because inside i know many feel this way...

whats going on? im so messed up. my heads screwed up. my world is upside down. unpredicable. somethings not quite right? im hiding behind myself. the real me is drowning. im out of my depth. the darkness is consuming and forever welcoming. i seem to fade right out. my heart is tormented with a red hot poker, piercing screams rip through the silence of the night. but here i stand, calm, composed. restrained by the mind forged shackles of life. my innermost thoughts turns my blood green. the rose in my hand tears the flesh. im losing hope.
the shadows of the night unveils a demon of lost thoughts. i stand upright, head high, proud to be what i am, only under the cover of darkness. when none can pull me down. but what am i? slings and arrows fly, my thoughts in turmoil. they're killing me inside. my conflicting emotions fight a battle against myself. and somewhere, in the place of dreams, i drift with the hope to live in peace. the memory of bitter sweet blood running across my lips, keeps me going. hunting for the next victim of my heart. darkness closes in. time slips out the window. things change. i stay. the people i love, turn their back. once again im consumed with this growing sense of sorrow. i turn to lean on you. you're not there. i fall down those neverending stairs. that haunt my dreams. i put my trust in you. i give you my heart. i bleed. and for all that, all i have to show- the scars that run deep in my soul.
i cant sleep. cant lay on my back. because theres a knife for everyday i've lived. though my cuts heal, the scars burn eternally. the pills numb my pain, but dull throbs stab inside. invisable to the eye, im overcome with pain. convulsions control me, my mind runs wild. dark shadows liberate me. whilst the suns golden rays blind me. im lost. alone. talentless. cold. and noone cares....

whats going on? im so messed up. my heads screwed up. my world is upside down. unpredicable. somethings not quite right? im hiding behind myself. the real me is drowning. im out of my depth. the darkness is consuming and forever welcoming. i seem to fade right out. my heart is tormented with a red hot poker, piercing screams rip through the silence of the night. but here i stand, calm, composed. restrained by the mind forged shackles of life. my innermost thoughts turns my blood green. the rose in my hand tears the flesh. im losing hope.
the shadows of the night unveils a demon of lost thoughts. i stand upright, head high, proud to be what i am, only under the cover of darkness. when none can pull me down. but what am i? slings and arrows fly, my thoughts in turmoil. they're killing me inside. my conflicting emotions fight a battle against myself. and somewhere, in the place of dreams, i drift with the hope to live in peace. the memory of bitter sweet blood running across my lips, keeps me going. hunting for the next victim of my heart. darkness closes in. time slips out the window. things change. i stay. the people i love, turn their back. once again im consumed with this growing sense of sorrow. i turn to lean on you. you're not there. i fall down those neverending stairs. that haunt my dreams. i put my trust in you. i give you my heart. i bleed. and for all that, all i have to show- the scars that run deep in my soul.
i cant sleep. cant lay on my back. because theres a knife for everyday i've lived. though my cuts heal, the scars burn eternally. the pills numb my pain, but dull throbs stab inside. invisable to the eye, im overcome with pain. convulsions control me, my mind runs wild. dark shadows liberate me. whilst the suns golden rays blind me. im lost. alone. talentless. cold. and noone cares....

im lost. alone. talentless. cold. and noone cares....

HEY!!!!
i did say i knew others felt that way! i wrote that instead of cutting...just thought id share it with you ppl....cos i know others out there feel the same (from all those pm!!!!!)....n smtimes it helps knowing sm1 out there feels the same...lil crazy flake thought it was a good idea....i was just tryin to do smthing positive...as usual i guess i got it wrong...sorry....

HEY!!!!
i did say i knew others felt that way! i wrote that instead of cutting...just thought id share it with you ppl....cos i know others out there feel the same (from all those pm!!!!!)....n smtimes it helps knowing sm1 out there feels the same...lil crazy flake thought it was a good idea....i was just tryin to do smthing positive...as usual i guess i got it wrong...sorry....