(Original post by BlueAngel)
Well I cant,I mustnt be that strong. I feel better when I know I'm not praying, rebelling like, but its not like my life is getting better. Anyway like I said, I am damned to hell, so why try now and be good, cos I'm never gonna go to heavan, even if Muhmd pbuh said we will eventually go to heavan, I will not.
saba hunny you can't know for sure that your are going to go to hell, there is a story of this one guy who has killed 99 people(killing is like the worst) anyway he wanted then to stop and to turn to go, he went to a priest and told him I've killed 99 people, would god forgive me the priest told him noway, so he killed him too, then he was told there was this one man who is wise..etc, so he went there, the man told him sure god will forgive you but go to this village , it has a lot of good people, so he went there, he died on the road, the angels had a conflict, the heaven angels say that he belongs to them and the hell angels say that he belongs to hell, so they said they'll measure the distance if it was closer to the village he would go to heaven if it was otherwise he'd go to hell, so god made the distance where the man died to the village smaller and the other distance larger, so the guy went to heaven.
my point is that it's not ture, that god doesn't love you, I mean everybody has bad moments, 2 days ago i was so depressed i couldn't even cry, i felt everything is dark, but hunny you gotta have hope, people die because it's their desitny because that is life, as same as people are being born, people die, it's like the circle of life, and who told you if you did commit suicide god wont forgive you??!!, and you must have problems in your life, and you must get over them, to feel the real happiness as if you've done something. your saying like I studied hard for this one exam I got a low mark or didn't get an A I'll never study again!!!