only feel strong emotion when drinking
Recently ive been feeling empty and bored of life in general. Its gotten so bad to the point where I feel practically nothing all of the time, not experiencing emotion as strong as I used to (i still feel intensely angry sometimes but i dont feel sad or happy as much as i used to). I cant even do things I used to enjoy because they just feel pointless and boring. I usually just end up sitting alone in my room and staring at the wall. The only time I feel sad/happy is when I drink alcohol. I dont drink a lot, maybe once or twice a month, but the times where I am, I either feel happy like i used to or sad enough to the point where I will weep for an hour. I try to stay away from drinking because I dont want to become an alcoholic, but I dont know how else to find meaning in life. Advice appreciated.
