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Original post by thatsthebadger93
Had to hide behind the sofa when the postman knocked at the door this morning. Stupid thing is I now have to go to the post office to pick it up, so that kind of back fired. Still, hiding from people knocking at the door is perfectly normal right?
why do you feel like you have to hide from them?
On my laptop on a weekday, what is this? More to the point, how am I still vertical enough on a Thursday to go on my laptop? Eeeek!
Skin camouflage went well today, I was still really scared but the nurse put me at ease. She took my nervous shake as just being ticklish with the brush she was using
Hope everybody is doing ok, I barely have time to look through the thread these days
Skin camouflage went well today, I was still really scared but the nurse put me at ease. She took my nervous shake as just being ticklish with the brush she was using
Hope everybody is doing ok, I barely have time to look through the thread these days
I regret almost telling someone that I'm thinking about suicide. It makes me feel as though they'll think that I don't trust them.
Original post by superwolf
These past few days I keep crying at the slightest thing/nothing at all, skiving uni, little motivation to do important stuff (*still* haven't resubmitted dissertation mitigating circumstances form, got an essay I'm not doing enough work for, and got a test next week on stuff I missed all the classes for), meds have been making me feel sick, and I just have an overwhelming feeling of panic and hopelessness. Been neglecting lots of people too because of how I'm feeling, failing to do stuff for them or check how they're doing. 
I don't want to be the bearer of bad news here but that sounds an awful lot like how I feel when my depression is coming back. It sounds really horrible
I think you should tell your doctor exactly what's going on and maybe they can do something to help, I dunno meds increase, more support, something like that. It might be worth going to a pharmacy and picking up an anti-emetic; that might help with the nausea in the short term before you see your doctor. Other than that, make sure you do basic things which are shown to help - stuff like getting enough sleep, trying to minimize stress (maybe email your lecturers and explain?), maybe try exercising a bit, keep eating well even if it's difficult to motivate yourself to cook proper food. If you're not doing these things it can make things worse, although I understand it might be difficult to motivate yourself to take care of yourself.There was something I needed to ask/show my dad. Somewhere where I wanted to go. Because of what has happened in the past (excuses about it being against religion and culture, and making up other **** 
) I didn't have a lot of confidence. I showed it to him. He said he'll think about it. Also told him not to tell mum 
I hope it goes well
Somehow need to get my motivation back. Exams in just over a month. Plus I need to stop thinking about a girl 
(Why does it always happen to me?). And my mood has been low over the last few days.
) I didn't have a lot of confidence. I showed it to him. He said he'll think about it. Also told him not to tell mum I hope it goes well
Somehow need to get my motivation back. Exams in just over a month. Plus I need to stop thinking about a girl
(Why does it always happen to me?). And my mood has been low over the last few days.(edited 11 years ago)
Original post by thatsthebadger93
Had to hide behind the sofa when the postman knocked at the door this morning. Stupid thing is I now have to go to the post office to pick it up, so that kind of back fired. Still, hiding from people knocking at the door is perfectly normal right?
Especially if you have no pants on
Original post by SciFiRory why do you feel like you have to hide from them?
why do you feel like you have to hide from them?I genuinely have no idea, it never used to be a problem. Lately though as soon as I hear the knock I start shaking and like I can't breathe. Think my brain's just trying to find new ways to screw with me
It´s very unlikely that I´ll be going home for Christmas 
Struggling to deal with it
Struggling to deal with it
Original post by thatsthebadger93
I genuinely have no idea, it never used to be a problem. Lately though as soon as I hear the knock I start shaking and like I can't breathe. Think my brain's just trying to find new ways to screw with me
oh :/ that doesn't sound like fun, have you spoken to anyone about it? is it just knocking on the door or any socialising at all? hopefully your brain stops being silly soon!
Original post by Nut. Hopefully just a blip? I thought I was going into a dip a few days ago but I remembered that my therapist had told me when I felt like that that I should do the opposite of what I felt like doing (aka eat something and go socialise/ walking) so I did.
Mood's been pretty stable since.
Not saying it's foolproof, but ya know.
Anything that could have triggered a mood drop?
Hopefully just a blip? I thought I was going into a dip a few days ago but I remembered that my therapist had told me when I felt like that that I should do the opposite of what I felt like doing (aka eat something and go socialise/ walking) so I did.Mood's been pretty stable since.
Not saying it's foolproof, but ya know.
Anything that could have triggered a mood drop?
small ED relation, plus rant
Had a good day today, managed to go out into the real world which has made me feel less closed up. It's also the first day I haven't seriously thought about doing something stupid First therapy session tomorrow and I'm dreading it, I know it's the only way I'll get back to normal but its gonna take a lot out of me, some of the stuff that's been bothering me for years I've never talked about before.
On the upside with the free time the time off has given me my Silent Hill marathon is going well
Currently on 4 and really enjoying it.
On the upside with the free time the time off has given me my Silent Hill marathon is going well
Currently on 4 and really enjoying it.
Bah just made an anonomous post by accident *headdesk*. Today's been good. Ventured out into the real world and haven't thought about doing anything stupid for the first time in months. Therapy tomorrow which I'm dreading. Enjoying playing through the Silent Hill games. Currently on 4.
Original post by SciFiRory
oh :/ that doesn't sound like fun, have you spoken to anyone about it? is it just knocking on the door or any socialising at all? hopefully your brain stops being silly soon!
Nah, mainly because they'll ask why and I won't be able to explain. It's pretty much any interaction with strangers thought it's not too bad if I know about it before so I can psych myself up
How are things with you at the moment? Hope unis going ok
Original post by thatsthebadger93
Nah, mainly because they'll ask why and I won't be able to explain. It's pretty much any interaction with strangers thought it's not too bad if I know about it before so I can psych myself up
How are things with you at the moment? Hope unis going ok
How are things with you at the moment? Hope unis going ok
ah okay
hopefully you can manage to get your post or get a friend or someone to pick it up for you! and hopefully you are able to cope a bit better as well I'm okay thanks, still tired most of the time and stuff, but got some work on my essay done at least, also got a meeting with my mentor tomorrow (first appointment infact, my new Uni is so organised my support is only in place for the last week of term )--
(edited 11 years ago)
Original post by sunfowers01
I can sympathise with you. I feel so tired these days. Wish I could sleep forever. I understand it must be hard with the deadlines. Go easy on yourself. Put yourself first. I feel similar about letting people down, but sometimes we need to look out for ourselves.
Sleep is good. Glad I'm at least not having nightmares this time round. Am trying to look after myself as best I can (plus am surrounded by lovely people 
), it's just hard...Original post by Anonymous #2
On my laptop on a weekday, what is this? More to the point, how am I still vertical enough on a Thursday to go on my laptop? Eeeek!
Skin camouflage went well today, I was still really scared but the nurse put me at ease. She took my nervous shake as just being ticklish with the brush she was using
Hope everybody is doing ok, I barely have time to look through the thread these days
Skin camouflage went well today, I was still really scared but the nurse put me at ease. She took my nervous shake as just being ticklish with the brush she was using
Hope everybody is doing ok, I barely have time to look through the thread these days
Glad the skin camouflage thing went well - hope you're doing ok in general.
Original post by USRaphael
I don't want to be the bearer of bad news here but that sounds an awful lot like how I feel when my depression is coming back. It sounds really horrible I think you should tell your doctor exactly what's going on and maybe they can do something to help, I dunno meds increase, more support, something like that. It might be worth going to a pharmacy and picking up an anti-emetic; that might help with the nausea in the short term before you see your doctor. Other than that, make sure you do basic things which are shown to help - stuff like getting enough sleep, trying to minimize stress (maybe email your lecturers and explain?), maybe try exercising a bit, keep eating well even if it's difficult to motivate yourself to cook proper food. If you're not doing these things it can make things worse, although I understand it might be difficult to motivate yourself to take care of yourself.
I think you should tell your doctor exactly what's going on and maybe they can do something to help, I dunno meds increase, more support, something like that. It might be worth going to a pharmacy and picking up an anti-emetic; that might help with the nausea in the short term before you see your doctor. Other than that, make sure you do basic things which are shown to help - stuff like getting enough sleep, trying to minimize stress (maybe email your lecturers and explain?), maybe try exercising a bit, keep eating well even if it's difficult to motivate yourself to cook proper food. If you're not doing these things it can make things worse, although I understand it might be difficult to motivate yourself to take care of yourself.Yeah I know, been thinking the same thing. Main hope is that I'll start feeling better once my essay's done and I've managed to sort some other things, but who knows... I'm trying to take my meds after eating something to see if that'll help, but if not I think I've got some anti-emetics around somewhere from last time I had this side-effect (with a different drug though). Am doing my best with eating etc, and I don't think I'm doing too bad on that front at least, and yeah, need to email my lecturers.
How'd the appointment go?
Original post by SciFiRory
ah okay hopefully you can manage to get your post or get a friend or someone to pick it up for you! and hopefully you are able to cope a bit better as well I'm okay thanks, still tired most of the time and stuff, but got some work on my essay done at least, also got a meeting with my mentor tomorrow (first appointment infact, my new Uni is so organised my support is only in place for the last week of term )
hopefully you can manage to get your post or get a friend or someone to pick it up for you! and hopefully you are able to cope a bit better as well I'm okay thanks, still tired most of the time and stuff, but got some work on my essay done at least, also got a meeting with my mentor tomorrow (first appointment infact, my new Uni is so organised my support is only in place for the last week of term )Thanks
Well done for managing to get some work done, and I hope your meeting is productive, better late than never I suppose 
Original post by superwolf
Yeah I know, been thinking the same thing. Main hope is that I'll start feeling better once my essay's done and I've managed to sort some other things, but who knows... I'm trying to take my meds after eating something to see if that'll help, but if not I think I've got some anti-emetics around somewhere from last time I had this side-effect (with a different drug though). Am doing my best with eating etc, and I don't think I'm doing too bad on that front at least, and yeah, need to email my lecturers.
How'd the appointment go?
How'd the appointment go?
Sounds like a good plan. Essays hanging over your head isn't a nice feeling so hopefully you'll feel better with it out the way. Do you have an extension on it or anything or are you ok concentration-wise with doing it? Because that might be something to consider if not. If you need anyone to proof read lecturer emails just send them my way (or you might not be such an insecure retard like me and have no problem writing to them
).It went pretty well actually, thanks.
The psychiatrist was really, really nice, understanding, friendly, listened to me and found my brief outline "extremely helpful" (which was great - I didn't need to speak too much uncomfortable detail) so thanks for the writing it down idea. Got another appointment booked as well as looking into talk therapy in the new year so hopefully that'll help things.Original post by thatsthebadger93
Thanks Well done for managing to get some work done, and I hope your meeting is productive, better late than never I suppose
Well done for managing to get some work done, and I hope your meeting is productive, better late than never I suppose I guess so yeah, true, but it's meant that I have had like no support for all of this term
and they wonder why I am struggling now...Original post by SciFiRory
I guess so yeah, true, but it's meant that I have had like no support for all of this term and they wonder why I am struggling now...
and they wonder why I am struggling now...It is a bit ridiculous, as I'm assuming they knew before the start of term? hopefully you can relax a bit during the holidays and next term should be a bit easier once you've got some support in place
