Hi,
I’m in Year 13 studying Criminology, Business, and Computing BTECs. I just feel so lost on what I want to do and I feel as though I’m not going to achieve a well paid, respected career.
For my GCSES which were in covid (teacher assessed grades) my mental health really took a toll. I ended up with only 4s and 5s.
The problem is I feel as though these will hold me back. Throughout my life I have never been good at maths and I think a lot of it is down to bad experiences such as always being bottom set and being friends with people in top sets. They made me feel worthless with the fact they were so good and the fact they used it against me to belittle me. and I would be embarrassed standing outside my bottom set class even though I felt I wasn’t challenged.
I really wish I had high GCSEs in maths and science so I could’ve done a better A Level. I feel as though I don’t have any options and I dream of doing something that is respected and well paid, and something that requires hard work to achieve.
Everytime I research careers I might like I feel as though maths would hold me back. It also makes me sad seeing the success of everyone getting into unis and achieving such great things - knowing I won’t.
Right now I feel completely worthless. I’m going to end up doing a job that makes me feel medicore and won’t pay the bills. I’m planning on doing a gap year.
I want a good career which requires me to put in the effort for - I’m not lazy. I just don’t know what to do. I just wanted to vent. Everyone is better than me and I feel academically worthless and stupid.
I don’t know what I aim to do with this post, but maybe someone can console me and offer some advice. My mental health has been ****.