hey pls keep anon or delete. ok well i've been having sex on and off for the last 5 years, total of 8 partners, 3 who have been long term relationships, one of which i'm in now. i still find sex difficult a lot of the time and tend to just stick to missionary and girl on top as i feel worried i wouldn't be able to do it any other ways - i often find it hard to even get my boyfriend erm, 'inside', even though i feel very turned on, my muscles are often tense even when i try to relax and even when we do loads of foreplay. usually the sex is great but i feel really jealous of other people who just seem to be able to slip it in and have sex with no effort, i'm getting stressed about it now because every time things are leading to sex i end up worrying about whether we'll actually be able to do it. i'm on the pill and we don't use condoms if this is maybe a factor. it's not so bad with my current boyfriend, with my last boyfriend it led to us splitting up as it was pretty much impossible even with lube etc. does it get easier with time?
Now I'm moving to his city