My Internet/porn addiction is getting quite bad again. I'm trying NoPorn for Lent, and failed last night, but that's not too bad; my time on the Internet in general though is terrible.
I have been on a waiting list for Step 4 Psychologies NHS IAPT for nearly 5 months now, I've had some progress with symptoms, I'm doing therapeutic volunteering* and seeing friends of a weekend, I occasionally do normal** hobbies, but I'm still not ready for employment and my relationship paranoia/obsession is still vicious.
Throughout my time under the care of the NHS with Anxiety and 'low mood' (which is like mild depression symptoms) we have beaten around the bush with my problematic use of the Internet, I was never sure whether we should explore the feelings behind my compulsive/addictive behaviour, steps to curb it, or both. Also, it's a relatively new behavioural addiction not yet recognised by DSMV.
Please don't say 'turn your computer off', I love the Internet the way an alcoholic loves Jack Daniels.
*ESA where I can basically just call in 'sick' and have the day off-did it today because my hypochondria was terrible (thought I'd have a heart attack going outside) and I regret it, feel guilty