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    (Original post by superwolf)
    My sister just came home with a cat that followed her down the street. Then it tried to bite her, so she lured it back outside with a piece of chicken. :mmm:

    Night all.
    so cute.



    I hate facebook yet I don't delete it. :confused:
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    so cute.



    I hate facebook yet I don't delete it. :confused:
    Same. I just use it to stalk people now
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    Same. I just use it to stalk people now
    I use it to remind myself how **** my life is/I am.
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    I use it to remind myself how **** my life is/I am.
    :hugs: A lot of people who have loads of photo 'evidence' of their socialising only do it for the photos That's worse than not socialising IMO :hugs:
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    :hugs: A lot of people who have loads of photo 'evidence' of their socialising only do it for the photos That's worse than not socialising IMO :hugs:
    Not so much socialising, though obviously there was a fair bit of that, more the having everything I don't yet we were at the same point in school. Same class, same subjects - only difference was I got higher grades than him. Now, he is engaged, has many friends, good looking, in shape, graduated (1st class degree of course), traveled all over the world (I seriously mean all over), pulled by a husky team, snowboarding, scuba diving, playing with a lion cub, riding horses, surfing, relaxing on beach, pet cat, safari in Africa, birthday parties, fancy dress etc etc etc and I'm er......well...

    I know I sound pathetic, and tbh I am being, but it's not just jealousy, it's that I could have done that but I didn't, I ****** up and am nothing.


    Sorry, I always rant here and normally you're the only one online at this time so usually end up reading it. Sorry. Don't feel you have to answer because I do realize how pathetic I'm being.
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Not so much socialising, though obviously there was a fair bit of that, more the having everything I don't yet we were at the same point in school. Same class, same subjects - only difference was I got higher grades than him. Now, he is engaged, has many friends, good looking, in shape, graduated (1st class degree of course), traveled all over the world (I seriously mean all over), pulled by a husky team, snowboarding, scuba diving, playing with a lion cub, riding horses, surfing, relaxing on beach, pet cat, safari in Africa, birthday parties, fancy dress etc etc etc and I'm er......well...

    I know I sound pathetic, and tbh I am being, but it's not just jealousy, it's that I could have done that but I didn't, I ****** up and am nothing.


    Sorry, I always rant here and normally you're the only one online at this time so usually end up reading it. Sorry. Don't feel you have to answer because I do realize how pathetic I'm being.
    :hugs: That guy has done a hell of a lot more than most people! And you still can do things; you are not nothing :console:

    I like answering :hugs: I get like this too sometimes, but there's no point in dwelling on it or comparing yourself to others, all that ever does is make the person feel like ****.
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    It's hard not to be envious of others but people move through life at different paces. Those things aren't out of reach for you.
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    :hugs: That guy has done a hell of a lot more than most people! And you still can do things; you are not nothing :console:

    I like answering :hugs: I get like this too sometimes, but there's no point in dwelling on it or comparing yourself to others, all that ever does is make the person feel like ****.
    I know you're right, but I'm just sick of being who I am. Even without comparing to anyone I hate myself and most of the things I've done/not done - comparing just makes me look even more like a pathetic loser.


    beh.

    What you up to?


    (Original post by beecher)
    It's hard not to be envious of others but people move through life at different paces. Those things aren't out of reach for you.
    I appreciate the input, but, tbh, yeah they are out of reach. I'm completely crap at social situations = no way I'm going to have friends like he does. I'm crap at uni = not going to graduate. My medical history means it's pretty unlikely I'll get a job (+ no degree) = no money for all those things. And even if I did manage, I'd be occupied with feeling nervous about new situations and trying to hide my self harm scars.

    Not seen you around before, I don't think?
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    I know you're right, but I'm just sick of being who I am. Even without comparing to anyone I hate myself and most of the things I've done/not done - comparing just makes me look even more like a pathetic loser.


    beh.

    What you up to?




    I appreciate the input, but, tbh, yeah they are out of reach. I'm completely crap at social situations = no way I'm going to have friends like he does. I'm crap at uni = not going to graduate. My medical history means it's pretty unlikely I'll get a job (+ no degree) = no money for all those things. And even if I did manage, I'd be occupied with feeling nervous about new situations and trying to hide my self harm scars.

    Not seen you around before, I don't think?
    :hugs: Things can change and things do change, so don't think that you can't do what you want.

    Not much TBH
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    :hugs: Things can change and things do change, so don't think that you can't do what you want.

    Not much TBH
    Told myself that everytime I started a new school/new year at school/new univeristy/new year at university and things never changed. If I go back in october, it's my last chance, if things haven't changed by a couple of months then I give up, I'm not doing it again it's not worth it.

    Anything you can do? futurama was uncancelled if you like that, it's entertaining.
    ps. nice avatar
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    I appreciate the input, but, tbh, yeah they are out of reach. I'm completely crap at social situations = no way I'm going to have friends like he does. I'm crap at uni = not going to graduate. My medical history means it's pretty unlikely I'll get a job (+ no degree) = no money for all those things. And even if I did manage, I'd be occupied with feeling nervous about new situations and trying to hide my self harm scars.

    Not seen you around before, I don't think?
    Sorry to hear that, I know how those negative thought patterns go, and nothing I say can really help. Do you think you think a different course or university would improve things?

    I don't post here much. Don't really have the confidence to let it all out in a public forum.
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Told myself that everytime I started a new school/new year at school/new univeristy/new year at university and things never changed. If I go back in october, it's my last chance, if things haven't changed by a couple of months then I give up, I'm not doing it again it's not worth it.

    Anything you can do? futurama was uncancelled if you like that, it's entertaining.
    ps. nice avatar
    :hugs: It is not your 'last chance', there are always more chances and very little are based around education. :console:

    I might go watch the sun rise and read but that's if I can be bothered

    ETA: Also if you go into things with a negative attitude, you'll only get negative things out of it. Sounds corny but I find it is, on the whole, true.
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    (Original post by beecher)
    Sorry to hear that, I know how those negative thought patterns go, and nothing I say can really help. Do you think you think a different course or university would improve things?

    I don't post here much. Don't really have the confidence to let it all out in a public forum.
    Already tried - I've never met anyone who's been to as many universities or as many different courses as me :p:

    You could create a new account if you don't want to talk about things on that one. Anonymity. :yy:

    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    :hugs: It is not your 'last chance', there are always more chances and very little are based around education. :console:

    I might go watch the sun rise and read but that's if I can be bothered

    ETA: Also if you go into things with a negative attitude, you'll only get negative things out of it. Sounds corny but I find it is, on the whole, true.
    Watching the sun rise, lovely.


    And it is my last chance, because I'm not spending october-june on my own with no friends hating every second again. Not out of stubbornness, just out of knowing that will be the final nail, I'm not going to do that. I can't. Also, re: ETA, I've been deleting old posts on my facebook wall for the past hour, at the start of each university year I was so happy trying so hard and doing so many things and now I read it and just think what a ******* delusional ******* I was to think that would work. Trust me, it's taken many years for the negative attitude, before it was mindless optimism, now it's cynical realism.

    I'm sorry, that sounds kind of rude, it's not meant to, I know you're only trying to help, just reading over all this **** from the start of each year is awful, I'm sorry.
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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Already tried - I've never met anyone who's been to as many universities or as many different courses as me :p:

    You could create a new account if you don't want to talk about things on that one. Anonymity. :yy:



    Watching the sun rise, lovely.


    And it is my last chance, because I'm not spending october-june on my own with no friends hating every second again. Not out of stubbornness, just out of knowing that will be the final nail, I'm not going to do that. I can't. Also, re: ETA, I've been deleting old posts on my facebook wall for the past hour, at the start of each university year I was so happy trying so hard and doing so many things and now I read it and just think what a ******* delusional ******* I was to think that would work. Trust me, it's taken many years for the negative attitude, before it was mindless optimism, now it's cynical realism.

    I'm sorry, that sounds kind of rude, it's not meant to, I know you're only trying to help, just reading over all this **** from the start of each year is awful, I'm sorry.
    :hugs: There are more chances in life, there will be people that you meet that you get on well with. The fact that you've got a girlfriend show that you're not incapable of making friends. So don't give up hope, ever. :console:
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    Fairly decent night at work, was long and hard but I got bought 10 drinks (8 by one guy who stated that he wanted to sleep with me because I'm '******* gorgeous'... :erm:) so there are now 8 bottles of Kopperberg sat in my fridge, chilling away!

    Wish I could sodding drink them
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    (Original post by steffi.alexa)
    Same. I just use it to stalk people now
    So do I, lol. I can't be asked to chat to people these days. But without really talking to anyone, I've found out a fair amount of info and news about lots of different people, just by browsing around Facebook

    Sucks that I look **** in a lot of photos though :sigh:. Must learn how to become more photogenic :ninjagirl:
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    I ******* hate the way people can be so ****** and selfish, and turn against you like complete ***** particularly when you need them most and all you've ever done is be by their side. I hate the way they don't even make a ******* effort to be anything but selfish, or to see the ****** way they treat people. I ******* hate living where I do, it depresses me everytime I come back. I ******* hate how so called friends can bring you down to a piece of **** without even being there, just by the mere thought of how **** they've treated you. I hate how worthless people make me feel, despite me always being the one to do ******* everything, to be the one who has worked the hardest simply to stay alive, I ******* hate how difficult things are just for the people you trust to be ***** and make life so much ******* harder. I ******* hate how all I want and need to make me better is a hug, but even that is too much for me to ask for. **** this ****** world, **** it.
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    I ******* hate the way people can be so ****** and selfish, and turn against you like complete ***** particularly when you need them most and all you've ever done is be by their side. I hate the way they don't even make a ******* effort to be anything but selfish, or to see the ****** way they treat people. I ******* hate living where I do, it depresses me everytime I come back. I ******* hate how so called friends can bring you down to a piece of **** without even being there, just by the mere thought of how **** they've treated you. I hate how worthless people make me feel, despite me always being the one to do ******* everything, to be the one who has worked the hardest simply to stay alive, I ******* hate how difficult things are just for the people you trust to be ***** and make life so much ******* harder. I ******* hate how all I want and need to make me better is a hug, but even that is too much for me to ask for. **** this ****** world, **** it.
    :hugs: Moo, what happened?
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    :hugs: Moo, what happened?
    Everything, I happened, my life. I'm completely fed up of it, I don't want to be me anymore. I want parents, I want a family, I want people I can go to, who I can have a hug with, who I can love and care for and vice versa. I ******* hate how people you once called close friends can belittle things, not give a ****, and complain about how **** their life is to me without giving a **** about mine. They can **** off completely. Their life might not be easy, but it's a damn sight easier than mine, and at least I care and have an interest in theirs, they can **** off *****. I don't even know what the ******* point is anymore, I never have known; I have nothing, and when I do, it's taken away from me, tortured and mutilated before my very eyes. I just want to be in the middle of a field, sitting under a tree, with nothing around but endless fields of golden wheat and the fully starry sky to look up at, I don't want to be here
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    (Original post by Magnum Opus)
    Everything, I happened, my life. I'm completely fed up of it, I don't want to be me anymore. I want parents, I want a family, I want people I can go to, who I can have a hug with, who I can love and care for and vice versa. I ******* hate how people you once called close friends can belittle things, not give a ****, and complain about how **** their life is to me without giving a **** about mine. They can **** off completely. Their life might not be easy, but it's a damn sight easier than mine, and at least I care and have an interest in theirs, they can **** off *****. I don't even know what the ******* point is anymore, I never have known; I have nothing, and when I do, it's taken away from me, tortured and mutilated before my very eyes. I just want to be in the middle of a field, sitting under a tree, with nothing around but endless fields of golden wheat and the fully starry sky to look up at, I don't want to be here
    Can you go for a walk? Find a field and just sit there for a while? TBH they don't sound like very good friends, you deserve better than that. Support and friendship is a two way street, don't let them treat it otherwise.
 
 
 
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