Urgent. Please help

I'm alone during lockdown and if I do try to get my mind off things and enjoy myself I get hate from people. I had this idiot beefing me on the YouTube comments and loads of other people got involved all targeting me. Its like one thing after another. I stay in bed most of the day because Im just so depressed about lockdown, I don’t know what other lockdown and restrictions we are going to have. I don't sleep, I just stay in bed because I am to upset to do anything, I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I have not been myself for so long and I don't know when I will return to my true self or I don't know if that will even happen. I might just be this depressed miserable guy for my whole life now but before I used to be a joker and people said I was funny.

I have been this miserable guy for a long time now and I really can't change it. I just stress, I overthink stuff, I sometimes get angry, I get anxious and I'm miserable most of the time. The other day my brother ordered me some food for his birthday, my appetite wasn't there and wasted it which he got mad about because it was his 21st birthday meal and he has zero respect for me for doing that. My other family members kept telling me that I can't waste my brothers birthday meal and the rest of my family ordered some more food and I couldn't even manage the existing one. No one in my family has a clue that im feeling like this, they just think I have just grown up and turned quiet and that im happy but im far from that. Also my family said they won't be getting anything for wasting the food, they said I wasted their time and money and my dad shouted at me.

How old are you if you don't mind me asking? Do you need someone to talk to?

omg this is horrible to hear! your family should be more supportive of you. if you want to pm me, im free for a while

My family don't know anything. Can we talk on something else instead of tsr pms? How old are you?

I'm alone during lockdown and if I do try to get my mind off things and enjoy myself I get hate from people. I had this idiot beefing me on the YouTube comments and loads of other people got involved all targeting me. Its like one thing after another. I stay in bed most of the day because Im just so depressed about lockdown, I don’t know what other lockdown and restrictions we are going to have. I don't sleep, I just stay in bed because I am to upset to do anything, I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I have not been myself for so long and I don't know when I will return to my true self or I don't know if that will even happen. I might just be this depressed miserable guy for my whole life now but before I used to be a joker and people said I was funny.

I have been this miserable guy for a long time now and I really can't change it. I just stress, I overthink stuff, I sometimes get angry, I get anxious and I'm miserable most of the time. The other day my brother ordered me some food for his birthday, my appetite wasn't there and wasted it which he got mad about because it was his 21st birthday meal and he has zero respect for me for doing that. My other family members kept telling me that I can't waste my brothers birthday meal and the rest of my family ordered some more food and I couldn't even manage the existing one. No one in my family has a clue that im feeling like this, they just think I have just grown up and turned quiet and that im happy but im far from that. Also my family said they won't be getting anything for wasting the food, they said I wasted their time and money and my dad shouted at me.

oh ok
i'm 14, nearly 15 but get told i'm very mature. how old are you?
i dont have anything else other than pinterest unfortunately

I'm 20, you are way too young to be talking to so I can't talk sorry