Dear N, we were involved with each other for nearly 4 years - a lot of it was amazing, but towards the end it was just too painful. When the time came for it, you were there for me and I couldn't have asked for any more; but a couple of months down the line you betrayed my trust and that really hurt - I don't think you ever helped me to regain that trust in you. All I ever did was care for you and want to make you happy, and it hurt me that you were distant and tried to make me look like the bad person towards the end of everything - I just never understood why you didn't want to let me in. I miss you like mad and I do want to talk again, because I know deep down you do care and that we can't just abandon a friendship, because of everything we've been through together. But right now, I need to live my own life as I know if we talked at the moment it would hurt me too much. But as we've always said to each other - don't give up on me.
Dear M - I miss you like crazy and there's not a day that goes by where I don't think of you. So much has changed since you died; university has shaped me as a person and I'm glad I didn't drop out at the beginning of first year, as I'm really finding my place here and I've made some great friends. Things are proving somewhat difficult to handle at the moment, as it's weird having another woman around our house; I kind of wish Dad was a little more subtle about it. But then, I'm just glad he's happy and I'm sure you agree with me when I say that I don't want him to be alone. There are some times when I wish you were here to give me advice and just to have a massive hug - life sucks sometimes and I know you'd always say the right things, whether it's what I wanted to here or not. All I can say is that, I'll be fine - I'll try not to make the same mistakes you said you did, and I'll live my life as much as I can. What happened to you, and all that you did about it definitely taught me that. You were, and still are a strong person, and I want to carry that on.