I had a lot of dreams and ambitions growing up and now there's very little left. My life experiences of major dreams not being fulfilled due to my academic performance not being good enough left me feeling so broken mentally that I'm too scared to peruse anything as I don't want to feel that again. As well as I don't think I can cope with another mental breakdown and the consequences of that. But at the same time I feel like I can't progress with my life and achieve anything because my fear of failure and because I feel like I'm not good enough so I may as well not try.