im a first year at uni currently and im really struggling with my mental health. i love my course and ive made really good friends that isn't the issue, its that ive developed an eating disorder (AN) since around august and it got worse from november till now. being at home has meant im eating a bit more than ive been used to which is stressing me out even tho i know i need more than even that but my main thing is that i just don't have the brain power or capacity to complete my essays (3 due in under 2 weeks, all first drafts done) to the best of my ability which is so awful because im such a perfectionist and ive always been super academic (somehow my only marked uni essay so far got a first). i have zero AN support too because i refuse to admit it to my parents even tho they're worried about me so i just feel completely lost and like im losing control over my work and i don't know what to do