I need help, and I'm not quite sure where to begin.
During GCSE's I rarely stressed about studies, and got on well. I finished with 8's and 9's, with nines in all three sciences. Since then, I've decided to do Politics, History and English Literature and I find myself constantly stressing over if I picked the right A-levels, despite enjoying essay subjects the most at GCSE.
I was especially unsure about literature, even doing a week of economics to see if I would like to replace it with English, but eventually finding it too boring. After that, I decided to continue with it, going against my gut feeling, as I couldn't think of a subject to replace it with.
My initial test results have really spiked my anxiety; after getting near the bottom of the class in pretty much all of my initial exams (13/30 for History, a 16/25 in Politics and worst of all; a 10/30 in English - granted, with a different teacher I had an exam where I achieved a B-, which is good). I knew A-levels were going to be hard, and that I should expect not to do well right away, but now I'm doubting myself constantly, and am going through severe anxiety. I had panic attacks, trouble eating and sleeping, and nausea almost constantly. My main fear is that I picked the wrong A-levels, and by now I think changing would do more harm than good. That being said, sciences didn't come naturally, and I only achieved high grades through tuition and hard work.
After having such a high standard at GCSE level, I think the problem is that I'm uncomfortable with not doing well. That being said, I think if I put in the work and did well I would feel better about my choices, but I can't help but feel like doing English was a mistake, as my gut feeling right now it was a bad decision.
I'm not a complete doomer right now, though. It's early on in the year, and I can still improve. I'm hoping the source of my anxiety is simply that I'm not doing well, and so I'm banking on working hard to improve and then that my anxiety will improve. I've been trying breathing exercises and exercising, which have helped temporarily.
Thanks for reading this far, I mostly wanted to write this to compose my thoughts and for a place to vent.
I need help, and am scared my anxiety will only grow worse. Any suggestions, or thoughts appreciated.