I’ve had social anxiety for a long time but in college it feels much worse. I get there and can barely speak, feel so tense and stressed about what other people think of me and my mind goes almost blank. My face also goes tense. I feel really ashamed of it. When I walk up to college it’s like a switch flicks and suddenly I’m so tense, outside I’m pretty okay. I’ve made no friends my whole time being here but I have to stay another year if I want to go to uni. I’m waiting to have CBT but waiting times are very very long, I might speak to someone at college next year but honestly I’m so ashamed I don’t want people to know (hence why I’m posting this anonymously). My family knows but I don’t like to go on about it to them because it only makes them feel bad. It’s ruined my time at college so far and I have very little life outside of work and education because of it. I would love to make really good friends but I struggle to feel comfortable and be myself because of social anxiety. I’ve never met anyone else like me and I feel very alone. Does anyone else have a similar experience (or has had a similar experience and gotten better)?