Just posting this to see if there are any people out there in the same position. Im currently doing my A levels - which are high pressure enough. But I need to get out of my home. I am so jealous of those just getting into uni for fun, or doing gap years while im getting out not only because I love my subject but because my family home isnt very safe for me. Its disfunctional and unhealthy. 4 months ago, I was widowed. I feel so angry knowing im on the same playing board for uni places as those who come from healthy families and havent experienced recent loss. The pressure is all a bit much.