Hi guys, I guess I just want to share my thoughts here in this thread.
Recently I've been having dreams that are very intense and vivid. I had a few dreams about death (not of myself), and I one time i actually woke up crying, with tears in my eyes, and the sadness was SO strong when I woke up. And all those dreams seems to point in one direction, that I have depression.
I don't think of myself as a negative person, but there are just a lot of times where my emotions fluctuate SO much that I don't think I can handle it anymore. Am I bipolar or depressed? lol.
I feel like I keep going back and forth, if you know what I mean. Sometimes I feel like the world is beautiful and all that, and sometimes I just think I am not worthy of anything. (the latter happens more often)
The thing is, I can't talk to anyone about this, I don't want to bore them with my weird feelings, and I am always the one who is cheerful and happy (on the outside obviously).
I guess my point of writing this post is, is there any ways that people find useful in "releasing" their negative energies? I just feel like I'm going to suffocate.....