hi... i need some advice
hi guys i need some advice here. i am egyptian and english is my second language so please mind my english mistakes.
I have lived my whole life in the UAE (Dubai) and everything was going well untill my parents got divorced, i could not believe what was happening and i was devastated so i told my mum that i want to continue my education in egypt and i went there in my nineth grade. it was the first time i live in egypt my own country! i was very excited and very happy.
i went to egypt in 2006 and did my GCSE's over there but egypt turned out to be a nightmare for me. i was starting to get bullied for the first time in my life and this made my life a living hell. i hated school and i didnt study for GCSE and i was getting bullied in school everyday. so i did pretty bad in my GCSE's and got 3 C's and 1 B.
I went back in the summer vacation to Dubai and i told my mum i hate egypt and i dont want to go back there again. i want to stay here in dubai with u and my best friends, but my mum told me that i should go back to egypt to finish another year in egypt and then come back because if i wanted to start school in dubai they would fail me 1 year because i need to do my GCSE's in one country or something ( it was complicated but i had to go back to egypt for another year).
i went back to egypt and made another 4 Olevels and i failed them completely.... my life started to fall apart and i was addicted to an online game called maplestory and i am still addicted . i played this game because it was my only friend in egypt and life there was horrible.
i went back to dubai and my mom told me that i need to concentrate on my last year in GCSE and i had to take both O levels and AS levels. i suffered depression in dubai i dont know why but i wasnt studying at all and i was still playing maplestory.
after the third year which i failed. My mom was furious and so were my brothers and i really hated myself and my mom told me that i need a fresh new start in school and i went to New Zealand and right now i am in Auckland. i am in Ncea level 2 form 6 currently and i have been here since february (almost 6 months). i found school very complicated, the system is very complicating but the subjects were easy. i tried to meet some new friends here but i just seem not to fit in. this is a new country, new people, different lifestyle and i am depressed.
Right now i am very scared of failing this year although we are only in mid year but i am very scared. i am suffering of an addition in online gaming and i dont have any close friends here in school and this is why i am playing. i am not studying and my life i falling apart again.
ps: someone in the school who i was trying to be friends came up to me and told me " Listen man, i dont mean to be rude or anything but dont try to fit in with us because u never will and u r different so just leave." he told me this in front of like 10 people, i couldnt belive this was happening and right now i hate my life .
please give me some advice on how i adjust my life and i dont care about people here in new zealand but i need to focus on school work but its just too hard when i am all alone
This is the longest thread i have written in my life. Thank you very much for reading
ps: i wrote this in another sub forum but it wasnt a forum for chatting and it was the wrong forum.. so i reposted here. thank u