[Sabertooth]

(Original post by neversurrender)
Hey, sorry for not replying straight away. I went out with my flatmates tonight for one last time cos everyone's going home tomorrow. I've had a really strained relationship with them since Christmas and I just feel very sad about how everything has turned out because of my depression and anxiety. I have no friends at all, not even one person I can speak to. I am feeling very anxious all the time. I am going back to my old job a week on Monday for the summer and I feel terrified. I'm living in a house in second year with people I've not even met. The whole thought of it is making me feel very stressed. I really don't know what to do anymore, I feel like I'm drowning, everything is making me feel anxious and low. I really think uni has managed to screw me up big time - it's like it flicked a switch inside of me and suddenly all the feelings I was managing to control are now suddenly very overwhelming.

Yeah that does sound pretty **** but I think you might have the start of several things so it's not all doom and gloom. You went out last night with your flatmates, ok they're leaving today but did you at least have a good time? The fact you still went shows that you are capable of interacting with people and when you have no friends that's a very important thing to be able to do. It'll be scary moving in with people you haven't met but perhaps try to see it as an opportunity - they might be awesome people and you might make friends with them, it's worth a shot at least. Going back to work is also scary obviously but it's a chance to get to know the people you work with, they might be cool guys and you might feel less alone, again, you don't know until you try. Are you getting any help with how you feel? That is often a big step to take but it's usually a good idea.

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by sunfowers01)
When do things get better?

[AmiB]

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[avhhs]

Gonna have an incredibly boring day today . Have been ill since last night, and therefore can't go anywhere. My sleep pattern is messed up and I have to go back to school tomorrow.

This was posted from The Student Room's Android App on my HTC Wildfire S

[littleshambles]

(Original post by AmiB)
Try to look at it from the other side of the story:

My brother went out with a bad crowd, abused drugs, ended up psychotic, bipolar, and admitted to hospital. Went to uni, failed, tried again, failed and is now in a lot of debt, completely dependant on my parents with no job prospects or anything to work towards.

I was the rock for him whilst he was ill, he had a million conspiracies about my parents and so I was the only person he would listen to and let care for him. When he first got admitted I was just about to start my AS Level exams and my parents kept me in the dark and wouldn't let me see him until they were over.

Anyway, I finished my AS Levels with top marks and went on to do the same at A2. I then got into a good university and am just finishing the end of my first year studying Law.

To some it might look like I have achieved a lot and my brother has achieved nothing but the state that I am in at the moment as a result of my Brother's illness and what it has done to my family shows the other side. The crippling amount of pressure I now put on myself to achieve the best in order to in some way 'counteract' the damage to the family that has come from my brother even up to the point where I was working every night until 4am in the library until I just burnt out and crashed.

Now I am on my second anti-depressant, am taking my exams in August first sit and I went out last night with some old friends from sixth-form and ended up leaving halfway through in tears.

There are always two sides to every story.

P.s. I appreciative your life must be very different to mine and maybe your parents do unfairly compare you and your sister but spare a thought for her stresses and upsets too because although it may not always seem like it, mental illness does not just affect the patient but also their loved ones and those that care for them too.

Rant over.

are you sure that's relevant mate? seems a bit harsh to go off on one at someone over an issue that has a completely different context. yours is not the other side of the story, it's a completely different story and in terms of the post you're replying to not really the same.

[AmiB]

(Original post by littleshambles)
are you sure that's relevant mate? seems a bit harsh to go off on one at someone over an issue that has a completely different context. yours is not the other side of the story, it's a completely different story and in terms of the post you're replying to not really the same.

In my opinion it was but I've deleted it because I don't want to offend anyone and I shall not be posting here any longer. I hope you are happy.

[headunderwater]

(Original post by AmiB)
In my opinion it was but I've deleted it because I don't want to offend anyone and I shall not be posting here any longer. I hope you are happy.

I read your post before you deleted it and it did sound like you were kind of attacking me. But that doesn't mean you have to be so dramatic and stop posting. And don't blame it on littleshambles either.

[kiss_me_now9]

Still avoiding the outside.

BF was looking up weekend breaks in the country earlier = panic attack. He's just gone to town (which I turned down) and whilst most of me wants to go for a walk, get out the house etc., the anxiety is just too much to cope with. This time in a year I'll have graduated and I'll have to get a proper, full time job, how the **** is that going to happen?

[Etoile]

I think I might have a mental illness. Who do I tell?

[kiss_me_now9]

(Original post by Etoile)
I think I might have a mental illness. Who do I tell?

Your doctor is the best, but if you can't face it then a good friend or family member who you trust.

[SciFiRory]

just so people know, I am okay, recovered from Friday night fully now, met up with a friend on Saturday and stuff that really helped.

[Etoile]

(Original post by kiss_me_now9)
Your doctor is the best, but if you can't face it then a good friend or family member who you trust.

I don't trust any of my family or friends What would I say to the doctor?

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
just so people know, I am okay, recovered from Friday night fully now, met up with a friend on Saturday and stuff that really helped.

Glad to hear it. Sorry I didn't respond to any of your messages. It's not because I didn't care. More that it's a very triggering subject for me and I thought it was safest to avoid the whole thread until it was deemed safe to return (got d123 to keep me updated. She's an angel like that )

[SciFiRory]

(Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)
Glad to hear it. Sorry I didn't respond to any of your messages. It's not because I didn't care. More that it's a very triggering subject for me and I thought it was safest to avoid the whole thread until it was deemed safe to return (got d123 to keep me updated. She's an angel like that )

ah, yeah sorry about that, was both very drunk and in pretty bad way on Friday night so im sorry if anything I posted was upsetting to anyone.

I hope everyone else is okay

[kiss_me_now9]

(Original post by Etoile)
I don't trust any of my family or friends What would I say to the doctor?

Without knowing exactly what you're going through it's hard to give advice.

Best thing to do is write down the main bullet points of why you feel bad/what you feel is wrong and take that with you; so you can remember what you want to say or if you clam up just pass it over to your GP and they can read it. They'll probably (again, depending on what the nature of your problem is) do a few quick tests like questionnaires to determine whether you can be formally diagnosed.

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

(Original post by SciFiBoy)
ah, yeah sorry about that, was both very drunk and in pretty bad way on Friday night so im sorry if anything I posted was upsetting to anyone.

I hope everyone else is okay

Not to worry, hun. Really glad you're feeling better now: that's the most important thing

[Etoile]

(Original post by kiss_me_now9)
Without knowing exactly what you're going through it's hard to give advice.

Best thing to do is write down the main bullet points of why you feel bad/what you feel is wrong and take that with you; so you can remember what you want to say or if you clam up just pass it over to your GP and they can read it. They'll probably (again, depending on what the nature of your problem is) do a few quick tests like questionnaires to determine whether you can be formally diagnosed.

Awesome thank you I think I might have bipolar (probably type II), so I should probably write down about my episodes I guess. Thank you.

[kiss_me_now9]

(Original post by Etoile)
Awesome thank you I think I might have bipolar (probably type II), so I should probably write down about my episodes I guess. Thank you.

Yes, that'd be a good idea Try and track how quickly/slowly your moods change. If you need any more help or just a chat, pop back in here

[The_Lonely_Goatherd]

Keeping a diary of symptoms might be a good idea

[sunfowers01]

(Original post by The_Lonely_Goatherd)

Thanks