Hey everyone, great to see a new thread. I'm wondering if anyone could give me some advice; I'm in a bit of a dilemma.
A friend of mine was chatting to me in school today, and mentioned that she had been talking to her mother about me lacking motivation and getting poor grades. She told me her mother thought I might have depression and that I should go see a doctor - at this point I almost fell off my chair and proceeded to laugh it off, saying that there was nothing wrong and I was just a little lazy.
I feel really guilty lying to her now, and I want to make it right, so I was planning to go to school tommorow and tell her that I was worried I might have some form of mental illness and that I'm worried about my health. The only thing keeping me back is that I don't want to place this burden on her. She's not a health professional, and I know I'd be better off going to my GP to get a proper diagnosis, but after she told me about her mothers advice, I feel like she's the only one I can talk to without being judged. But at the same time I don't want to cause her any distress or make her concerned about me; I'm sure she has enough on her mind without having to carry my baggage as well.
I'm also not sure to what extent I should tell her about my problems. Telling her about my suicidal thoughts and self-harm would be a bit much I'm guessing, but at the same time I kinda want to open up to her because I haven't talked about this to anyone and it'd feel like an emotional release.
Anyhow, I'm just wondering if you guys think I should tell her my worries? I've read on another forum how friends have reacted when they find out someone is depressed, and it sounds like there are a lot of judgemental people out there which is making me a little apprehensive. Does anyone have any good experiences about telling their friends about their problems? Or would it be better for her if I let her think everything is fine?