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    I can't believe the posts on this thread. Shocking really...

    OP:

    1. Be honest. If you keep lying, it's just going to become worse and worse. Get family and friends to support you. Tell the truth! Also, how are psychologists going to help you if you lie? Tell the truth!

    Frankly, I don't think there is anything else you can do unless you start telling the truth first.

    And see a proper specialist! You really need one!

    You need proper help, the support of your family and friends, and to stop lying!
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Sometime I think the only way to fix it is to end it, or live with a load of Buddhists for the rest of my life :p:

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    I resent that, im budhist, dont knock it till you tried it, wotked for me when i was depressed, although even i dont fancy living on a mountain in safron robes.

    On a more relvent note you have heart, you know whats right and whats wrong, i wonder if you even let yourself cut loose? when was the last time you did something spontaneus and crazy, doesnt have to be getting drunk, but maybe get on a train and disappear somewhere random for the week.

    I also think you cant force it, the problem with despair is its a viscous cycle and you will have good days and bad, my suggestion is to (if its appropriate) tell your family you feel suffocated or distant and you need to cut loose somehow.

    Lastly have you considered writing? it helps
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    Too much CS, WoW, Fantasy and Sci-fi books/films. That's all. You are primarily more aggressive and games such as these + wild imagination, your desire to be something more or to be unique ( kill ppl???!?) like a char in the game/book -> ruin ur psychic.

    You'll eventually get over it. Go kick boxing or choose another sport with much violence, aggression and power usage :> It helps.
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    (Original post by A GROWN MAN CRYING.)
    Get some hobbies like maybe fencing, joining a shooting range or martial arts. Or learn how to fly a helicopter or drive a tank.
    Seriously? :lolwut: In that state? That's a one-way ticket to suicide.
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    (Original post by im so academic)
    I can believe the posts on this thread. Shocking really...
    How academic of you :awesome:

    Anyway OP stop lying to your damn doctor or shrink & he might be able to help you.
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    This is obviously a serious issue, and you need to deal with it before you become a Pat Bateman parody

    you say you have difficulty dealing with it as you're a compulsive liar...perhaps you have issues speaking face to face somebody about it? It must be incredibly uncomfortable to speak about something like this in person.

    Why don't you try writing out everything: all of your feelings, your thoughts, your concerns etc about your condition, informing your doctor that you can't speak too well about your problem face to face as you have this lying issue. Include everything you want to get off your chest, be completely honest, and warn your doctor of certain things that you will do/lie about to avoid speaking. You managed to type up all of this on tsr, so perhaps you'd be okay with writing a letter? If you display sincerity then your doctor will do their best to help you. I hope to have helped and hope you can overcome your problem soon, and be happy x
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    (Original post by im so academic)
    Seriously? :lolwut: In that state? That's a one-way ticket to suicide.
    Yes. Im seriously recommending flying a helicopter & joining a shooting range to someone who claims he is a psychopath. On the internet where everything is serious

    Good day to you sire :rolleyes:
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    To put it bluntly, for the past few years I've had these urges/fantasies to kill or hurt people. They always end up with me either killing a lot of people for no reason, or killing someone but in a heroic fashion (i.e. killing a suicide bomber and saving others) but both always end in my death.
    I've seen a psychiatrist about this but he just told me that as long as they don't manifest into physical actions I'll be alright (no ****, doc).

    I don't usually care about these anymore, as it is a daily occurrence, but recently I've been forcing myself to stop doing something, like in my driving lessons sometimes I have to use all my willpower to stop from running someone over and I'll start to drift towards them when my instructor will say something and I'll snap out of it. The worst is when I'll be walking down the street and I'll be coming up to someone and I'll clench my fist, ready to hit them - no matter who they are.

    I also can't say "I love you too" to my parents, they say it to me and I just have to stay quiet, I can't say something that I don't mean.
    I've been depressed for a few years now, having seen a few psychologists, I really want to fix myself - just typing this is making me want to cry right now. I'm finding that I just keep randomly bursting into tears and I really want to end it, but I just don't have the balls.

    I want to see a psychologist again, but I just don't know how to say this stuff, every time I've been I've lied to them. I arrange a meeting then when I get there I just say "no, everything is alright now" and that's that. I'm a compulsive liar, I lie to my friends and family for no reason, they are sometimes just "I can't go out today", even though I can, to sometimes big lies which I just make up on the spot.

    Worst of all though is that I truly hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate my personality, I hate everything about myself. Sometime I think the only way to fix it is to end it, or live with a load of Buddhists for the rest of my life :p:

    I want to do something before I go to uni in September, because as it stands now I don't think I'll be able to cope. I'm not very good at making friends anyway, but I've changed so much over the past few years that I can't imagine liking myself, let alone someone else liking me.

    This shows that you're not a psychopath.

    I would say you're just full of hate, mostly of yourself. And probably feel the need to release all those negative feelings you have, therefore the desire to hurt other people. I think you just need to improve your self esteem and you'll be fine.
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    you so crazy

    everyone wants to kill someone at sometime but dont actually do it :p:
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    OP just wait until you hit a boxer in the street, that'll get rid of those urges. :awesome:
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    take all that, what youve just written, write it out on paper, and show it to your parents and your psychologist.
    we can't help you, but they can.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    You don't realise how much I lie though. I'm pretty sure I'm the text book definition of a Machiavellian personality. I lie for sympathy, for money, and for no reason at all. That's why I'm not sure what to do.
    So how do I know you're not lying now?
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    Let your doctor read that, if you can't say it aloud.
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    I think you need to go back to your GP and relay to them exactly what you said here, and try and make them aware of the seriousness of the way you're feeling. I really don't know what to suggest - but what exactly stops you from carrying out the thoughts?
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    Ignore anyone taking the ****. It sounds like your having a tough time, but i honestly wouldnt worry about whether your turning into a psychopath. Im confident from what I know that the problems you have are all reversable.

    Im guessing from what you've said that your doctor might diagnose you with depression, so your doctor would probably either give you antidepressants or put you forward to a psychologist. In which case if you find it hard to tell the truth i agree with the other posts that have suggested printing off your first post, editing anything you may feel is necessary and showing it to them.

    Theres alot of other people out there like you, and there has been in the past who are now happy and doing well for themselves. Theres no reason why it should be any different for you.
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    (Original post by Skadoosh)

    I iz safe over the internet.
    I iz hunting you down withz my skillz..

    :ninja:
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I've seen a psychiatrist about this but he just told me that as long as they don't manifest into physical actions I'll be alright (no ****, doc).
    having fantasies and urges is normal, you're not going to actually do anything so what's the problem?
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    To put it bluntly, for the past few years I've had these urges/fantasies to kill or hurt people. They always end up with me either killing a lot of people for no reason, or killing someone but in a heroic fashion (i.e. killing a suicide bomber and saving others) but both always end in my death.
    I've seen a psychiatrist about this but he just told me that as long as they don't manifest into physical actions I'll be alright (no ****, doc).

    I don't usually care about these anymore, as it is a daily occurrence, but recently I've been forcing myself to stop doing something, like in my driving lessons sometimes I have to use all my willpower to stop from running someone over and I'll start to drift towards them when my instructor will say something and I'll snap out of it. The worst is when I'll be walking down the street and I'll be coming up to someone and I'll clench my fist, ready to hit them - no matter who they are.

    I also can't say "I love you too" to my parents, they say it to me and I just have to stay quiet, I can't say something that I don't mean.
    I've been depressed for a few years now, having seen a few psychologists, I really want to fix myself - just typing this is making me want to cry right now. I'm finding that I just keep randomly bursting into tears and I really want to end it, but I just don't have the balls.

    I want to see a psychologist again, but I just don't know how to say this stuff, every time I've been I've lied to them. I arrange a meeting then when I get there I just say "no, everything is alright now" and that's that. I'm a compulsive liar, I lie to my friends and family for no reason, they are sometimes just "I can't go out today", even though I can, to sometimes big lies which I just make up on the spot.

    Worst of all though is that I truly hate myself. I hate the way I look, I hate my personality, I hate everything about myself. Sometime I think the only way to fix it is to end it, or live with a load of Buddhists for the rest of my life :p:

    I want to do something before I go to uni in September, because as it stands now I don't think I'll be able to cope. I'm not very good at making friends anyway, but I've changed so much over the past few years that I can't imagine liking myself, let alone someone else liking me.
    I'm sorry, but I don't want people like you in society, mental issues or not, if you've got the mindset to cause harm, one day you will.

    Best thing you can do is get sectioned
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    Urges to kill and hurt people does not instantly = psychopath.

    Look up the definition of Psychopath, you don't become one, you're born one.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I don't usually care about these anymore, as it is a daily occurrence, but recently I've been forcing myself to stop doing something, like in my driving lessons sometimes I have to use all my willpower to stop from running someone over and I'll start to drift towards them when my instructor will say something and I'll snap out of it. The worst is when I'll be walking down the street and I'll be coming up to someone and I'll clench my fist, ready to hit them - no matter who they are.
    Tell them this paragraph and you'll get all the help you need
    Also its very brave of you to come out with this, I wish you the best of luck in the future.
 
 
 
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