mum made me stop.
Ive been on and off dieting ever since and i just hate my figure completely, :frown:

It seems like you have issues with body image and food. If you constantly think about it too. It can be easy to slip into as your probably wuite aware, but my advice would perhaps to see some councelling to prevent it worsening. Its great you have recognised you may have a problem perhaps verging a controlled level?. Are there any stresses, upset, pain or things that have happened outside your control that may provoke your negative eating habits? is peer pressure an issue for you?

I hope that you are ok and manage to see the beauty in you, as there is beauty in everyone :smile:

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Reply 15

stgirl11

OP

Anonymous

I had obsessive compulsive eating disorder for a couple of years when I was really depressed. It ruined my life - all I could think about was food and how disgusting I was. I'm not really sure what reduced its effects - I'm much much better now. I get the occasional binge session, but opposed to every day, I'm near sorted.

I know my disorder wasn't necessarily to try and get thin - it was to try and make myself feel better, which had the adverse effect of making me extremely overweight and therefore more depressive, which lead to binges etc.

I think as I have gotten older, the habits have slipped, I've met guys who liked me as a person and therefore I think subconsciously I stopped myself.

I do know how hard these disorders are and I don't think you ever recover properly

Being bulimic i can completely relate to your disorder, the compulsion to just want to eat can be so overpowering! im so pleased to hear your doing better and i hope you keep it up. just shows there is hope for the likes of me.your right It will always be with us. I admire your perspective and how you have managed to bring it under control, so well done xxxxx

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