how do people start conversations and socialise everyday?
I feel this is so out of my comfort zone, and i genuinely hate myself for not being able to talk to people because i am left out as a result of it.
I keep getting feelings of jealousy of seeing friend groups as idk how to involve myself with them, especially at this late point. I feel useless and don't know if i will ever change.
I want to be able to talk to people and go out and have fun, instead of being socially withdrawn due to feelings of major awkwardness in social situations.
I am so bad that i even feel awkward to talk to my best friend of more than 7 years. I feel ashamed and embarassed of this and it make me feel like i am a **** friend for feeling like this.
Sometimes i want to call people, but due to my awkwardness, i don't as idk what to say.