Hello everyone, I'm hoping to get some help on this.
I've wanted to be a paramedic for a while now, although, in Northern Ireland there aren't jobs for that. The way the paramedics train over here is apply for an EMT role first, then train on the job, then have the opportunity to progress.
My problem is, even though this opportunity doesn't show up often, it's showed up at the worst time possible.
I've been struggling a lot with depression and anxiety and the past month has been very bad, including a lot of self harm (things like packing my stuff to leave etc)
I changed doctor so I'm only getting taken seriously now, but my mental health is very unstable.
Obviously, this role is very serious, and you have to be mentally stable for something like this.
Everyone keeps telling me to do it, but I can't even cope with a sentence without crying and I know I'm not fit for the role, but I'm not sure when that opportunity will pop up.
Advice please? And be honest - this is confusing the hell out of me, so if anyone has been in a similar position, I'd greatly appreciate the help