I have no motivation to study. I want to do well but I don’t put any effort into doing so.
I’m a very lazy person. I don’t like doing more than the bare minimum and this even affects my life outside of college. I struggle to get up to make food sometimes and mindlessly scroll on my phone so I’m occupying my brain with something.
I rarely ever study and if I ever try to, I only end up doing a few questions then taking a break for far too long. It can take me hours just to get 7 questions on a topic done as I am always distracting myself from my work.
I procrastinate a lot and put off assignments and it’s gotten worse lately: I don’t hand in work on time and when I do, it’s weeks late.
When I get home, I’m already so burnt out from college that I just want to rest. I’m always thinking of the workload I have, it just seems so big and it tires me even more. I spend so much time distancing myself from my work and studies but it’s always in the back of my mind. By the time I think about doing something, it’s already late and I end up going to bed.
I’ve tried timetables but I always abandon them after a few days as I fall out of the routine. I always revert back to procrastinating which results in me getting bad grades. Putting my devices away won’t work either as most of the resources I use are online and even if I were to put my device away, I would distract myself with something else to get myself away from my work.
I’ve been assigned extra classes but I feel like they’re a drag and a waste of time and I hate attending them.
I failed my Year 12 May mocks as I got an E and a U and so I had to do resit tests. I didn’t get much better in my resits as I got a D and an E and almost got kicked out.
I thought this would prompt me to study more as the results were so disappointing yet I did nothing. Absolutely nothing. Wasted my summer holidays and now that I’m in Year 13 and back at college I’m still flunking tests. I’m handing in homework weeks after deadlines whereas I would hand them in usually on time back in Year 12.
I don’t know what to do, I know I’ll fail my A Levels at this rate. Part of me doesn’t care but I also don’t want to disappoint my parents and my teachers.
What I hate about myself is that whenever someone tells me to study I get ****** off. I just lose all motivation to study.
I just wanted to vent that out to someone and whoever is reading this, I wish you the best of luck in your studies.