another night awake a 5am...
I really do give up on sleeping normally, just doesn't wanna happen.
been feeling like **** since early hours as well, don't know why but my mood just plummeted again, far too many things on my mind all bringing me down then bad thoughts start coming
I really, really hate this.
trying as hard as I can to focus on future, but too many negatives come up then as well, even seeing my friends and stuff I keep thinking negatively about
times like this I wish I had someone to hug or something, just need to be comforted but I know that's not gonna happen either.
plus im probably being stupid getting my hopes up about that girl, I will no doubt find someway to **** that up when I see her.
urgh, really not good, really not good thoughts especially atm.