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    (Original post by Malsy)
    I sense you're trying your best and that's the best you can do tbh. Stop beating yourself, all the things you mention, most can be made better and if you worker hard and motivate yourself to getting that good grade it's more likely to come true. Hard work never fails to pay off tbh and so you can do it. Chemistry ISAs are AWFUL as are all ISAs tbh; so subjective, not a syllabus to follow, etc, that's why you've got to be fully prepared. But remember everyone's in the same boat and although it may seem like you're going to fail now trust me you won't; these obstacles aren't something you can't overcome and one day you'll look back and think ''why was i ever worried''.

    I'm EXACTLY and I mean exactly the same in terms of wasting my life. I'm wasting my youth. I've been deteriorating for so long now it's just disgusting. I don't want to look back and think OMG turn back time so i may just have to bite my tongue and get on with this life to avoid that one day. it's just so hard though as I currently have no life whatsoever and can't do anything i want to due to my circumstances, so you have to remember there are others out there suffering the same, if not worse, and try your hardest to not end up regretting things like me. good luck. hugs.
    Thanks Alot. Really helpful. its nice to know other people are going through this, as it seems every teen seems to be having the time of their life.

    very much appreciated.
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    (Original post by Deyn_08)
    Thanks Alot. Really helpful. its nice to know other people are going through this, as it seems every teen seems to be having the time of their life.

    very much appreciated.

    oh no dear. quite the opposite. to say the least. i hope uni will be a lot better but i'm thinking of rushing into it just to graduate early which is a bit odd and i won't be myself or be comfortable or have fun and enjoy it and will probably look back and regret uni when it's meant to be the time of your life. meh. why did my life ever get this bad it's all my fault but the damage is done. anyway hope you're feeling better. and remember a levels are hard work and i'm also struggling to find the motivation to learn the vast amount we need to know and i can't remember the last time i spent an hour on anything but homework nevermind the 5 hours teachers say per subject per work it's not too great but hopefully we'll be ok. you're not alone. honest.
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    I wish I knew who I was :cry:
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    **** this. I am so fed up of everything. Parents had meeting with my counsellor, I ended up storming out in tears because my mother was saying 'I know depression, she doesn't have it' - loads of balls, she knows nothing about it. Then had to see GP, on parents insistence. Third GP, third way of treating it, not antidepressants am being referred somewhere.

    Just as well I just gave all of the pills in my room to my parents, I just got rejected from Bristol which means Durham are definitely going to reject me too. Feel like such a bloody failure all the time. I really didn't need this today, I base my whole scale of how much of a failure I am on academia :cry: God, why the hell can't I be normal? I'm going to end up messing up my exams again this year.
    :hugs: you've been so positive and helpful towards me, surely you should be as kind to yourself. Just because you got one rejection it doesnt mean you will get another, I got 3 rejections from Unis that wanted BBB and two acceptions ( one wanted BBB one wanted CCC). So don't just go on the grade boundaries because they take other things into consideration too. The fact that you have persevered despite your problems and have shown ambition by wanted to further your education are good enough reasons alone to consider you. Don't cut yourself short until you actually get the result on paper. One thing I'm afraid we are all prone to is becoming a self-fulfilling prophecey. We tend to psyche ourselves up to fall, and then we do. I was reading something today and it said to stop hoping for the best but expecting the worst because if that is all you expect then that is all you will get.
    I've been having doubts too about my ability to pass this year but we both have time left to revise, its not too late to turn things around. We are both struggling with lack of energy but even 2 hours a day of revision can make a difference.

    As for what your mum said, I think her denial is her way of protecting you, my mum is the same, she wants everything to be alright "its just a phase" but at the same time we need their support. I've told my mum I want her support and that I will beat this and I've spoken to her like a proper adult and I think she respects that and is become more open to what is going on with me. Just let your mum know that you are having a hard time and its times like these where you just need her support, even if she doesn't agree with your diagnosis she still needs to be there for you as its not something you should go through alone. :hugs: hope you feel better soon. As for me...I'm sooo....very...tired!!!
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    (Original post by Nothos)
    I wish I knew who I was :cry:
    (Original post by Malsy)

    Whats up ladies? :hugs: :hugs:
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    I can't stand this. I know other people have bigger problems than me and manage to keep going but I just feel so ******* awful. Feel like this thing's killing me slowly and I can't do a thing to fight it, I just wait and hope without really believing that something will happen and make things better. Don't know what to do.
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    (Original post by superwolf)
    I can't stand this. I know other people have bigger problems than me and manage to keep going but I just feel so ******* awful. Feel like this thing's killing me slowly and I can't do a thing to fight it, I just wait and hope without really believing that something will happen and make things better. Don't know what to do.
    :hugs: what is making you think that way? feel hopeless?

    Like I was saying to steffi, we tend to become selffulfilling prophecies. Its about trying to change our way of thinking and not hoping for the best and expecting the worst. What you expect is what you get, don't expect fot things to just get worse or they will. Sure there will be days even weeks where you will feel :cry: but then there will also be days where you'll feel .
    Are you looking after yourself getting enough sleep/food? ( says the girl who never sleeps and wonders why she is cranky...)
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    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    :hugs: what is making you think that way? feel hopeless?

    Like I was saying to steffi, we tend to become selffulfilling prophecies. Its about trying to change our way of thinking and not hoping for the best and expecting the worst. What you expect is what you get, don't expect fot things to just get worse or they will. Sure there will be days even weeks where you will feel :cry: but then there will also be days where you'll feel .
    Are you looking after yourself getting enough sleep/food? ( says the girl who never sleeps and wonders why she is cranky...)
    I was talking to my sister earlier and that always makes me feel like **** after, cos it's just too much effort trying to be ok.

    It just seems like I feel like this all the time, and why shouldn't I expect thing to get worse if that's all that ever happens. And the longer this goes on the more likely it is that one day it'll finally be too much for me and the only thing I'll be able to do is kill myself.

    I've been sleeping sort of alright since I got sleeping pills, but most days I hardly eat anything.
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    (Original post by superwolf)
    I was talking to my sister earlier and that always makes me feel like **** after, cos it's just too much effort trying to be ok.

    It just seems like I feel like this all the time, and why shouldn't I expect thing to get worse if that's all that ever happens. And the longer this goes on the more likely it is that one day it'll finally be too much for me and the only thing I'll be able to do is kill myself.

    I've been sleeping sort of alright since I got sleeping pills, but most days I hardly eat anything.
    Sorry to hear that, I reckon lack of food probably isn't helping your situation but then I know what its like, this sort of thing can really wreak havoc with your appetite, I go from being pac man one minute to being repulsed by the thought of food the next.
    Is it circumstances which make you feel this way or is just a general unexplained feeling you have ? ...somehow I think its more frustrating when its just your mood and not what is happening around you. Take me fore example, my life is finally on track after 7 years and more of hell and suddenly I'm feeling :cry: ( but then the fact that I hate my course might have some part in how I'm feeling).
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    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    Sorry to hear that, I reckon lack of food probably isn't helping your situation but then I know what its like, this sort of thing can really wreak havoc with your appetite, I go from being pac man one minute to being repulsed by the thought of food the next.
    Is it circumstances which make you feel this way or is just a general unexplained feeling you have ? ...somehow I think its more frustrating when its just your mood and not what is happening around you. Take me fore example, my life is finally on track after 7 years and more of hell and suddenly I'm feeling :cry: ( but then the fact that I hate my course might have some part in how I'm feeling).
    Well my life's pretty **** right now but it's all caused by my depression. If I hadn't been depressed I wouldn't have dropped out of uni, would have bothered keeping in contact with all my friends, would be having a perfectly decent life. And I have no idea why I'm depressed in the first place.
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    (Original post by superwolf)
    Well my life's pretty **** right now but it's all caused by my depression. If I hadn't been depressed I wouldn't have dropped out of uni, would have bothered keeping in contact with all my friends, would be having a perfectly decent life. And I have no idea why I'm depressed in the first place.
    Yeah that tends to be the most annoying thing, not knowing why you're depressed . Obviously your quality of life has deteriorated since suffering but things will pick up again soon enough when you find what is right for you. Just concentrate and focus on what you want out of life and go out and get it :yes:
    I'm off to try and get some sleep now ( the fire alarm just went off a minute ago, hope it doesnt again...one of the many cons to living in halls). Night and hope you feel better soon. :hugs:
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    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    Yeah that tends to be the most annoying thing, not knowing why you're depressed . Obviously your quality of life has deteriorated since suffering but things will pick up again soon enough when you find what is right for you. Just concentrate and focus on what you want out of life and go out and get it :yes:
    I'm off to try and get some sleep now ( the fire alarm just went off a minute ago, hope it doesnt again...one of the many cons to living in halls). Night and hope you feel better soon. :hugs:
    Thanks. Sleep well.
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    Blah, long time since I posted here. Not having a good time at the moment just recently started on citalopram 20mg three weeks ago and so far it's done nothing for me, I know it's supposed to take time to help with depression and anxiety but really that's time I don't have. The only thing I like about it so far is the fact that I now dream at night, in the many years before taking it very rarely did I dream. Now I get all sorts of vivid dreams about stealing cows from shopping centres, and other assorted weirdness. Downside is I get this terrible foggy feeling in the mornings when trying to wake up, if I set an alarm it's like another 2 hours until I'm actually able to get up. Does this eventually disappear for most people? Throughout the day on it too I feel pretty numb and I noticed it's increased my tendency to self harm and suicidal feelings. I know this is quite common before the benefits kick in so I was wondering how long I have to wait that out? Got appointment with the GP on thursday to see whether to keep me at this dose, or up it so I guess I'll bring that up then.

    Uni is going badly at the moment, managed to score high 2:1 in the autumn term however since early January I've been on a massive down spiral. Supposed to be working on dissertation at the moment in for April yet it's been 3 weeks since I even looked at it. I just can't face anything at the moment. Will probably end up requesting an extension on it but that means I wont graduate in summer as I'll miss the external invigilation deadline

    Depression pee's me off I feel very frustrated, had it since I was 15ish and now 7 years later I've still got it and if anything it's slowly getting worse not better. It annoys me that doctors have always said it'll get better with time, it's just gotten worse. For 6 months at a time I'm basically prevented from living my life, I then get maybe 2 months respite where I'm able to cope then it's back to another 6 months feeling like crap. It's almost clockwork now. CBT didn't help, sertraline didn't help, counselling didn't help, increased exercise didn't help, beginning to run out of energy for all of this. I just don't see how they expect me to carry on when so far I've found nothing helps

    Sorry for the long post, needed to get it off my chest. I owe you all a cookie if you read it.
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    (Original post by fire2burn)
    Blah, long time since I posted here. Not having a good time at the moment just recently started on citalopram 20mg three weeks ago and so far it's done nothing for me, I know it's supposed to take time to help with depression and anxiety but really that's time I don't have. The only thing I like about it so far is the fact that I now dream at night, in the many years before taking it very rarely did I dream. Now I get all sorts of vivid dreams about stealing cows from shopping centres, and other assorted weirdness. Downside is I get this terrible foggy feeling in the mornings when trying to wake up, if I set an alarm it's like another 2 hours until I'm actually able to get up. Does this eventually disappear for most people? Throughout the day on it too I feel pretty numb and I noticed it's increased my tendency to self harm and suicidal feelings. I know this is quite common before the benefits kick in so I was wondering how long I have to wait that out? Got appointment with the GP on thursday to see whether to keep me at this dose, or up it so I guess I'll bring that up then.

    Uni is going badly at the moment, managed to score high 2:1 in the autumn term however since early January I've been on a massive down spiral. Supposed to be working on dissertation at the moment in for April yet it's been 3 weeks since I even looked at it. I just can't face anything at the moment. Will probably end up requesting an extension on it but that means I wont graduate in summer as I'll miss the external invigilation deadline

    Depression pee's me off I feel very frustrated, had it since I was 15ish and now 7 years later I've still got it and if anything it's slowly getting worse not better. It annoys me that doctors have always said it'll get better with time, it's just gotten worse. For 6 months at a time I'm basically prevented from living my life, I then get maybe 2 months respite where I'm able to cope then it's back to another 6 months feeling like crap. It's almost clockwork now. CBT didn't help, sertraline didn't help, counselling didn't help, increased exercise didn't help, beginning to run out of energy for all of this. I just don't see how they expect me to carry on when so far I've found nothing helps

    Sorry for the long post, needed to get it off my chest. I owe you all a cookie if you read it.
    Yeah ssris have a black box warning in the US that they can increase suicidal and self harm behaviour in young people it's generally why fluoxetine is prescribed first. Vivid dreams are also common on antidepressants. I didn't get the foggy feeling with citalopram but do with what I'm on now and I've taken it a few months and it hasn't gone away. But if you're feeling more suicidal or self harm urges are stronger you probably shouldn't up the dose. Have you tried other ssris because a different one might work better for you? Generally you should start to feel effects within about 8 weeks, I found the side effects of citalopram disappeared after about 2 weeks.

    I know what you mean about uni, I'm averaging 2:2s and haven't been to class in a while Uni takes a back seat when you feel like ****.

    Sorry to hear you've had depression so long, but you only mentioned sertraline and citalopram, there are quite a few other antidepressants you could try if you want to continue down that route. Don't really know what else to suggest because it sounds like you've tried pretty much everything :console:




    ....where's my cookie? :flutter:
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    Eurgh. I hate the horrible limbo I'm stuck in.

    At my old school, I was an under achiever. I was worthless.

    At my new college, because I have already done A levels and part of uni, I am an over achiever. I am worthless.

    I can't get into unis. The only one I can get into is one where I'll probably get bottled by some ******* Welsh chav.

    I can't think about my imminent driving lesson next week without starting to panic.

    I haven't ridden in sodding months and it's driving me insane.

    I have no job.

    I haven't spoken to the one guy who makes me feel better in ages (because he annoyed me...)

    I get annoyed at everyone or everyone seems to annoy me. I snap at people for nothing. I can't say a civil word to my parents one minute and the next I want a hug. I need them to oblige or I feel even more ****.

    I hate the night.

    The minute I think about my Dad leaving I start to cry. I had to walk off from a conversation in college today because one of the guys laughed when I said I was worried about him. Why the **** do guys always do that?! All my girl mates said that they were sorry to hear he was going. My guy mates have all got the attitude of 'he's not a foot soldier, he's not in danger, get over it'. Well **** you guys. He may not be carrying a rifle out and going out in a tank but he's still going to be living in a ******* warzone for four and a half months. Every time the news comes on with reports of another officer/soldier dead I worry that it might be someone I know. I'm going to spend my summer worrying that it might be my Dad. Pull your heads out of your arses and sodding think for a second :cry:
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    Hello


    Just asking, does anyone else end up on a downer because of one small thing that happened during their day?

    And the up moments seem short lived? or it takes a lot to make you smile?

    I'll admit I find it hard to socialise well, gets me down a fair bit.
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    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    Whats up ladies? :hugs: :hugs:
    I'm a he :p:

    And I'm just confused about everything right now :sad:
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    (Original post by Malsy)
    really sorry to hear that i wish your mum was a bit more understanding for your sake and was happy you're getting help but i guess she sees no problem and i guess she just wants to protect you and you to be ''fine'' like everyone else. hope this referral place helps you
    i'm really sorry to hear about uni; that sucks majorly i agree academia and pleasing others is my main basis of life atm so to speak and i agree about the being normal so you're not alone remember that but you can get through this as you are a good person with a lot to offer, i assure you!
    exams are always really meh; i'm self-teaching a subject i've not even started and it scares me but you just have to crack on and try your hardest. school has never been so tedious and i hate it but there's only 2 months left. hugs:hugs:
    Thanks :hugs: I'm feeling a lot better today, I guess because my Mum's being more understanding. The antidepressants probably were making me feel slightly worse too, given that they can in the first few weeks. :rolleyes: I'm actually feeling okay enough to go to work and do babysitting today (hey, it's money for chocolate :awesome:), and probably even some homework!

    Best of luck with your subjects, we can both still do it! :yep:

    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    :hugs: you've been so positive and helpful towards me, surely you should be as kind to yourself. Just because you got one rejection it doesnt mean you will get another, I got 3 rejections from Unis that wanted BBB and two acceptions ( one wanted BBB one wanted CCC). So don't just go on the grade boundaries because they take other things into consideration too. The fact that you have persevered despite your problems and have shown ambition by wanted to further your education are good enough reasons alone to consider you. Don't cut yourself short until you actually get the result on paper. One thing I'm afraid we are all prone to is becoming a self-fulfilling prophecey. We tend to psyche ourselves up to fall, and then we do. I was reading something today and it said to stop hoping for the best but expecting the worst because if that is all you expect then that is all you will get.
    I've been having doubts too about my ability to pass this year but we both have time left to revise, its not too late to turn things around. We are both struggling with lack of energy but even 2 hours a day of revision can make a difference.

    As for what your mum said, I think her denial is her way of protecting you, my mum is the same, she wants everything to be alright "its just a phase" but at the same time we need their support. I've told my mum I want her support and that I will beat this and I've spoken to her like a proper adult and I think she respects that and is become more open to what is going on with me. Just let your mum know that you are having a hard time and its times like these where you just need her support, even if she doesn't agree with your diagnosis she still needs to be there for you as its not something you should go through alone. :hugs: hope you feel better soon. As for me...I'm sooo....very...tired!!!
    Thanks. I'm sure we'll both manage to do it. :yep: My Mum's being lot better about it all now. I doubt I'll get into Durham, but hopefully I can meet my Manchester offer Just have to work hard for the next few months.

    -

    I'm considering starting rowing again, I'm fed up of doing nothing and am feeling a lot better today, possibly because of how much sleep I managed to get/excess amounts of chocolate.
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