Mental Health Support Society Mk XIV

Nope nope nope.

You're far to awesome to be feeling as bad as you are. I'm sorry you're hurting lovely.

Nobody hates you (certainly not on here!)- you're brilliant. And I wouldn't just say that! You dont have a bad word to say about anyone, and you always manage to make me smile, no matter how **** I'm feeling. You're not a failure or a disapointment AT ALL. You didn't manage the exam because you're not well. That's no reflection on you as a person or your commitment or brains or anything else. You're not well hun- try to think of what you'd think/say to someone else in your position? If they had flu or something you wouldn't expect them to be able to sit the exam! It's just the same.

Anyone worthwhile isn't going to hate you for problems that aren't your fault Do the uni know about your problems? If so they definitely will be more lenient.

If your neck worries you a lot, perhaps you could wear a scarf? Or even a hoodie if it gives you the confidence you need.

You sound like you're in a bad place atm, and it's understandable Just try to knock back the negative thoughts, even if its just a little.

They really don't. The people I saw in my university city were even more horrendous and made me feel 10 times worse. horrible horrible. They don't even listen to what you're saying and it's so frustrating. the thing is, i'm always the one that's wrong because I have MH problems... when I tell GPs that they are crap, they try and defend them and make me feel bad. im just done with MH services, getting help was the worst thing I ever did.

Just got back from doctors.
Got two medications.

All i would suggest is to complain to higher authorities, and keep taking it higher until something gets done. Ironically, despite having issues, we have to fight real hard to get the help we need and deserve, i wish i could give the right answers for you.



What were they, if you don't mind me asking?

Can't do this any more I didn't go to my exam earlier and I'm mad at myself and now I'm worried that people hate me and my skin is so bad I look disgusting my neck is literally covered in scaly patches and open cuts from my eczema and nothing helps I cover myself in moisturiser constantly but it doesn't help I'm such a failure and a disappointment to my family and everyone around me I should just go away to save everyone the hassle


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Can't do this any more I didn't go to my exam earlier and I'm mad at myself

so apparently I have to be in contact with crisis team again. ffs. I literally give up.

Still alternating between 'automatic pilot' and 'curl up and cry' mode. I dont know how to break myself out of it. Any tips?

Girlfriend now doesn't want to move out. At my wits end and threatened to leave without her. I absolutely don't understand why she can't understand why I need to move out. She asks why and then when I give her an answer I get told off for feeling that way. This still isn't home and it won't ever be. I'm 27 and need to stop living under her parents control. We get told off for having smelly food, buying clothes from the mens section of shops and losing socks and that isn't any way to live at all and I won't be nice if I'm stressed out from my PGCE plus living here. It's nice and I really appreciate everything they do but it really is time to move now.

I'm seriously considering upping and moving to Nottingham. I'd be leaving her and puppy about an hour's drive away but cutting the commute from £15 a day to £2 is the only way I can afford to live alone.

Clitopram? I put question mark because I have no idea how to spell it. And I forgot the name of the other but they work together

Come accross so many rude nasty young people today im ashamed to be a youth worker


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thanks, means a lot! hope you are okay yourself!

Thanks and no... it isn't.

Sounds fun.

3 hours sleep, uni work handed in personal tutor wasnt in boo waiting for the train to set off! Literally like a zombie!


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I'm so damn useless


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Glad you're okay

I'm alright, having a pretty rough few weeks, but I'll keep plodding through it.

Saw my friend today which was lovely, went round to hers and watched a few movies so still a lazy day but nice to have some company!

Yano I love reading your messages with all the smileys i think I'm starting uni shopping next week, my grandma is taking me and yes, pens are fine, as long as they're black (i have a horrible feeling about blue pens...my named pens must be black )
YES! it was one of those coughs -.- i was up literally all night so i'm glad that my a level results were decent, it cheered me up a little
Ooh yeah! I forgot that you had the car so it should be fine, you can always drive somewhere pretty and just chill out! I really should get back in the car, it's been a few weeks!
Yeah, it's totally normal to be nervous about uni, i'm ****ting myself hahah. Getting super cold feet about it all! I'm sure we'll both be perfectly fine! Which uni are you at? (if you don't mind me asking ). You can see your pet when you go home after each semester, no?
There will be some excited nerves nearer the time I think, it still hasn't sunk in that i'm actually going yet! I'm going out with friends tomorrow as our celebration, because I was too ill last week, but i don't think ill have enough money to drink enough
Haha i've barely done anything except trips shopping or something with family, and the odd cinema trip or night out with friends! Quite enjoyed myself chilling out and being alone, I enjoy my own company haha. I did go to scotland, but it was only for a few days and it rained the whole time, plus i got ill so i was glad to get home
I totally understand about the not feeling relaxed part, i'm pretty similar...i promise it'll all be okay, you have me to rant too (aren't you lucky? )
do anything nice today?

Hey guys. I Spose I should explain myself. My name is Arif, I'm 16 and I've fought off depression three times. 2012 was the first and most severe, 2013 was also bad and the recent one was minor. The first one was caused by a realisation that I was someone I didn't want to be. I was dude to teachers, a smart ass and incredibly bad behaved. People loved the Monster I became however, I didn't and I realise they only loved what I did. Not me. Thankfully I dragged myself out after a horrible incident where I broke down in front of my maths class. I'm glad to say the normal Arif is back. The second in 2013 was caused by loneliness from having moved to London and being an outsider. I spent listens on the brink of tears and in summer. I was a empty shell. 2014 was caused by heartache, nothing major. I never felt auicidal in any of those thank god. I'm ok now, sometimes I feel low. Over stupid things such as feelings and not feeling like anyone cares as much as I do. Hey, I gotta live with that.

I seem to have a habit of sending facebook messages to the wrong people- I told keromedic to shut up or something the other day, felt awful
Good Did you buy anything interesting in town or just wander round? Mine just seems to be full of charity shops and takeaways that's about it
Do it! I haven't been to the woods in ages actually, one of the farmers has planted crops over one of the footpaths so can't get that way any more, plus it's summer so there are usually scary people in there, and some inconsiderate person built a bmx track so bikes appear every five seconds/can't let the dog off the lead
I saw it at a friend's house a few weeks ago And mulan, for the first time ever Only problem was we were playing a game at the time, and I kept losing as I was watching the film too much and I can't multitask
Thank you! I guess, but it's just annoying how much it affects me. I wasn't exactly well at the beginning of exams, but I went from A's in the first couple (admittedly retakes) to te last one being a U, and that had been my best module in class
Make the most of being alone with no-one nagging you for a couple of days then! Or just do what you want to do but don't like doing with people around Cinema sounds good though, as does walking...
I'm alrightish, seem very variable atm, one minute I'm fine and the next minute I'm totally different both physically and mentally. The weird thing is, they don't always follow each other! Right now i'm fine though, although one hand's shaking rwally badly and the other not at all which is kind of strange On the whole not too great though, seem to be going downhill again the last couple of weeks

I've spent like £500 in less than a month and I don't even know what on I didn't realise I was spending that much how could I not realise??

Far better way to learn a language is play computer games and voicechat with everybody That's pretty much how I speak Swedish and Portuguese!

I have a lot of time on my hands and I really wanna learn a new hobby but there's not much going in my area it's easier too far away to travel at night or local clubs don't last long due to funding
I have tried my local adult community college but they are absolutely rubbish, just regurgitated bull**** and I feel embarrassed every time I go to ACL even for pleasure reasons. So I am rather stuck on what to do as I need friends, social life, hobby and something I enjoy that last long than a few weeks. Help

My boyfriend rang for a doctors appointment for me friday so im meant to be going today. And i went for an assessment last week but i don't know whats happening now.

I have OCD so i think id go crazy in a charity shop, i really want to help others but my ocd stops me doing things. i often stop in the street and look where ive just walked to see if its clean or not (like if theres dog poo or something) im paranoid. I hate going outside because i get so stressed about uncleanliness and other things like my paranoia.

Guess what. I got on my online maths course i applied for a while ago. I thought i wouldnt get on but i have. I dont have to go outside but i can still learn. YAY but i need to buy a printer with a scanner sometime soon.

His university is the same distance we're away from eachother now. 3 hours. it makes me upset. he gets upset because he said hes terrified of leaving me incase i be silly again. and he just wants to look after me.
but i dont want him being like my carer. oh its so confusing. hurts my head.

I hope you enjoyed your evening. I love chips.

Thanks people who quoted me - appreciate all the support from everyone in here over the last week. Feeling a bit better about the whole E thing now that I've slept on it (managed to not text her). Trying to put it to the back of my mind.

Have phoned up hospital and the therapist will ring me back hopefully soon to rearrange.

for all

Had my first appointment with adult today. Was abdolutely terrified. But it went okay! I was able to tell her all that was going on and it was fine and she was absolutely lovely. I made it to the appointment, I was able to tell the receptionist who I was and who I was here to see and I made it home again. Score one to tasha.

still no sleep. hurting, a lot :/

Haha. Urgh i struggled at waking up at 7am for school! Gonna wake up at like 6.30 tomorrow, am i mad?!?
Also very tempted to get off the train at either torquay or teignmouth tomorrow

3 hours sleep, uni work handed in personal tutor wasnt in boo waiting for the train to set off! Literally like a zombie!

it's okay, just not been in a great place really, don't know what really can be done but got through the worst night I had in a while so fingers crossed!

not till the 30th can't go to the conference I wanted to go to now though cause it's too much money (hate being poor!), cheered myself up a little by getting a new cuddly bear though (childish I know but I don't care!)

hope you had a nice evening!
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super tired again today, gonna shower then go my mums for a bit though, my girlfriend is out till later & I don't want to be by myself too much right now, kinda super delicate mood so any triggers whilst on my own would not yield good results :/ get to use my bus pass though which is good, that & music on my phone will make the trip easier (not far thaknfully!)

I was about to go out for a run/workout/whatever, then it got cloudy, windy and looks like it's going to rain and decided agianst it. Why am I so fair-weather?

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Tempted to say I might have a vitamin B12 deficiency, a leading researcher/doctor with 25 years research into the condition says I have an above likely diagnosis of it. I have lots of the symptoms such as depression, heart palpitations, shortness of breath, severe lack of energy and severe tiredness all daily. I might try some folic acid and B12 tablets for a few months.

Haha, I still feel as though I should probably try and cut down Writing (official-y) emails to people is the worst - always wanting to stick in a "" or something Ah awesome Off to sainsbury's in a bit, might pick up some more Noted. I'm not the biggest fan of blue either, don't know why Good for writing key words/points!

:/ Sounds horrible - yes! Glad you're feeling better now (?)

Need to practice though, haven't driven in this car much at all, I'm so terrible even just reversing out the drive

Aww, well hopefully the wait'll be over soon/you can be there and have a blast I'm at Warwick Sadly not - need to give him away/have him adopted by the end of this summer really Known him for 5 years and it's really sad.

Celebration sounds good! (so that's today? Have fun!) Drink enough? Is there a quota? Hope you have a good time

Sounds nice As do I, but would've been nice to have friends about too really That's true, sorry

Haha, indeed Thanks You too!
Yesterday watched some BBC3 in the evening, which was fun, now just off to supermarket then going to have tea and watch Perks of being a Wallflower Not sure whether to cook/get a ready meal or something
How're you doing?

Hurting.

Movies are good Sorry it's been rough Anything in particular?

whats up?

Hurting.

Eurgh I hate wind I don't think many people would choose to go out for something like that if it isn't their weather
How're you doing recently? I guess making plans for Uni? But maybe not