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    (Original post by Srxjer)
    Sometimes, suicide seems the only logical path to escape the suffocating sadness. Anyone else feel the same? I need to cheer up!
    Same here. No idea what to do about it though.
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    (Original post by Srxjer)
    Sometimes, suicide seems the only logical path to escape the suffocating sadness. Anyone else feel the same? I need to cheer up!
    (Original post by superwolf)
    Same here. No idea what to do about it though.
    Same same
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    I was having such a good day, considering. Despite the fact that I spent most of the day in sunny Manchester with tonsillitis (meaning that I felt like I was burning up even when it was probably not the summery weather I was feeling :rolleyes:) in a long sleeved sweater to hide my sh marks from my parents. I actually managed to take an interest in going around the accommodation.

    Then I get home and felt motivated enough to not only send off my application for accommodation but also to start my coursework. Then I find out that I've lost my guide for the coursework. Cue mini breakdown about... Well, everything. I have to sort this out - I'm taking History in one year and can only take the exams this summer, so I can't afford to be breaking down/avoiding lessons/getting tonsillitis all the time.
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    (Original post by Srxjer)
    Sometimes, suicide seems the only logical path to escape the suffocating sadness. Anyone else feel the same? I need to cheer up!
    (Original post by superwolf)
    Same here. No idea what to do about it though.
    (Original post by Zebrastripes)
    Same same
    Things will improve - they always do, always! :yes: Okay, my advice is going to be crap because I felt like that 10 minutes ago/still am, but you have to cling to the fact that things will improve, you will push through this and that you have a wonderful future waiting for you.
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    (Original post by Srxjer)
    Sometimes, suicide seems the only logical path to escape the suffocating sadness. Anyone else feel the same? I need to cheer up!
    (Original post by superwolf)
    Same here. No idea what to do about it though.
    (Original post by Zebrastripes)
    Same same
    Feeling suicidal is never good. But I guess that goes without saying and I'm stupidly pointing out the obvious. I often feel suicidal myself, and struggle with it pretty much constantly when I'm awake. It's scary sometimes how deep the thoughts can bury themselves into your conciousness.

    When you get the impulses if it's not too rude to ask, what actually stops you acting upon them and going through with it? If you find something that keeps you from going ahead with suicide maybe it's a good idea to build upon that and use it as a foundation to prevent yourself slipping further.
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    (Original post by fire2burn)
    Feeling suicidal is never good. But I guess that goes without saying and I'm stupidly pointing out the obvious. I often feel suicidal myself, and struggle with it pretty much constantly when I'm awake. It's scary sometimes how deep the thoughts can bury themselves into your conciousness.

    When you get the impulses if it's not too rude to ask, what actually stops you acting upon them and going through with it? If you find something that keeps you from going ahead with suicide maybe it's a good idea to build upon that and use it as a foundation to prevent yourself slipping further.
    My sister. She's the most important person in the world to me and I know she feels the same, so if I killed myself it would just destroy her. And that's the only thing which keeps me from doing it.
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    (Original post by fire2burn)
    Feeling suicidal is never good. But I guess that goes without saying and I'm stupidly pointing out the obvious. I often feel suicidal myself, and struggle with it pretty much constantly when I'm awake. It's scary sometimes how deep the thoughts can bury themselves into your conciousness.

    When you get the impulses if it's not too rude to ask, what actually stops you acting upon them and going through with it? If you find something that keeps you from going ahead with suicide maybe it's a good idea to build upon that and use it as a foundation to prevent yourself slipping further.
    My family and true friends. It's an ultimately selfish thing to do, as it would cause a lot more pain to them than what I'm feeling atm.

    And, I'm determined to fight! I just wish people would be more understanding, though. Nobody knows what it's like until they go through it themselves.
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    My dad swore at my and hit my little brother on saturday evening. I am so infuriated by him. :mad: At the moment i'm in a "i'm not talking to you until you apologise" mood. Should I stick to my guns and ignore him? What would you guys do?!?

    I'm so confused by my ****** life. What's worse is that my grandma is suffering from dementia and kept me up all night for a 2nd night in a row. If ever i felt like killing myself it was today. .

    I think i'm having a mental breakdown or something :cry:
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    (Original post by blue_shift86)
    My dad swore at my and hit my little brother on saturday evening. I am so infuriated by him. :mad: At the moment i'm in a "i'm not talking to you until you apologise" mood. Should I stick to my guns and ignore him? What would you guys do?!?

    I'm so confused by my ****** life. What's worse is that my grandma is suffering from dementia and kept me up all night for a 2nd night in a row. If ever i felt like killing myself it was today. .

    I think i'm having a mental breakdown or something :cry:
    Good on you for standing up for your little brother, your dad has no right to act like that. Ignoring him sounds like a decent enough tactic.

    :hugs: Sorry things are still tough with your grandma. Can't really think of anything you can do, short of soundproofing your room with egg cartons. :holmes:

    How go the travel plans? When you're feeling **** you should just think of how many thousands of miles away you'll be in just a few month's time.
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    (Original post by superwolf)
    Good on you for standing up for your little brother, your dad has no right to act like that. Ignoring him sounds like a decent enough tactic.

    :hugs: Sorry things are still tough with your grandma. Can't really think of anything you can do, short of soundproofing your room with egg cartons. :holmes:

    How go the travel plans? When you're feeling **** you should just think of how many thousands of miles away you'll be in just a few month's time.
    hi super,

    How have you been lately? I just try think of traveling. It keeps me sane. I can't decide whether to book the whole trip with STA travel or just do it bit by bit...i.e. just get my flight to thailand, then go along bit by bit. What do you think? I'm leaning toward bit by bit so i can have to opportunity to do some charity work in thailand if possible. STA traveling sounds very restricted but it guarantees passage into all the countries. (ones where they need proof of onward travel!
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    (Original post by blue_shift86)
    hi super,

    How have you been lately? I just try think of traveling. It keeps me sane. I can't decide whether to book the whole trip with STA travel or just do it bit by bit...i.e. just get my flight to thailand, then go along bit by bit. What do you think? I'm leaning toward bit by bit so i can have to opportunity to do some charity work in thailand if possible. STA traveling sounds very restricted but it guarantees passage into all the countries. (ones where they need proof of onward travel!
    Meh, I'm same as ever really.

    If you can afford it (presuming it would be more expensive) I'd just book everything as you go along. I like having everything as flexible as possible when I travel, cos you never know which places you'll want to spend more/less time in til you get there. And if you meet anyone you want to travel around with for a bit it'll be easier if you don't already have fixed plans. Just don't run out of money and end up becoming a drugs mule to pay for your flight home...
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    Arghhh sorry to bombard this board again with my problems... only I'm kind of in a bad way :/
    I've just started coming out of one of my super-extreme-depressed moods and I feel really rubbish. Only now this friend who I've always supported when people bullied her for her dress sense/sexuality/irritability is blanking me and saying nasty stuff because I couldn't go out at the weekend because I felt too depressed. I can't see how this is fair, and to top things off, these girls I barely know were making mean comments BARELY behind my back today at school, and another girl I hardly know started randomly taking the p out of me for being vegetarian. I mean, COME ON.
    Anyhoo, I explained to the friend who's blanking me that I'm seeing a doctor because my mood swings are getting so bad and she's called me a whiny martyr (and some worse things) and now I don't want to go to school because I'll have to sit next to her in practically all of my lessons. :/
    ARGHHHH
    Sorry guys, just needed to vent that.
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    (Original post by TheGhostofODonahue)
    Arghhh sorry to bombard this board again with my problems... only I'm kind of in a bad way :/
    I've just started coming out of one of my super-extreme-depressed moods and I feel really rubbish. Only now this friend who I've always supported when people bullied her for her dress sense/sexuality/irritability is blanking me and saying nasty stuff because I couldn't go out at the weekend because I felt too depressed. I can't see how this is fair, and to top things off, these girls I barely know were making mean comments BARELY behind my back today at school, and another girl I hardly know started randomly taking the p out of me for being vegetarian. I mean, COME ON.
    Anyhoo, I explained to the friend who's blanking me that I'm seeing a doctor because my mood swings are getting so bad and she's called me a whiny martyr (and some worse things) and now I don't want to go to school because I'll have to sit next to her in practically all of my lessons. :/
    ARGHHHH
    Sorry guys, just needed to vent that.
    :console: People are idiots. I suggest my three-step program for surviving school:
    Step one - learn to recognise all idiots (there are many).
    Step two: - learn to disregard all their opinions, because they are idiotic.
    Step three - socialise with the remaining people (if there are any).

    It worked for me, sort of.

    Hopefully your friend will think things over and realise she's being a ****. If not, then clearly she's not much of a friend.
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    How are you all today?

    I'm here binging on chocolate biscuits ( which I know I will regret later) and trying to motivate myself to revise for a whole stack of exams next week but I'm just so tired and fed up. Was very irritable today also. I can identify with what Hubert Poo said about being a paradox. I don't even know what I want anymore from life...apart from to be happy. I seem to get upset at the slightest thing...I HATE being jealous I just get these voices all the time saying "you should be more like her...you should dress more like her...you should be a nice as her...you should have a figure like her"...I just feel sick at what I have become.
    I don't deserve friends or love ( which is probably why I'm trying to convince myself that a guy I'm getting to know, and who told me he likes me, only wants to use me....after all there is nothing special about me.) I just want to get my head sorted out...but all I want to do is destroy myself...to not feel anything anymore. To just disappear. :cry:
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    (Original post by superwolf)
    :console: People are idiots. I suggest my three-step program for surviving school:
    Step one - learn to recognise all idiots (there are many).
    Step two: - learn to disregard all their opinions, because they are idiotic.
    Step three - socialise with the remaining people (if there are any).

    It worked for me, sort of.

    Hopefully your friend will think things over and realise she's being a ****. If not, then clearly she's not much of a friend.
    I wish I could do that, only most of my other friends are on a school trip this week, and one of my best friends is going out with her... I've tried emailing her to ask what her problem is (thought in not quite such a blunt fashion) and she's ignoring me (as usual) but she keeps updating her facebook status to things like "You know when you want to punch someone in the face for being such a martyr...?" and "You know when you just want to tell someone to shut the f up?" and I'm so depressed right now I can't cope with it My parents don't know what to do either, cos when I get depressed they do too and I feel so guilty because they have enough problems to deal with.
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    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    How are you all today?

    I'm here binging on chocolate biscuits ( which I know I will regret later) and trying to motivate myself to revise for a whole stack of exams next week but I'm just so tired and fed up. Was very irritable today also. I can identify with what Hubert Poo said about being a paradox. I don't even know what I want anymore from life...apart from to be happy. I seem to get upset at the slightest thing...I HATE being jealous I just get these voices all the time saying "you should be more like her...you should dress more like her...you should be a nice as her...you should have a figure like her"...I just feel sick at what I have become.
    I don't deserve friends or love ( which is probably why I'm trying to convince myself that a guy I'm getting to know, and who told me he likes me, only wants to use me....after all there is nothing special about me.) I just want to get my head sorted out...but all I want to do is destroy myself...to not feel anything anymore. To just disappear. :cry:
    :hugs: I know exactly how you feel. I have coursework piling up and it's all so tiring to do. I'm pretty nervous about the rest of my time in sixth form, part of me wants to do well, but the other part just can't be asked. Grr, frustrating :sad:. And my first counselling session is still pending 2 months now . Mind you, it's free from a community organisation, referred to by my GP, so I can understand why it would take long, but still, frustrating . I'm probably gonna buy one of those self-help books in WHSmith; I was having a flick through a few of them the other day, they have lots of good info about depression and how to deal with it, that is anything should help me hopefully. If I remember to put my purse in my school bag tomorrow, I'll go down the high street after school. I've been trying all sorts of vitamins from Holland and Barretts to try and help me, like St John's Wort, they don't seem to work too well though, so I better stop wasting my money there.
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    (Original post by Srxjer)
    Sometimes, suicide seems the only logical path to escape the suffocating sadness. Anyone else feel the same? I need to cheer up!
    I feel like that a bit sometimes. But then, I am rather scared of death, so I really couldn't go through with it, not to mention how embarrassed I'd feel around people if I'd failed, and I dunno if I'd want to be institutionalised either. Please cheer up though, you have so much to live for, the rest of your life ahead of you. It may not feel that way now, but things'll get better I'm sure. I have to tell myself this all the time.
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    Lost my friends, cos they can't handle how ****** up I've got. Want to die.
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    Totally know how you feel, I feel like this is starting to happen to me too :console: Is there any sort of support group where you can make some new (more understanding) friends? xk
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    (Original post by TheGhostofODonahue)
    Totally know how you feel, I feel like this is starting to happen to me too :console: Is there any sort of support group where you can make some new (more understanding) friends? xk
    There's no way I can make new friends, only surprised I kept the old ones for so long. Worst part is I live with them, which will be slightly awkward seeing as I now know they can't stand being around me.
 
 
 
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