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    (Original post by SharpDressedMan)
    Well I thought I'd take a chance and spend the afternoon with my mates...boy it was **** and now I feel ****..they spent all afternoon talking about cars and stuff I don't know a thing abut and I felt more useless and anti-social than normal..and this was with my friends..then I spent the rest of the time on the verge of tears after realising how much I suck at socialising and fail at life... and starting to fall asleep at points and all which looked bad I suck at life
    Pal you dont suck at life at all , you just have the same common interests as your mates. Next time yo go out with them try to direct the convo to something you know things about and if they dont respond to that say, look guys I dont know much about cars lets talk about something else
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    It dawned on my a few minutes ago that I have to go back to sixth form on Monday and face everything again and face the lack of trust, the lies and the stupid bloody politics of everything. I'm trying to throw myself into work to forget about it, but it's not really working
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    I really hate feeling like this. I really don't want Monday to come right now, I don't want to have to go into school - how am I supposed to study feeling like this? I wish this would just go away :cry2:
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    To be honest i dont know if im depressed or not but i have been constantly unhappy for over a year now and have suicidal thoughts more or less everyday, today has been particularly bad. I mean i dont think i'd ever do it and don't even self harm but i have these thoughts so very often. I lack self confidence, low self esteem and really hate myself. The past weeks have been worse though because of exam and coursework stress. Im behind on my work and need to get good grades to get into uni, ill feel like my life would be ruined if i dont get in. I really want to get away to uni this year.

    When im around other people i can pretend to be fine, be really hyper, fun to be around and happy but after that im back to feeling like crap. i can never seem to pretend around my close friends though.

    Meh, i hate feeling like this, just want to stay moticvated and spend all my time revising instead of worrying and being unhappy. I feel tired all the time, even if i get enough sleep and sometimes on school days i literally have to drag myself to go, it takes so much effort for me to go everyday. I dont get bullied or anything but it just makes me feel even worse. *sigh*
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    I really hate feeling like this. I really don't want Monday to come right now, I don't want to have to go into school - how am I supposed to study feeling like this? I wish this would just go away :cry2:
    How uncanny, I feel exactly the same as this. I really can't stand school that much anymore, even the thought of it makes me stressed, lol. Which is funny because I used to really like school, especially in Year 9/10/11, those were the peaks (even though there were quite a few lows too), but after that it's just been downhill :sigh:. I'd much rather be on holiday somewhere at the moment to be honest :daydreaming: . Anyway, there's only about two months or so left of school, you may as well try to get through that and do well in your exams. The it's off to uni this year for you I think? I hope you do feel better on Monday. :hugs:
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    (Original post by CertifiedAngel)
    To be honest i dont know if im depressed or not but i have been constantly unhappy for over a year now and have suicidal thoughts more or less everyday, today has been particularly bad. I mean i dont think i'd ever do it and don't even self harm but i have these thoughts so very often. I lack self confidence, low self esteem and really hate myself. The past weeks have been worse though because of exam and coursework stress. Im behind on my work and need to get good grades to get into uni, ill feel like my life would be ruined if i dont get in. I really want to get away to uni this year.

    When im around other people i can pretend to be fine, be really hyper, fun to be around and happy but after that im back to feeling like crap. i can never seem to pretend around my close friends though.

    Meh, i hate feeling like this, just want to stay moticvated and spend all my time revising instead of worrying and being unhappy. I feel tired all the time, even if i get enough sleep and sometimes on school days i literally have to drag myself to go, it takes so much effort for me to go everyday. I dont get bullied or anything but it just makes me feel even worse. *sigh*
    :console: Sorry I don't have loads of advice, but wow this sounds pretty much like me. All I can say is just hang in there and keep working your school/college work, I'm sure you'll start to feel better getting good grades and having the fresh start at uni. Hope you do well :hugs:
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    (Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
    How uncanny, I feel exactly the same as this. I really can't stand school that much anymore, even the thought of it makes me stressed, lol. Which is funny because I used to really like school, especially in Year 9/10/11, those were the peaks (even though there were quite a few lows too), but after that it's just been downhill :sigh:. I'd much rather be on holiday somewhere at the moment to be honest :daydreaming: . Anyway, there's only about two months or so left of school, you may as well try to get through that and do well in your exams. The it's off to uni this year for you I think? I hope you do feel better on Monday. :hugs:
    Thanks. But after missing an entire half term and my first exam being on Wednesday and not having done enough revision, I have a feeling I'll be resitting next year, not going to uni. Stupid ******* mind.
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    (Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
    :console: Sorry I don't have loads of advice, but wow this sounds pretty much like me. All I can say is just hang in there and keep working your school/college work, I'm sure you'll start to feel better getting good grades and having the fresh start at uni. Hope you do well :hugs:
    Thanks. And you! Here's hoping we both somehow get through what's left this year!
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    (Original post by CertifiedAngel)
    To be honest i dont know if im depressed or not but i have been constantly unhappy for over a year now and have suicidal thoughts more or less everyday, today has been particularly bad. I mean i dont think i'd ever do it and don't even self harm but i have these thoughts so very often. I lack self confidence, low self esteem and really hate myself. The past weeks have been worse though because of exam and coursework stress. Im behind on my work and need to get good grades to get into uni, ill feel like my life would be ruined if i dont get in. I really want to get away to uni this year.

    When im around other people i can pretend to be fine, be really hyper, fun to be around and happy but after that im back to feeling like crap. i can never seem to pretend around my close friends though.

    Meh, i hate feeling like this, just want to stay moticvated and spend all my time revising instead of worrying and being unhappy. I feel tired all the time, even if i get enough sleep and sometimes on school days i literally have to drag myself to go, it takes so much effort for me to go everyday. I dont get bullied or anything but it just makes me feel even worse. *sigh*
    Seems like there are three of us haha. I have no advice, I may once this passes for me (should be okay in a few minutes hopefully, trying to keep it together... Trying.) but for now: :hugs:
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    Thanks. But after missing an entire half term and my first exam being on Wednesday and not having done enough revision, I have a feeling I'll be resitting next year, not going to uni. Stupid ******* mind.
    :console: I'm already in that resitting boat right now, after practically failing Year 12 and having to start a couple of new A Levels this year, which I don't feel I'm going to excel in either, but I try. And I had been so looking forward to starting uni in 2010, not gonna happen now . I hope you can do well this year, but if worse comes to worse and you have to resit, remember that it isn't the end of the world. As long as you get there eventually, then it's all good, and a lot of people go to uni later than 18 anyway.
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    (Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
    :console: I'm already in that resitting boat right now, after practically failing Year 12 and having to start a couple of new A Levels this year, which I don't feel I'm going to excel in either, but I try. And I had been so looking forward to starting uni in 2010, not gonna happen now . I hope you can do well this year, but if worse comes to worse and you have to resit, remember that it isn't the end of the world. As long as you get there eventually, then it's all good, and a lot of people go to uni later than 18 anyway.
    Thanks, but the one thing that I used to be good at was academics, most of these problems arose because of it (I originally only started 'eating more healthily' to try and give my brain the nutrients it 'needed' for exams, but that ended up screwing me over). If I don't get into uni on 19th August, I will have a massive breakdown, it's just who I am.

    I just wish I could be honest with everyone about how much this is affecting me, I might get some help then...
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    (Original post by CherryCherryBoomBoom)
    :console: Sorry I don't have loads of advice, but wow this sounds pretty much like me. All I can say is just hang in there and keep working your school/college work, I'm sure you'll start to feel better getting good grades and having the fresh start at uni. Hope you do well :hugs:
    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    Seems like there are three of us haha. I have no advice, I may once this passes for me (should be okay in a few minutes hopefully, trying to keep it together... Trying.) but for now: :hugs:
    Aww thanks guys , yeah ill try to stay positive and to keep my mind on my studies. Hope you guys start to feel better soon aswell. The good thing is the next two months will go by so quick and we wont have to worry about going to school/college anymore. :hugs:
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    I spent today at a friends house, a few of us just hanging having a BBQ and playing the Xbox and watching TV. I was feeling kinda crap inside, like always, but I tried my best to put on a brave face. I kept on cracking sex jokes all day :o:, probably a bit of frustration there, lol. Two of my friends there are in a long term relationship as well, so I feel a bit jealous of them, even though I really shouldn't. The girl in the couple told me about how she has only had 3 driving lessons so far, and is doing really well, on her last lesson she was driving in 5th gear on a main road without help from the instructor. I was slightly gobsmacked, since I did so crap in my lessons last year and was still very nervous and needing help from my instructor and my 12th and last lesson. I feel a bit bad for giving up, it's been so long now and I realise that if I had kept on trying I could have passed by now, but like the quitter I am I haven't even come close yet . I might just try again after I get things sorted a bit at school. Damn, I feel so useless, everything just seems to be going wrong and I find it hard to be happy these days. :sad: FML
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Why not give it a go and see what happens? Maybe your psychologist can't help, how long have you been seeing them? It's worth a go with the shrink and cpn and if that doesn't work tell them.
    I really can't bothered with giving it a go to be honest. Just fed up of them. I know full well that when I see the psychiatrist I'm going to be put on an antipsychotic and tricyclic antidepressant the GP has already discussed that with me. Since coming off citalopram it's been nice going back to having clarity of thought, I don't want more drugs which are just going to slow my head down and make me feel worse. Sort of in the that halfway house at the moment where you ponder your options of escape.
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    (Original post by fire2burn)
    I really can't bothered with giving it a go to be honest. Just fed up of them. I know full well that when I see the psychiatrist I'm going to be put on an antipsychotic and tricyclic antidepressant the GP has already discussed that with me. Since coming off citalopram it's been nice going back to having clarity of thought, I don't want more drugs which are just going to slow my head down and make me feel worse. Sort of in the that halfway house at the moment where you ponder your options of escape.
    I knew the feeling. All my psychiatrist does is give me all these godawful "medications" which just make me fat and stupid. Can't think at all and I'm meant to be doing a university course. I don't know what to suggest though, is there no way you can keep seeing your psychologist?
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    I knew the feeling. All my psychiatrist does is give me all these godawful "medications" which just make me fat and stupid. Can't think at all and I'm meant to be doing a university course. I don't know what to suggest though, is there no way you can keep seeing your psychologist?
    I said I wanted to see the psychologist still but they keep trying to say that I'm not in the right place for talking therapies to work and I need to be stabilised first. Basically doctor speak for we don't what to do so we're just going to pump you full of drugs until you can't feel anything any more. They don't seem to think straight before deciding to use meds, they realise that they slow peoples thoughts down but still they decide to use them on people who are supposed to be learning. Which just causes knock on feelings of worthlessness when you can't achieve to the same level any more, but do they listen? No.
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    Urgh, crap day. I feel ill, which doesn't help, I'm not all that keen on school tomorrow, I have an exam on Wednesday that I'm going to fail and now I'm questioning things about myself again, things that I thought I'd been through and decided to wait and see with... I hate being a teenager haha.

    Oh, and I'm a horrible person surrounded by people I can't trust. Yippee.
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    In A+E last night after a overdose, though much smaller than my last one, I'm really not in a good 'place' at the moment. sigh*
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    In A+E last night after a overdose, though much smaller than my last one, I'm really not in a good 'place' at the moment. sigh*
    :hugs: I know that anything I try to say about how things will improve will likely not do anything (although things will get better, they always do), but just remember that there are always people who care about you and who need you here. :console:
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    :hugs: I know that anything I try to say about how things will improve will likely not do anything (although things will get better, they always do), but just remember that there are always people who care about you and who need you here. :console:
    Thankyou for the support.

    I was origionally diagnosed with depression about 1 year ago now and things have just gone from bad to worse. No help from uni', very little help/understanding from parents. Tried to get help with a local asperger's support orginisation and saw a counsellor when I started to feel suicidal (about 8 months ago I started to feel suicidal, you must have seen my threads). Took an overdose on 16th November 2009 and to be honest there has not been one moment...not one...when I've thought 'I'm glad that didn't work', infact ever since waking up in hospital I have always wished it had worked, and still do . Tears are running down my cheeks as I write this. Things have gone from bad to worse, less support and more depression, even after the 1st overdose. I went out last night and walked for 4 hours along the beach and just sat for about an hour and took some tablets. My family found me and took me to A+E. I just feel like I'm, I don't know how to explain...empty? Nothing left where I can try to overcome depression? Nowhere else I can begin to find happiness? I don't know.

    If My overdose in November 2009 had worked, as I constantly wish it did, I would be 'at peace' now, no worries, no hassles, no things on my mind. Ever since waking up in hospital, at the end of each day, I have thought "If only it worked", and not one day has been an exception.
 
 
 
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