I'm currently in the process of sending a video audition to a University I applied for. I keep thinking that the sooner I sort everything out for student life (e.g things to buy for my dorm and other essentials) the better. However, something is stopping me from doing this.
I honestly believe I have what is referred to as 'cherophobia', meaning I am scared that badness will come after good things happen in my life, because balance. In this case, I don't want to get my hopes up and get all excited about what student life will be life, just to have my hopes crushed by a rejection.
I had a similar thing happen with another University that I was rejected from after an interview. I guess I just don't want it to be a waste of time. I'm just terrified to be happy. Does anyone have any words of wisdom?