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    I need to find those people. when i dwell on things I honestly feel like giving up. today i had thoughts of just putting everything on hold. like what seriously is the point of me sitting exams this year? when i haven't applied for uni, god knows when i'll be ready, etc etc. like seriously why put myself through it. i absolutely despise everything, it literally makes me sick to my stomach how bad things are and how much of a failure i am with regards to my personal life/:snow::snow::snow::snow:. oh god how can this happen?
    i say this every year but i am honestly giving it one more year and if nothing's improved i dont think i can carry on. i am just at such a low point. i can't be the real me. i dont know what to do anymore.
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    (Original post by Malsy)
    I need to find those people. when i dwell on things I honestly feel like giving up.
    have you tried googling whatever it is you've done/has happened to you? in an attempt to find some sort of support group?

    today i had thoughts of just putting everything on hold. like what seriously is the point of me sitting exams this year? when i haven't applied for uni, god knows when i'll be ready, etc etc.
    you need to see your exams as an achievement in themselves, not just a step to uni. Even if you never go to uni your results will help you with jobs etc.
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    (Original post by wilderness_walking)
    Hmm its a strange think depression. Mine is definetly situational...i tend to get to depressed about circumstances and events rather than just feel rubbish often.

    Obviously i dont know anything about your depression given the info you've just given but it perhaps could be a hormonal thing? Have a e-hug anyway lol :hugs:
    Thanks for the e-hug lol :hugs:

    Yeah could well be a hormonal thing which is why I really want to see the doctor now, I can't put it off any longer (funnily enough we've been learning a bit about the causes of depression at Uni) . I had a lot of issues at the beginning of the year which probably contributed to it but since leaving 6th Form ( aka hell for me) I had a period where I was SO happy, the happiest I had been in a long time just because the bad times seemed to be over. I think moving away from home was what triggered the anxiety and panic attacks, as for the food/weight thing well I did have an issue with it in the past but I never really got help for it so I guess it never really went away.
    I had a few counselling sessions at Uni about a month ago and they went really well, sorted out a lot of stuff concerning family relationships but I never really addressed the anxiety issues.
    I tend to feel depressed when I'm physically feeling bad like headaches, dizziness, fatige, insomnia and when I have panic attacks but its only recently that it just really creaps up on me some times randomly...
    Its strange how now things finally seem to be going right for me I'm falling apart. Maybe its a delayed reaction or something :rolleyes:
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Hey guys, how's everyone getting on?

    I've not been around much recently, not been feeling too good, done two out of three essays for uni and still :snow::snow::snow::snow::snow::snow::snow::snow: myself about going back. I actually hate it there. Hope you're all getting on ok.
    YAY! I'm so happy for you Sabertooth! :party: :clap2: :blow: :jive: :rave: ( lol sorry went a bit OTT with the smilies)

    Glad you've been feeling ontop of things. You know its funny the more time I spend at home the less I want to go back to Uni too actually. I don't mind going back for lectures and I do miss my freinds but its just living there that gets me down a lot. Especially when I'm having one of my funny turns I just feel so ALONE . Hope things are better for you in the New Year!
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    (Original post by gee_shakedown)
    I think I possibly had a panic attack today;it was really quite scary. My chest was going mental and I couldn't properly breathe or talk and just had to lie there curled up for about 10 minutes until it started to go away, but it took me hours to calm down
    Ah sorry to hear that :hugs: I suffer from panic attacks a lot too...horrible isn't it?
    I used to have really sever ones which would last for ever, Id get dizzy, couldn't breathe, heart racing and couldn't even eat/sleep. Id be shaking like mad too...
    I think I've managed to control it though, its just trainning your self to not focus on what is making you panicky. I still get them but I just isolate my self , have a cup of chamomile tea, take deep breathes and go for a walk to burn off the adrenaline. Have you had an attack before? Do you know what triggered it?
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    (Original post by Chrisateen)
    Aw :hugs: I feel the same way too. I have no motivation to my uni work and have no interest in my course. All the stuff I use to do I no longer do and it takes so much effort just to do the basic stuff.

    Hope the start of the new year will be a positive thing for you
    Yeah, I just feel soooo lazy, woke up this morning and I just wanted to stay undercovers for the whole day, I had no reason to really get up, I was quite happy with the idea of snuggling up with a good novel and my iPod. :p:.
    I hope the New Year is good for you too. I really want things to change this year and will do everything in my power to get out of this hole.
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    ugh i hate things like new years eve :cry: it just makes me think how different i am to most other people. i can't enjoy life like they can. i'm so pathetic i can't believe im still alive :sigh:
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    (Original post by death.drop)
    on the one hand you'd think a friend would support you and want to listen and help you out.
    On the other hand sometimes people can't handle negativity, they just need some light-hearted chat - you don't know what was going on with them right at that moment, maybe they just couldn't deal with it right then.
    He has a lot of issues of his own, he just ignores them and thinks I should do the same.
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    (Original post by lotsofsnails)
    ugh i hate things like new years eve :cry: it just makes me think how different i am to most other people. i can't enjoy life like they can. i'm so pathetic i can't believe im still alive :sigh:
    :hugs: I don't really get in the same excited mood as everyone else does either. I do hope its a good year for you though
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    The sky is so clear I can see the craters on the moon with my naked eyes. Staring at it, I'm lost in time and space. The sun beats down upon the moon's surface, causing it glow. Staring at it feels like being burned alive, flesh disappearing in front of my eyes. Clouds blur the path to heaven, and the moon is moving faster. Is it really there, or am I just schizophrenic?
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    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    :hugs: I don't really get in the same excited mood as everyone else does either. I do hope its a good year for you though
    aww thank u :lovehug: you too. are u optomistic?
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    (Original post by lotsofsnails)
    aww thank u :lovehug: you too. are u optomistic?
    I guess I have to be if I'm going to get through this. I REALLY want things to work out I'm just tired of feeling sorry for my self when things are going great, you know? I really feel like sorting my self out, I don't feel I've tried enough so I have no reason to give up just yet.
    I know its easier said than done but its a whole new decade so I guess for the first time in a long time I'm actually looking forward to it in a way.
    How are things going for you anyway?
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    (Original post by lotsofsnails)
    ugh i hate things like new years eve :cry: it just makes me think how different i am to most other people. i can't enjoy life like they can. i'm so pathetic i can't believe im still alive :sigh:
    Me too see no point in celebrating New Years. Feel like its another year of depression I have to live with. I also wished that I could just enjoy life like all other normal teens do but my depression and coming from a strict Christian background always prevented me from having fun. I guess thats why I have no friends and I am still on TSR with only 30mins till new yrs day. I should be living not just merely existing

    I just wish I never existed plus today I made some food and burnt some of it and my mum shouted at me and said that how come that when she told me to cook for the first time since I come home I happened to burn the food. Just made me feel like I am better off dead as I always make my parents angry all the time
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    Well, happy new year everyone. Fingers crossed it'll be better than the last one.
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    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    I guess I have to be if I'm going to get through this. I REALLY want things to work out I'm just tired of feeling sorry for my self when things are going great, you know? I really feel like sorting my self out, I don't feel I've tried enough so I have no reason to give up just yet.
    I know its easier said than done but its a whole new decade so I guess for the first time in a long time I'm actually looking forward to it in a way.
    How are things going for you anyway?
    that's good u have that attitude i dunno how i feel. it's like, things could be good, but depression's just ruining things. i don't know how i can get out of it. it may just be a winter thing to do with the darkness though, hopefully it improves when spring comes.

    (Original post by Chrisateen)
    Me too see no point in celebrating New Years. Feel like its another year of depression I have to live with. I also wished that I could just enjoy life like all other normal teens do but my depression and coming from a strict Christian background always prevented me from having fun. I guess thats why I have no friends and I am still on TSR with only 30mins till new yrs day. I should be living not just merely existing
    aww i'll be ur friend if u want :o: do u have msn?

    [I just wish I never existed plus today I made some food and burnt some of it and my mum shouted at me and said that how come that when she told me to cook for the first time since I come home I happened to burn the food. Just made me feel like I am better off dead as I always make my parents angry all the time
    aww :hugs: they probably didn't consider it a big thing though?
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    I really feel like just giving up. I feel like crying every time someone even talks about the future, cos I just can't imagine that I have one. I just want to escape back away from my family, even though I know I'll probably fall apart completely, it's just too much effort keeping myself together. I'm so :snow::snow::snow::snow::snow::snow::snow: scared.
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    (Original post by lotsofsnails)
    aww i'll be ur friend if u want :o: do u have msn?



    aww :hugs: they probably didn't consider it a big thing though?
    Yeah I do have MSN.
    I wanted to tell my parents about my depression. I told my parents that in the last few weeks I have not been feeling myself and have been more sad than usual however my mum started shouting and called me selfish and said that I was lying and was only saying it for attention. I started to break down in tears and ran upstairs and no one even followed me up to ask how I was feeling. No I realised I am on my own and when I go back to uni Im gonna get loads of sleeping pills and alcohol and attempt to kill myself. Maybe if I do that they would take me more seriously
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    happy new year everyone; all the best for the forthcoming year
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    (Original post by superwolf)
    I really feel like just giving up. I feel like crying every time someone even talks about the future, cos I just can't imagine that I have one. I just want to escape back away from my family, even though I know I'll probably fall apart completely, it's just too much effort keeping myself together. I'm so :snow::snow::snow::snow::snow::snow::snow: scared.
    Please don't give up. I hate talking about the future too or even thinking about it, there seems to be so much emphasis on it now I'm no longer at college. Just take each day as it comes :hugs: lets make this year a good one.

    (Original post by lotsofsnails)
    that's good u have that attitude i dunno how i feel. it's like, things could be good, but depression's just ruining things. i don't know how i can get out of it. it may just be a winter thing to do with the darkness though, hopefully it improves when spring comes.
    Yeah it seems to be worse in winter, I can't wait for Spring too when I can go for lovely long walks. I hate being cooped up in the cold. I've put things off for too long now and am going to get help when I go back to Uni, I just want to sort my self out and move on. I don't want all the good things in life to pass me by anymore, I turned down a party last night and my friend had to reschedule her night, I felt so rotten about letting her down all because I didn't feel happy or in the mood to socialise. I don't want to loose people over this . After my mini break down last year at college ( almost chucked out because of it) I have learnt that I need to manage my time properly and get a healthy balance of work and play and me time.

    Guys we can do it! We can make it a good year! Don't give up just yet! Happy 2010 to you all and big :hugs: to those who need it.
 
 
 
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