grrr...needing to vent!

Well, having a good day ( which believe me hasn't happened in a few years now) and once again my mother manages to ruin my mood. Bascially Ive been really depressed the past four years and decided to sort it out last month, by going to the docs and getting antidepressants. My dad knows about this but my mother doesnt as we are not close at all. Because of feeling shitty for the last yr and not bothering about life, my grades have slipped really badly in my second yr of my diploma, so Ive gone to college and am re doing the yr come this september. Finally the antidepressants have started to kick in and am feeling motivated and bothered whether I live to see another day.
Now my mother is saying 'you better work this yr etc etc,' when on top of college I work 20 hours a week ( im 21 and support myself alot), hardly get to go out as majority of friends live far away/at uni. I am right under her nose and yet she didn't notice how f***ing miserable Ive been and thats why my grades have slipped despite the fact i love art and design. Some days I wnat to just come out with it all, but I know im gonna say some pretty hurtful things in the process but this anger towards her is becoming a quite unbearable and frustrating!!!! GRRRRRRRR.
Sorry I really needed to vent it out, else I would have stewing all night about it, thanks!

Can I ask why you feel the need to go on anti depressants if you haven't sought out counselling?

A lot of people are in your shoes. I went through a year of uni working 50 hour weeks and two jobs to support myself. Plus studying for my RAF application on top of that. I left after my first year though as I nearly burned myself out.

I don't mean to be rude or whatever but surely your mum wants what's best which is why she's saying you should work hard. Also, as good as it feels venting frustrations on an internet forum won't solve the problem. Talking to your mum (calmly) will. Talking to a professional who deals with emotional problems and meds will. But this won't solve any problems...

I do work hard, damn hard but when you have depression that quite severe, its very hard to motivate yourself as you feel life isn't worth living. And as for speaking to my mother, well when you blame her for everything, somehow being calm won't come into it. And actually, ive been on forums before and found it more helpful then seeing a councellor so if you have nothing helpful or constructive to say, keep your trap shut.