Depression Society MKIII

Guys screwing me around.

I've never 'laid claim' to anyone I know in a romantic sense, but it's generally acknowledged that there is a guy in our group I like - and he knows it. We're pretty close, do a lot of things together. Thursday night wasn't great for me and so when we met up we were pretty close (never doing anything though).

However. He seems to be intent on snogging every girl he sees though and I've heard from a friend that he tried it on with my best mate when he was out last night. I honestly don't care what he does or who he does it with but I wish he wouldn't **** with my emotions like that.

Do you like time off over the Christmas holidays then Jonathan?

I don't know- would be the simplest, honest answer. But 0 to warrant mentioning in here/0 severe depression and anxiety etc wise. Will talk to you on MSN if you want to hear from me in general- though there's 0 really very exciting or interesting!

I'm going to uni later than planned, because I don't feel well enough to go tomorrow.

Laus! Are you going back into your 1st year or into 2nd year sometime this year at Uni? I've forgotten.

Hope you feel a bit better soon, and I hope it goes well when you do go.

I'm starting over as a fresher again. Very nervous, but hopefully I'll be ok. Not a great start moving in later than everyone else, but I'm hoping it won't set me back too much.

How are you? Are you in your second year, now?

I am in my 2nd year now yes.

Another reason for me asking you whether you were going into 1st or 2nd year is because if you're going into your 1st year and you're a couple or so days later back than your other new flatmates, then that will hardly matter at all- not everyone in our flat and certainly not everyone in the Uni came back on the exact designated days. It didn't really seem to make a difference.

Whereas:

There could have been more of a problem if you were coming back later had you been going into your 2nd year because of the increase in Uni contact time pretty much from the word go (read: whilst Freshers' have a week off and a lax 2nd week, my "Freshers' week"/time free of any Uni obligations lasted 2 days before plunging straight in to the full-timetable! ) ; as well as private study expected and workload.

Have been better.

How's your mum's condition? And you: on any medication still? More apprehending Uni rather than anticipating it, it sounds like?

I'm here if you want to talk. Your phone is a no-go though.

Ah yes, that makes sense.

Mum is ok, thanks. We won't know much more until mid November time. Not looking forward to that month at all, really.

I'm still on medication. Are you?

I am very nervous, yes. It might be ok, though. I don't know.

Thank you. Likewise. My phone is temperamental, but I have a new phone which I shall be using shortly. I'll send you my new number if you want it.

How are you these days?

Yes I would like your new number please. Do you still have my number or would you like me to tell you what it is again so that you can add it to your new phone if you want?

I am still on medication yes. Just had to go through a rigmarole these last few days trying to get prescriptions and it ordered through and to me within a few days- it was almost impossible!

So much I could say! I don't want to bore you with a dissertation length account or to write it up here in public.

Thank you I'm sorry you've had a bad night. Do you want to talk about it? I had many bad nights last year, but all of them involved alcohol. I've given-up drinking now, and I think it will help. I don't know if your problems are alcohol-related, though.

Do you have someone you can confide in at uni?

I don't know if I'm able to send you a PM as I'm not a sub at the moment and I think my inbox and outbox is full. I'm hoping to re-sub shortly though, I just need to ring up my bank. I've made some 'uncharacteristic' purchases of late (new phone, hard drive, kettle ) and I think they thought someone got hold of my card!

Feel free to share what you have to say in here though; I will read it.

I've cut down my alcohol consumption a lot - it wasn't the cause of any of my problems, but it didn't help. I'm finding London scary - I got lost last night / early this morning, my phone gave up on me and none of the pay phones seemed to accept my card. I found a 24-hour taxi service in the end, but I only ended up getting back home at about half 6 this morning - about 6 hours after I set off.

I'm hoping to get a mentor at uni, but it's all organised by Student Finance England now, and it's becoming quite clear that they couldn't organise a piss-up in a brewery.

I hope my bank doesn't do that when I buy a netbook

I've cut down my alcohol consumption a lot - it wasn't the cause of any of my problems, but it didn't help. I'm finding London scary - I got lost last night / early this morning, my phone gave up on me and none of the pay phones seemed to accept my card. I found a 24-hour taxi service in the end, but I only ended up getting back home at about half 6 this morning - about 6 hours after I set off.

I'm hoping to get a mentor at uni, but it's all organised by Student Finance England now, and it's becoming quite clear that they couldn't organise a piss-up in a brewery.

Hehe- well my inbox and outbox is full like it is most of the time.

You repped me! You didn't need to do that! Regarding the rep comment though: please don't worry as I've had such a lot to do and try to deal with too.

i can't do this essay.