Depression Society MKIII

Lots of meds are useful for lots of various things. They obviously thought the sedative side of things would be of benefit to you, which it does seem to be.

Thats fair enough I would just rather someone tell me exactly what it is rather than say its a mood stabaliser and happen to forget to tell me its an anti-psychotic and a powerful sedative if you understand?

I am ******* confused, I have been given Quetiapine for which I was told is used to treat bi-polar and schizophrenia but that "dont worry, you dont have schizophrenia."

I then do some reading on this stuff..



Basically what is confusing me is when there is a vast array of drugs for bi-polar... why have I been put on an anti-psychotic drug when as far as I know I am having no visions or voices and a powerful sedative?

I am very happy to take whatever I just dont like being taken for a mug. Will need to ask about this.

Took a dvd back to the library today, said "hi, I'd like to return this. thanks", possibly even smiled at her even if I didn't make eye contact. For a split second I almost felt quite pleased I'd managed to say something rather than just thrust it into the librarian's hands and walk off, then I realized how pathetic that really is. A 3 year old child could manage to do it, only a 3 year old wouldn't be so much of a freak as to feel they'd actually accomplished something.

Feel so hopeless. Trying not to think about anything and failing. I don't want to go back because I know I'm just going to be alone all the time. I don't want to do anything right now either because then when I am on my own feeling **** I'll have even more to feel **** about.

Don't see the point. It's pretty damn clear there's something intrinsically wrong with me that medication or therapy or any of that **** cannot change. Let's say I do manage uni next year and come out with my ****** degree; it's not actually going to change anything, people are still going to see me as that weirdo freak. I'm still going to be that loser who can't interact socially, who can't do basic things, who has all the scars and who no one is ever going to want to hire.

Today has been ******* awful

Whats up??

I'm not sure really, I woke up this morning with a feeling of despair, and the days just become progressively worst. I might go for a walk in the rain.

I am ******* confused, I have been given Quetiapine for which I was told is used to treat bi-polar and schizophrenia but that "dont worry, you dont have schizophrenia."

I then do some reading on this stuff..



Basically what is confusing me is when there is a vast array of drugs for bi-polar... why have I been put on an anti-psychotic drug when as far as I know I am having no visions or voices and a powerful sedative?

I am very happy to take whatever I just dont like being taken for a mug. Will need to ask about this.

I do this all the time too. It makes it a lot harder when you've got a stutter to boot!

What's worse is my name is the hardest thing for me to say; so inevitably when I do stutter when I try to say my name, some people are like: "what, you don't know your own name?" etc. Pretty embarrassing!

To relieve my social anxiety I find that just walking around a town/city centre and going in shops etc really helps, just getting out there etc.

Have you tried psychotherapy?
I've always been told it'd help me and apparently it helps everyone even if you're not ill. Apparently you keep learning from it years after you've had it. And it can be quite cheap privately if you're on a low income/student. And you can get it on the NHS but obviously there's a waiting list.

I don't want to go to work. I don't want to face the real world

Spent most of the night crying. Anything sets me off atm.

I have decided to come off the meds.

Why? :/ Is that a good plan? I've just done the withdrawal of my citalopram and it was pretty nasty.