I don't know what to do or where else to turn I really can't think of a way out of my situation or how to fix it so all I can think to do is to ask other advice on this. I am miserable I hate university and my university course I feel extremely lonely, I don't fit in in the uni and whish I had chosen a different course I have a few friends in uni but only really see them every 2 weeks no friends on my course it is lonely. My course is an extra busy course as well so it's hard to find time outside my course. I hate the uni town, and I'm just lonely despite my best efforts to socialize with people join societies ext.. I haven't seemed to have met my people.
I don't really feel like I fit in anywhere and there is no one I really click with. The problem is I can't move back home again, as I hate living in my family home, and feel stuck in one place, I don't know what i'd do as a job and I'm afraid i'd end up living in my parents home for years, and getting a job I hate. As well as this i's be equally as lonely as my friends are mostly in uni, I have some friends that live an hour away from me, but she's moved on with her life, and met a girl she spends all her time with, and it's hard to get as close even though I felt I really clicked with her as she lives an hour away. (from my family home if I chose to move back.) I also have a bf of 2 years, who I really love, but I don't want to become one of those people that only talks to my bf.
All I really want is one close female friendship and I can't seem to find that. I struggled to make friends growing up then moved to college (uk) and made some, but this was only for 2 years, and now I feel sad again. I just want a long lasting female friendship and im not sure what i'm doing wrong.
I don't know what to do about my situation I feel miserable and see no way out of it and I keep trying to think of a plan but I just can't. I was wanted to know if anyone else has been in a similar situation, how they found a way through, or anyone has any advice for me. I just feel very depressed and constantly have to distract myself from how I feel. I really just want to have a close female friendship, and a close group of friends, just small, and I would like to live with my bf really, but there is not way of doing that right now, that we could afford. I just want security. I can't start a new uni as i'm already old and had a year off and i'll be even more isolated, and it's not affordable for me as i've been at this uni for nearly a year. I'm so stuck on what to do. I can usally come up with a paln to fix a situation and have some hope, but this time i'm running out of ideas. I really want to go travelling it's one of my dreams, I just don't feel happy with anything in my life currently.