I’m struggling so badly right now with just constant doubt and anxiety surrounding feeling lesser than others and incompetent. I feel like this way at college around my fellow alevel students in my class, I constantly feel like they are so much more intelligent and find it easier than me, easily in my alevel art where I genuinely feel embarrassed showing my work. It’s the same at my Job, just feel like I suck at it and I’m slower than everyone else. It’s just in general I just look like at other people and In every way I feel shameful of myself and abilities compared to them :’).
I’m trying to work out what degree to do as I’ve posted before and I just look at all of my options and I feel like I’d enjoy the subject but I’m plagued with feelings that I’ll be horrible at it. I think about myself doing a job and it makes me anxious just thinking about it as I feel like I cannot be trusted to do the job even if I’m trained.
Like it’s difficult for me to think about my career and I guess I feel like I suck and I’m always worried that I won’t be able to find a proper job I wanna do. I don’t wanna sound like pity party and I try and a do the best I can but this is how I feel deep down.