So the long and short of it:
Late 20s, single, jobless/not a student but by no means a failure-good A level grades (before "things" started happening). Live at home, don't drive, never been abroad, no friends to speak of.
Now-
I could get a job but would it give me more stress and therefore make my condition worse? Also, I know how hard it is to find viable employment. I could be months or more before I eventually work.
So do I go back to uni?
No. I don't trust myself to last the three years.
So what now, what about mates or a gf?
I have neither means or desire to make new friends. All the other mates I've ever made have slowly dropped off the radar so what's the point?
Do I get a gf?
No I've looked long and hard and I've given up effectively. I don't have the means meet girls no do I have the resources to start a relationship/maintain one.
So I am angry, hopeless, frustrated and down. What's the point? I don't mean that as a rhetorical question...literally? What can I do when it all seems so futile. should just jump in front of a bus.