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    (Original post by Zebrastripes)
    :hugs: Don't let her get to you. Though it may be an idea to try and talk to her about it. Say that you've struggled with depression and are worried about your exams. I'm sure if you're honest with your friend she will understand, and it might make your friendship stronger for it. I'm sure she just cares about you and wants you to socialise. I'd give anything to have friends like that. But it is a bit pathetic to go writing about you on her blog. :rolleyes:

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    I've actually woken up feeling okay today, which is a relief. Though I'm supposed to be going to a Chinese karaoke thing tonight for a friends leaving do.. Chinese food I can just about tolerate, karaoke I HATE. I can't sing at all. So nervous and anxious about it, but trying not to let it bother me. Just thinking of it as a way to make friends and be seen out rather than the singing. Although I really can't afford it at £20 a head!
    I did tell her that as soon as she mentioned it, but apparently that's a feeble excuse and all I'll really be doing is sitting around doing nothing. Who gives a **** now anyway, it's my life I can do with it what I want, when I want. I'm just so fed up of this sort of thing. Honestly, you don't want people around you like that. I'd link the blog, but I'm not that sort of person.

    Surely you don't have to sing if you don't want to? Ouch, £20 per person is quite expensive!
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    (Original post by Zebrastripes)
    Hello! Why don't you ask your hairdresser what they suggest? They've seen it all before so they should know what might work. I'm with you on the whole self esteem, social anxiety and loneliness thing, it's not very nice. Tell us more about yourself?
    What else do you want to know? I'm 19, look a mess, I've never had a relationship..apart from one who cheated on me pretty much one week later.., everything I do hairwise looks terrible thanks to the receding, I'm scared to put myself in social situations for fear of being judged. I only leave the house for college, I force my problems upon my friends in the hope that they'll help even though they've heard it all before and I think its now got to a point where I just crave the attention. I spend most evenings in my house getting upset at how much low self esteem I have that I can't even bring myself to try and speak to the opposite sex. I avoid my family as much as possible (still live with them 'til October), I'm now at a point where I'm turning down social opportunities with my old friends because I'm scared of socialising..even with the people close to me..it's hard for me to trust.
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    I did tell her that as soon as she mentioned it, but apparently that's a feeble excuse and all I'll really be doing is sitting around doing nothing. Who gives a **** now anyway, it's my life I can do with it what I want, when I want. I'm just so fed up of this sort of thing. Honestly, you don't want people around you like that. I'd link the blog, but I'm not that sort of person.

    Surely you don't have to sing if you don't want to? Ouch, £20 per person is quite expensive!
    Sorry she's being horrible :hugs:

    I'm always the one who says no to things. Like in this hat game where you have to mime or describe a person.. I always back out. Or those stupid drunk word games like "can you see the moon in the cup", i don't blimin get it and always feel like a fool. So I've decided, if they ask me to sing, I'm going to say I won't do it on my own, but will if people join me... then I'm not being too lame. :o:
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    Oh, I can not believe some people that I once thought of as 'friends'. This one has ranted on her public blog about me - about how I always turn down social occasions with the 'excuse' of studying. Well, I have an exam in 2 weeks and have missed the entire half term preparing for it because of depression. Apparently I'm a 'let down'. Well screw her. I've had enough of her attitude towards me and her always thinking she knows what's best for me. Oddly enough, different people value different things.

    I did actually go out the other day, and I played up that my parents made me arrange it. They didn't, it was just a way of keeping certain people from getting offended as much as I could when I didn't invite them (as I wanted it to be a fun evening, rather than people having arguments). But I turned down something she's arranged because it's ONE WEEK before my weakest exam in my weakest subject.

    Apparently when I say I'm studying, I'm lazying about. Hmm, how did I get such good grades in January then? I play down how much work I do, that's just who I am.

    It really pisses me off, as all my urges to self harm are back, thanks for that. :rant:

    Well screw friends TBH, all they ever do is this sort of thing.
    It's stuff like this which has made me lose faith in mankind...what a total *****! You should confront her and ask her why she didn't say it to her face "you ******* back stabbing chicken *****" - "now i wont be attending because I hate being around people like you, you low life sleazy *****". - I'd say something like that and kill off the friendship forever.

    I'm sorry to hear she did that to you but i went through similar things in school....i found out that people only let me play with them in return for academic help etc...when i grew wise of their deceit i became a loner forever! I've never ever ever had a good friend in my whole life...i'm constant paranoid about people's motives but how can you not when you have people like that girl back chatting like that, and in my case people talking to me only when it suits them
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    (Original post by SharpDressedMan)
    What else do you want to know? I'm 19, look a mess, I've never had a relationship..apart from one who cheated on me pretty much one week later.., everything I do hairwise looks terrible thanks to the receding, I'm scared to put myself in social situations for fear of being judged. I only leave the house for college, I force my problems upon my friends in the hope that they'll help even though they've heard it all before and I think its now got to a point where I just crave the attention. I spend most evenings in my house getting upset at how much low self esteem I have that I can't even bring myself to try and speak to the opposite sex. I avoid my family as much as possible (still live with them 'til October), I'm now at a point where I'm turning down social opportunities with my old friends because I'm scared of socialising..even with the people close to me..it's hard for me to trust.
    Have you thought about seeing a doctor or counsellor? I think you should try and go out with your old friends. I know it's hard, I'm pretty much exactly the same as you, but I don't see it getting any better by shutting ourselves away. We'd just get worse. Baby steps. Take each day as it comes, don't plan too far in advance. I know it's scary, and I'm dreading having to go out tonight with my friends, but it's worth the effort to try and get out of this situation. It's horrible and lonely being like this, trying to do little positive things to make it better may help. You can do it And you don't need to go anywhere near girls yet, wait until you have more confidence. I don't think having a girlfriend right now would be at all beneficial to you. You need to get to know yourself, and learn to love who you are. Wow, I sound like a right idiot! Do you have good days? or good hours? If so, try and think about what makes these good, and remember those things when you're feeling crap. But maybe try and talk to someone. I'm always here if you need to talk.

    How about a hat? I used to hate hats, never suited them.. now I live in one just cos it's comfy, don't care if I look silly :p:
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    (Original post by Zebrastripes)
    Have you thought about seeing a doctor or counsellor? I think you should try and go out with your old friends. I know it's hard, I'm pretty much exactly the same as you, but I don't see it getting any better by shutting ourselves away. We'd just get worse. Baby steps. Take each day as it comes, don't plan too far in advance. I know it's scary, and I'm dreading having to go out tonight with my friends, but it's worth the effort to try and get out of this situation. It's horrible and lonely being like this, trying to do little positive things to make it better may help. You can do it And you don't need to go anywhere near girls yet, wait until you have more confidence. I don't think having a girlfriend right now would be at all beneficial to you. You need to get to know yourself, and learn to love who you are. Wow, I sound like a right idiot! Do you have good days? or good hours? If so, try and think about what makes these good, and remember those things when you're feeling crap. But maybe try and talk to someone. I'm always here if you need to talk.

    How about a hat? I used to hate hats, never suited them.. now I live in one just cos it's comfy, don't care if I look silly :p:
    I'd love to see a doctor or counsellor. But I don't know how much they'd cost and I have no money
    I'd love to go out with my friends..but they always make me feel uncomfortable by trying to force me into situations I don't want to be in I know they mean well but it's horrible
    This is gonna sound bad but the only good days and hours I have are where I'm at college, theonly time I don't look at my reflection..whenever I do I get upset
    Plus in my opinion I've felt not having a girlfriend looks bad on me as a person :o: to me it suggests non-attractiveness, low self esteem, low confidence and general failure. It wouldn't be as bad if EVERY SINGLE PERSON that I seem to meet has all had at least one girlfriend it makes me feel lesser and useless as a person in general
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    (Original post by SharpDressedMan)
    I'd love to see a doctor or counsellor. But I don't know how much they'd cost and I have no money
    I'd love to go out with my friends..but they always make me feel uncomfortable by trying to force me into situations I don't want to be in I know they mean well but it's horrible
    This is gonna sound bad but the only good days and hours I have are where I'm at college, theonly time I don't look at my reflection..whenever I do I get upset
    Plus in my opinion I've felt not having a girlfriend looks bad on me as a person :o: to me it suggests non-attractiveness, low self esteem, low confidence and general failure. It wouldn't be as bad if EVERY SINGLE PERSON that I seem to meet has all had at least one girlfriend it makes me feel lesser and useless as a person in general
    Counselling is generally free on the NHS, though I'm not sure, I've only had it at school and uni. Some college's have them too. Go see your local GP and ask, and maybe search around your college website and see if they have guidance counsellors or someone to talk to. Your college is there to help.

    Why don't you talk to your friends? What are the situations that they force you in to that make you feel uncomfortable? You could try thinking beforehand about these situations and try and come up with ways of doing them on your own terms, sort of prepare for them.

    If you were to put up a thread in the H&R section about not having a girlfriend at 19, so many other users will say the same. It probably feels like everyone has had one, but there are others like you. Try and wait for a girl who deserves you, she'll come along when you least expect it. Having a girlfriend doesn't mean you're a failure. It sounds like you're doing well in college, and that will mean you can get a good education and a good job, and find a girl on your own terms when you're ready. At the moment, concentrate on getting yourself how you want to be. Try reading some confidence boosting books (check reviews on amazon), keep studying, and work on your friendships; everything else will fall into place soon enough

    Try and find positive things about yourself. You don't like your hairline, and you think you're unattractive, but there must be loads of things that are good about you, even if you don't think so right now. Make a list of all the positive things about you, however small and silly you think they are like "i have good teeth" or "i'm a good cook" - try and write down as many things as possible, it might make you feel a bit better knowing that you have all these positive things about you.
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    (Original post by Zebrastripes)
    Counselling is generally free on the NHS, though I'm not sure, I've only had it at school and uni. Some college's have them too. Go see your local GP and ask, and maybe search around your college website and see if they have guidance counsellors or someone to talk to. Your college is there to help.

    Why don't you talk to your friends? What are the situations that they force you in to that make you feel uncomfortable? You could try thinking beforehand about these situations and try and come up with ways of doing them on your own terms, sort of prepare for them.

    If you were to put up a thread in the H&R section about not having a girlfriend at 19, so many other users will say the same. It probably feels like everyone has had one, but there are others like you. Try and wait for a girl who deserves you, she'll come along when you least expect it. Having a girlfriend doesn't mean you're a failure. It sounds like you're doing well in college, and that will mean you can get a good education and a good job, and find a girl on your own terms when you're ready. At the moment, concentrate on getting yourself how you want to be. Try reading some confidence boosting books (check reviews on amazon), keep studying, and work on your friendships; everything else will fall into place soon enough

    Try and find positive things about yourself. You don't like your hairline, and you think you're unattractive, but there must be loads of things that are good about you, even if you don't think so right now. Make a list of all the positive things about you, however small and silly you think they are like "i have good teeth" or "i'm a good cook" - try and write down as many things as possible, it might make you feel a bit better knowing that you have all these positive things about you.
    In regards to my friends when I'm out, they're all the sort to go 'clubbing' and stuff, and whenever I'm on my own in the large crowd I feel tiny They're always saying 'She's looing at you, go and talk to her'. My low self esteem would refuse to believe this is happening (not that it was anyway I imagine) and then I have a panic attack because I wouldn't even know what to say to her..then I walk home upset with less money than I started..what a fun night :rolleyes:

    I'm getting buzzcutted in a few weeks because I believe all this low self esteem shizzle is coming from having bad hair. So hopefully a buzzcut with a beard will look alright. If people don't like then whatever, its all I can do..hopefulyl that'll make me more confident

    As for counselling I'll check with my college..but only if I still feel super bad after my buzz :yep: Thankyou
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    (Original post by Zebrastripes)
    Sorry she's being horrible :hugs:

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    It's stuff like this which has made me lose faith in mankind...what a total *****! You should confront her and ask her why she didn't say it to her face "you ******* back stabbing chicken *****" - "now i wont be attending because I hate being around people like you, you low life sleazy *****". - I'd say something like that and kill off the friendship forever.

    I'm sorry to hear she did that to you but i went through similar things in school....i found out that people only let me play with them in return for academic help etc...when i grew wise of their deceit i became a loner forever! I've never ever ever had a good friend in my whole life...i'm constant paranoid about people's motives but how can you not when you have people like that girl back chatting like that, and in my case people talking to me only when it suits them
    I'm hoping it's just ignorance that's making her say all that. I mean, even without my exam so soon, I probably wouldn't be able to go out and socialise in a 'safe' place (the pub we went to was okayish for that, and I was having an okay week which is why I was sort of okay going out on Wednesday), I burst into tears at work for no reason. Her blog entry states that people would have a better time if I said yes and went, but that's not true - I'll be all down and panicky and teary. Not my idea of a good time!


    (Original post by Zebrastripes)
    I'm always the one who says no to things. Like in this hat game where you have to mime or describe a person.. I always back out. Or those stupid drunk word games like "can you see the moon in the cup", i don't blimin get it and always feel like a fool. So I've decided, if they ask me to sing, I'm going to say I won't do it on my own, but will if people join me... then I'm not being too lame. :o:
    That sounds like a good idea! I hate karaoke too, the last time I did it was in Berlin (so barely anyone knew me) 2 years ago and I was pretty tipsy, so that's the only reason I agreed to do it, and even then that was with 20 other people!
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    Hey hope all is well with you all.

    Had my last major exam of the term on Thursday and I should be more bubbly and full of life but I just feel so run down. I've been in bed all day, I just don't want to do anything, my appetite is pratically non-existant...I'm really scared that I have an eating disoder...obviously self diagnosis isn't a good thing but I seem to experience a lot of things people with eating disoders do ( apart from a B.M.I under 18..it was 20.1 last time I checked). I just hate food yet it is always on my mind, I get so scared thinking about it but then I'm scared about my negative attitude towards it, I don't enjoy eating and I'm meant to be eating out next week for my sisters birthday and I'm terrified that I will have another panic attack like I did last time I ate out. I just hate not being in control of what I'm eating, I'm such a fussy eater. For the first time in my life I'm ok with how much I weigh, there are still things I would like to change and I get the occational feeling of being fat but I'm not as obsessed as I used to be.

    Still haven't heard anything from the G.P in terms of therapy just that I'm on the waiting list.
    I just want to sort out my head, I feel like its controlling me, mum is telling me to stop being so childish and I know my fears are irrational but I can't help feeling the way I do. :cry:
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    (Original post by Loz17)
    Anything to do with pharmacy is demanding. Even working as a dispensary assistant tires you out. I've heard 2nd year of the Mpharm course is the hardest so we have another year before we really struggle

    :hugs: I know how that feels. Half the time I don't have the motivation to ove to go to bed if I'm sat at the laptop, let alone do any work. I seem tothat you take numerous days off of college coz I wouldn't be able to cope. However saying that I do have days where I an very productive but to get to that requires a huge amount of mental force to get in that. I usually just use the hate of feeling like this to motivate me to do some work. I say to myself "If I don 't do something now, then I will remain like this forever" and that scares the **** out of me enough to at least start working and it goes from there. Don't force yourself if you know that you really won't do any work though. Another thing you could try is after you've motivated yourself using hatred for the depression is say "Well I've worked hard to get to where I am now, I must be able to do this, I can do this!"

    Also; is there anyone available at your uni just to talk things through with, just to get the feelings out?

    And thanks :hugs: I know he is, and I've already told him if i'm in a state I'm ringing him.
    Yeah I hate having off days, but I have no choice but to drag my self in. Its weird because I'm not the sort of person who is obviously anxious/depressed. I'm quite an easy going person but its under the surface which I keep guarded from people. My friends were suprised when I told them I have issues, I'm good at masking things up which isn't always a good thing...people just expect me to be all the time.

    I don't really want to talk to others about it, I've have confided in one of my friends a bit but I don't want to burden her with the extent of my problems and she finds it hard to believe that I suffer from anxiety, I always seem ok around everyone. I just don't want people to know me as the anxious/depressed/neurotic girl, I don't want my problems to become who I am, there is more to me than that. There is a misconception ( which I must admit I was no exception to) that depressed people are always gloomy and moody all the time and never smile but its often the very "happy" people who suffer, like Jim Carey.

    How are you today?
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    Hey hope all is well with you all.

    Had my last major exam of the term on Thursday and I should be more bubbly and full of life but I just feel so run down. I've been in bed all day, I just don't want to do anything, my appetite is pratically non-existant...I'm really scared that I have an eating disoder...obviously self diagnosis isn't a good thing but I seem to experience a lot of things people with eating disoders do ( apart from a B.M.I under 18..it was 20.1 last time I checked). I just hate food yet it is always on my mind, I get so scared thinking about it but then I'm scared about my negative attitude towards it, I don't enjoy eating and I'm meant to be eating out next week for my sisters birthday and I'm terrified that I will have another panic attack like I did last time I ate out. I just hate not being in control of what I'm eating, I'm such a fussy eater. For the first time in my life I'm ok with how much I weigh, there are still things I would like to change and I get the occational feeling of being fat but I'm not as obsessed as I used to be.

    Still haven't heard anything from the G.P in terms of therapy just that I'm on the waiting list.
    I just want to sort out my head, I feel like its controlling me, mum is telling me to stop being so childish and I know my fears are irrational but I can't help feeling the way I do. :cry:
    See you GP - the part in bold is exactly how I used to/sometimes still do think. Also, I was diagnosed with an ED with a BMI of between 20-21. It doesn't matter how much you weigh, it's a psychological thing, and drs and other health care professionals understand that.

    I know how you feel about just wanting to get your head sorted, that's exactly how I feel. Just accept all the help they give to you when they do - I'm stuck in a rut of constantly declining help/playing up that I'm okay to everyone and it does not help. :hugs:

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    I laughed and meant it without being drunk for the first time in ages to tonight's Dr Who.

    However, I'm getting pretty sick of people who think they know me (and yet their comments prove that they really don't) telling me what's best for me - that's between me, my GP and the NHS. I'm taking the advice from someone who has neither training nor experience. I just really wish people would leave me alone sometimes. At least my family's not doing it anymore.

    I just want to sit/lie here and pretend that time isn't moving and the world isn't going about its business whilst I idle away the hours. Recently, that's been the only safe thing I can do. The thoughts I had at work were just too disturbing... And now I can't concentrate on my revision. :nothing:
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    Yeah I hate having off days, but I have no choice but to drag my self in. Its weird because I'm not the sort of person who is obviously anxious/depressed. I'm quite an easy going person but its under the surface which I keep guarded from people. My friends were suprised when I told them I have issues, I'm good at masking things up which isn't always a good thing...people just expect me to be all the time.

    I don't really want to talk to others about it, I've have confided in one of my friends a bit but I don't want to burden her with the extent of my problems and she finds it hard to believe that I suffer from anxiety, I always seem ok around everyone. I just don't want people to know me as the anxious/depressed/neurotic girl, I don't want my problems to become who I am, there is more to me than that. There is a misconception ( which I must admit I was no exception to) that depressed people are always gloomy and moody all the time and never smile but its often the very "happy" people who suffer, like Jim Carey.

    How are you today?
    Yes its strange. I haven't told many people I'm suffering but the ones (apart from ym bf who could see that I wasn't happy deep down) who I told were quite suprised coz I usually am quite happy; although saying that when I really do have a down day then it really shows and I tend to avoid any social situations completely. Its horrible :sad:

    I don't want many people to know either for the same reason and misconception as you.

    At the moment, I am just keeping my head down and getting as much work out of the way as possible. I seem to be having some good days atm but I am unsure as too how long these will last. Anxiety does seem to be playing up a lot though :erm:

    Hows you, and how did your exams go?
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    To add to what RachelOranges and Loz17 are saying about misconceptions - that's getting to me too right now, but I guess it's because I put on a mask and pretend that I'm not falling apart inside. Sometimes I wish people would realise that I'm wearing my mask again, but they never do. They didn't notice when my weight was plummeting, why would they notice something with fewer physical signs?

    Okay, I should really stop posting on this thread, but I feel so close to a massive breakdown and I'm worried about what I might do, so this serves as a distraction for now...
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    To add to what RachelOranges and Loz17 are saying about misconceptions - that's getting to me too right now, but I guess it's because I put on a mask and pretend that I'm not falling apart inside. Sometimes I wish people would realise that I'm wearing my mask again, but they never do. They didn't notice when my weight was plummeting, why would they notice something with fewer physical signs?

    Okay, I should really stop posting on this thread, but I feel so close to a massive breakdown and I'm worried about what I might do, so this serves as a distraction for now...
    I reckon half the time if you are 'wearing a mask' and they realise then they feel like they don't wanna get involvedcoz it must be something serious if you're hiding it from everyone

    :hugs: go and do someting you enjoy sweety, like reading or watching some Tv or sleeping before you have a breakdown


    My works been terrible today, so I'm edging towards a breakdown too but I'm just gonna keep my head down as I know me completeing my goals or today before I go to sleep will mean I won't breakdown.
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    (Original post by Loz17)
    I reckon half the time if you are 'wearing a mask' and they realise then they feel like they don't wanna get involvedcoz it must be something serious if you're hiding it from everyone

    :hugs: go and do someting you enjoy sweety, like reading or watching some Tv or sleeping before you have a breakdown


    My works been terrible today, so I'm edging towards a breakdown too but I'm just gonna keep my head down as I know me completeing my goals or today before I go to sleep will mean I won't breakdown.
    I know, but on one hand I don't want my friends to see how I really feel, that's why I go to cry in the girls' loos, like a 12 year old...

    I don't know what I enjoy, I mean I could read some history books or some more of Wicked (currently obsessed with that haha), but I'll just keep thinking about my German work and what people have said...

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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    I know, but on one hand I don't want my friends to see how I really feel, that's why I go to cry in the girls' loos, like a 12 year old...

    I don't know what I enjoy, I mean I could read some history books or some more of Wicked (currently obsessed with that haha), but I'll just keep thinking about my German work and what people have said...

    :hugs:
    Yea same. I'm sort of glad I don't see many of my friends these days for that reason. The only one I see knows coz shes seen me have an anxiety attack.


    Hmm, how much do you know you'd be able to do of the German? Don't push yourself if your close to a breakdown unless you are certain its gonna make you feel better :hugs:
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    Yea same. I'm sort of glad I don't see many of my friends these days for that reason. The only one I see knows coz shes seen me have an anxiety attack.


    Hmm, how much do you know you'd be able to do of the German? Don't push yourself if your close to a breakdown unless you are certain its gonna make you feel better :hugs:
    Yeah, sometimes I feel I'd be better off completely on my own, especially considering that this current breakdown was partly started by someone I thought understood.

    I don't know, I haven't moved since I last posted, I'm too scared to just get my paper, I don't know why. I guess I feel that if I stay still, so will all my thoughts and feelings :erm: I have no idea what to write for it either, I have thoughts and plans for it and then later I'll think that they're rubbish and too basic for A2 level...
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    See you GP - the part in bold is exactly how I used to/sometimes still do think. Also, I was diagnosed with an ED with a BMI of between 20-21. It doesn't matter how much you weigh, it's a psychological thing, and drs and other health care professionals understand that.

    I know how you feel about just wanting to get your head sorted, that's exactly how I feel. Just accept all the help they give to you when they do - I'm stuck in a rut of constantly declining help/playing up that I'm okay to everyone and it does not help. :hugs:

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    I laughed and meant it without being drunk for the first time in ages to tonight's Dr Who.

    However, I'm getting pretty sick of people who think they know me (and yet their comments prove that they really don't) telling me what's best for me - that's between me, my GP and the NHS. I'm taking the advice from someone who has neither training nor experience. I just really wish people would leave me alone sometimes. At least my family's not doing it anymore.

    I just want to sit/lie here and pretend that time isn't moving and the world isn't going about its business whilst I idle away the hours. Recently, that's been the only safe thing I can do. The thoughts I had at work were just too disturbing... And now I can't concentrate on my revision. :nothing:
    Yeah I'm just waiting on this therapy thing to come through and then I can start to sort myself out, I did manage to eat something for dinner now which I know is something everyone else takes for granted but I'm so thankful for every meal I can eat without having a panic about it.
    I know it can be really hard to concentrate on revision especially when things are bad, I had to just ignore how I was feeling and try and cram into my head as much info as I could, whether it worked I have yet to find out for the results of my exams. Ooohh I need to watch Doctor Who! Thanks for reminding me.



    (Original post by Loz17)
    Yes its strange. I haven't told many people I'm suffering but the ones (apart from ym bf who could see that I wasn't happy deep down) who I told were quite suprised coz I usually am quite happy; although saying that when I really do have a down day then it really shows and I tend to avoid any social situations completely. Its horrible

    I don't want many people to know either for the same reason and misconception as you.

    At the moment, I am just keeping my head down and getting as much work out of the way as possible. I seem to be having some good days atm but I am unsure as too how long these will last. Anxiety does seem to be playing up a lot though

    Hows you, and how did your exams go?
    Yeah I'm just thankful for the good days really but its just horrible going to bed and not knowing what mood you will be in the next day, also sleep patterns seem to alternate between sleepless nights and days where I could just sleep all day ( like today...its quite a nice feeling actually, just lying there watching telly ignoring the outside world )

    Yeah my anxiety has been a bit troublesom this week sepcially with the exams. My first one was awful! I had a panic attack and I couldn't get myself calm until half an hour had passed...inevitably I ran out of time so only completed two quaters of the paper which I hate myself for but what can you do?
    The last two exams were better, as long as I pass then I'll be more than happy, I've just found it hard to revise when I'm so run down and low but I can't use it as an excuse really because I'm paying good money to be here and I don't want to have to repeat the year or do resits.
    I'm off to catch up on Doctor Who now and do some more lying in bed .
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    (Original post by RachelOranges)
    Yeah I'm just waiting on this therapy thing to come through and then I can start to sort myself out, I did manage to eat something for dinner now which I know is something everyone else takes for granted but I'm so thankful for every meal I can eat without having a panic about it.
    I know it can be really hard to concentrate on revision especially when things are bad, I had to just ignore how I was feeling and try and cram into my head as much info as I could, whether it worked I have yet to find out for the results of my exams. Ooohh I need to watch Doctor Who! Thanks for reminding me.
    I know how you feel - I still feel so happy when I manage to eat and not freak out.

    I'll try to ignore my thoughts, but ignoring them at the same time as writing in a foriegn language that I haven't studied in over a month is what's worrying me. :erm:
 
 
 
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