Mental Health Support Society MKVII

I know what you mean about the silvery scars, although weirdly I've also got a couple of bright red 2 year old raised ones which really are obvious. :| I think though you should try not to worry too much about them; after all, you can't change the past. If they really bother you maybe look into getting surgery on them, I'm considering that route.

Food is just one piece of the losing weight puzzle, exercise is also very important. Would you be able to join a gym? They're not always that expensive - 2 just opened in my area which are £14.99 and £19.99 a month, that's like a takeaway and a drink. Or, you could try HIIT running in the park in the evening so it's not too hot, or early morning.

Fell asleep at 4am and woke up at 8 Seriously brain, what the ****?!

another period of "sleep" which I didn't dream in, I don't know much about sleep, but is it possible im just not getting the right kind of asleep or something?

I'm no expert on sleep either, but I hardly ever get dreams and when I do they're usually odd, but good. Usually dream about a better me living a better life, sad as it sounds; because it's a dream it's quite surreal and you always wake up on a good bit, as they say

I used to get sexual dreams back in my teen years growing up, I guess just hormones back then but I've not had any of them in years. How many hours are you getting a night and what sort of times are you sleeping at?

I've had that before, is something worrying you heavily at the moment? Did you still feel tired when you woke up? If you felt fine then your brain had enough rest.

Counselling isn't meant to make you feel worse, is it?

I think it can make you feel worse before you feel better sometimes But if you don't get on with your counsellor or think they're acting unprofessionally you can always request to see a different person.

There's nothing wrong with her exactly, it was my fault it went badly. Just couldn't talk at all

That's normal, it'll take a few sessions for you to build a rapport, don't worry about it. I didn't say anything of any use in my first session! It gets easier

another period of "sleep" which I didn't dream in, I don't know much about sleep, but is it possible im just not getting the right kind of asleep or something?

We all 'dream'. It's just that we can't remember the dreams that we dreamt - if that makes sense? I can't remember what I dreamt about last night that's for sure but that doesn't mean I didn't technically dream.

idk, is more than that, is like im not aware that I did sleep even though I know I did?

Hopefully I'll get the job I've got an interview for on Wednesday and I can join the gym/pool after that... It's in town too so I can go after work. The scars just bother me because I'm at home and I don't like my parents seeing them

Idk. I've been feeling really odd recently. Amsterdam was not a good place to go... My mind hasn't been the same since last week, shouldn't have done anything there but I thought since weed has never really affected me too badly before it'd be ok. Every once in a while I get really upset and paranoid, I don't know about what but it feels like the start of a panic attack. Eurghhhhhh. Wonderful...

Counselling isn't meant to make you feel worse, is it?

I think that's normal ^^ For me, it definitely doesn't feel like the 7 hours each night, I spend sleeping. You're awake one minute, asleep the next and awake again the next - at least that's what it feels like

Meds upped again. I think they'll start prescribing me by the bucket if this continues.

I've been sleeping with a pad of paper next to my bed; everytime I wake up I write down my dreams for this quack of a psychiatrist. I wake up numerous times terrified every night but then I'm reading it over now and the dreams are absolutely hilarious. How am I scared of these things?





Good luck with the interview, I really hope it goes well for you.

I thought they'd made weed illegal for foreigners? Anyway, give it a while and hopefully the feelings should wear off.





Actually, I've heard quite a lot that it can make people feel worse to start with as you're opening up and addressing stuff that makes you feel ****. But hopefully as time goes by you should feel better.