An unexciting, personal thread

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Done with praying and drinking water, gonna get dressed first then will head out.

Apparently the laundrette will be open until 5 pm today, so I still have time even if I went elsewhere today first. Going to get a bit of KFC once I’m done with the first location of the day :blow:

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I ate at KFC, but I won’t be able to make it to the laundrette before it allows its last wash cycle at 4 pm since it takes me about 30 min to walk back to my apartment from where I am at right now. So, that means that I need to wake up relatively early tomorrow morning and leave first thing in the morning.

I don’t think that I have to get new boxes at all, rather just use what I have because I think they can still take it.

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I’m going to rest and chill for about 1 hour and 15 min, then pray and start washing the dishes and sink.

Need to prepare to whack any pest and ready the vinegar spray :getmecoat:

(my deodorant is roll-on, but at least I got something safer than an insecticide)

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I need somewhere to vent or ponder about random things, good thing that I had this thread going on right here.

Currently feeling extremely exhausted, primarily because I had an awful sleep schedule the night before. Slept for 3 hours in the morning, waited for friend who wanted to get breakfast at 7 am but ended up falling asleep on me and stood me up essentially :colonhash:

, then decided to take a walk in a park. I've walked for about 16 km today, which was a lot relatively speaking. Spent a good 1 hour 30 min on the phone with a good friend whilst on my walk. Got back home, slept for another 3 hours in the afternoon, woke up at 3 pm, and prepared dinner.

Had dinner, now I'm just waiting for that friend who didn't turn up to the promised, 7 am breakfast, to get bubble tea, or if there's no de-caffienated tea option, then some red bean drink. Or I'll just get the latter.

Anyways, she's here. So. Red bean, something.

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Original post by wifd149

I need somewhere to vent or ponder about random things, good thing that I had this thread going on right here.

Currently feeling extremely exhausted, primarily because I had an awful sleep schedule the night before. Slept for 3 hours in the morning, waited for friend who wanted to get breakfast at 7 am but ended up falling asleep on me and stood me up essentially :colonhash:

, then decided to take a walk in a park. I've walked for about 16 km today, which was a lot relatively speaking. Spent a good 1 hour 30 min on the phone with a good friend whilst on my walk. Got back home, slept for another 3 hours in the afternoon, woke up at 3 pm, and prepared dinner.

Had dinner, now I'm just waiting for that friend who didn't turn up to the promised, 7 am breakfast, to get bubble tea, or if there's no de-caffienated tea option, then some red bean drink. Or I'll just get the latter.

Anyways, she's here. So. Red bean, something.

it must've been frustrating to wake up early but get stood up, I hope the red bean drink cheers you up :hugs:

Sending you lots of love and energy and hope you manage to get more sleep and well-deserved rest 🥺❤️

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Original post by KA_P

it must've been frustrating to wake up early but get stood up, I hope the red bean drink cheers you up :hugs:

Sending you lots of love and energy and hope you manage to get more sleep and well-deserved rest 🥺❤️

PRSOM!

Thank you Kae :hi:

Honestly never expected anyone to respond, but you've surprised me :cube:

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Original post by wifd149

PRSOM!

Thank you Kae :hi:

Honestly never expected anyone to respond, but you've surprised me :cube:

Of course! Love you lots :hugs:

OP

Quitting bad habits.

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It’s weird being in your 20s. I don’t feel the same way that I did when I was 18; when you’ve just completed formal schooling and was about to start an entirely new experience. A new chapter in life. I can still recall that fresh feeling of some hope and naïveté to it.

Looking back, completing my degree has a nostalgic sense to it. I found it funny how I knew from the start that nothing would be like your schooling and undergraduate experiences, post-grad and working hits different. Although, that might be mostly something to do with maturing through adulthood. Almost feeling like nothing truly excites you anymore.

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As bizarre as this sounds, prepping the night before my classes for the Bar Course is the earliest that I have done in a while.

I'm nowhere as near as complete at all at the time of writing this, considering that tomorrow's criminal litigation class covers two units on the BSB syllabus, followed by an advocacy class on cross-examination right after.

Laptop battery is almost dying (0%), yet here I am typing this.

On another note, I was feeling awful (not great, weird, very weird) in the past few days and I was also hit by a bout of paranoia over an incident where I was pick-pocketed last year for no good nor great reason. I want to get back on a good frequency and not feel negative (or, like sludge) anymore, manifesting good and incredibly fantastic things — nothing negative, nothing harmful!

Though doing a bit of work had pulled away my focus from this and I am feeling okay at the second.

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I have been feeling awful and restless, I'm so sorry for myself.

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Original post by wifd149

I have been feeling awful and restless, I'm so sorry for myself.

Is there anything making you feel like this? I'm here if you want to talk :hugs:

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Original post by KA_P

Is there anything making you feel like this? I'm here if you want to talk :hugs:

Aw, thank you very much for the offer Kae :cry2:

. You're a dear friend. Thank you for being here and being concerned as well :jumphug:

Thankfully I'm good at the moment, in the sense that I have been sleeping good and getting out of my bed everyday to be alive and living. Still got some lil' bit of anxiety at the back of my mind from time to time, and now the issue or main focus is to get me to start studying seriously. My real, final exams are quite soon. But I've been out and about most of the time lately, which is good — just need to make sure I allocate some time to study productively as well :yep:

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Original post by wifd149

Aw, thank you very much for the offer Kae :cry2:

. You're a dear friend. Thank you for being here and being concerned as well :jumphug:

Thankfully I'm good at the moment, in the sense that I have been sleeping good and getting out of my bed everyday to be alive and living. Still got some lil' bit of anxiety at the back of my mind from time to time, and now the issue or main focus is to get me to start studying seriously. My real, final exams are quite soon. But I've been out and about most of the time lately, which is good — just need to make sure I allocate some time to study productively as well :yep:

Always! I'm glad you're feeling better, best of luck for those exams! I'm cheering you on :jumphug:

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I never know that it is possible to cry very so often, and to just burst into tears at odd times.

I can't do one of my current mocks (formatives).

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Original post by wifd149

I never know that it is possible to cry very so often, and to just burst into tears at odd times.

I can't do one of my current mocks (formatives).

You deserve a proper break, you can only try your best and for that you need rest 🥺❤️

What you're doing is enough, it's all you can do - I'm here for you, cheering you on all the way :console:

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It’s 8:48 am when I started typing out this post.

I have just woken up from a 4-hour sleep, with my mind in a good place after having dreamt of something that brings warmth and comfort to my soul. For context, I’ve been reading this series consistently over the past month whereby the characters are serving a fictional military – so a lot of terminology gets thrown around; Intel, assassination squad, strike force specialists, and etc.

In my dream I was a young woman who doesn’t show her face often, wears baggy clothes to hide my (not obese but) pudgy figure in the sea of extremely fit men and women soldiers, and works as a cafeteria server. Now, normally cafeteria jobs and other more mundane posts are reserved for either older people or veterans that became incapacitated during combat, but for some reason (not incapacitated) I am there having this job.

Anyway, what’s on theme is that I often look at myself as a failure who can’t stand on her own in life and that translates into the mannerisms that I have in this dream.

The best part was this moment when I was trying to help skin some potatoes and cut some veggies up that a squad member came in and decided to give a chit chat about their interest in finding a blacksmith to mend their weapons. Obviously people thought I don’t know anything, but I have heard loads of things just by standing and being present in the cafeteria. I recommended a place, and gave them a message alongside some small food gift to give to the blacksmith.

This part struck me because while I might have always thought of myself as being useless and hopeless, I might not literally be one. I have learnt a lot just by being present, and I was able to provide useful help and guidance as though I am the best older sibling in existence. Someone who can be useful to others, and actually be capable in this life.

Weird thing to say, but this has been an eye-opener to me in a long while. I might come back in to edit this post again, or maybe not.

(edited 11 months ago)

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I don't have the strength to update my resume and get a headstart at drafting some cover letters. Let's hope Sunday will be better.

I'm jet-lagged, and while many decent milestones have happened so far, to keep it short I will just say that praise to the Almighty that I am good at this very moment (and so far). Unfortunately, I'm still the paranoid or anxiety-stricken wifd that people knows. This is me always praying, hoping, and intending for the best and good things only.

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