I've confided in a close friend who is really clued up on mental health and he thinks I'm a sociopath, but with all the conflicting opinions on the internet I'm curious to see how many others agree.
I have this full buzzing feeling in my head as if there's nothing else there, and I try to fill it by lashing out at others or trying to make myself panic or upset to get sympathy from them.
I just feel like there's nothing there apart from anxiousness and irritation.
I enjoy manipulating people, it gives me a thrill.
I never feel guilt or remorse so I hate apologising or looking weak.
I constantly imagine and fantasise harming/killing others and dominating others because they are scared of me. Or having powers or secretly being royalty.
I smile at other people's misfortune or when they lash back at me.
People being in pain or needing help annoys me because I want it to be me.
Even though I know it isn't true I have the uncontrollable feeling I'm being watched by people through an invisible window.
I'm super paranoid and on edge that I'm going to be attacked.
I quickly fall into hysteria and panic over every little thing.
Please tell me what is going on I don't know anymore I feel like I'm coming undone.