Hey all,
I'm back on Citalopram after a long hiatus from anti-depressant medication. I'm on it primarily for my bouts of depression and social anxiety
I'm not the worst I've ever felt, nor am I the best- but that's just it. That is a source of my sort of frustration- I don't feel worthy enough to be on them (i.e. bad enough- not in dire straights), but at the same time I am kind of sad and stressed out over my work situation. This exacerbates my anxiety somewhat.
I recently moved to a new area, and been in a new job for about 4 months. By no means am I suicidal or self-harming like I once was, but I am very anxious, stressed and burned out.
The doctor has put me on 10mg, which is a measly dosage to what I used to be accustomed too- was on 20mg. I think he did this purely because he asked of suicidal thoughts/self harm and I told him that no I didn't.
I think the depression is mild, and its increasingly creeping up on me, with bouts of crying in the mornings before having to go to my job which I hate.
As for side effects, I am feeling very woozy and sort of spaced out, I've forgotten how comforting it is to be on these pills. There is something very comforting and good about the sense of indifference Citalopram gives you.
My headspace seems clouded and fuzzy and I feel a sort of dull heaviness in my head. But it isn't an alarming sensation. You know its there but it doesn't bother you.
It is really a kind of artificial inebriation- where I feel a mild jolliness.
I guess the point I'm making is, i'm surprised 10mg can do this to me. Within literally two minutes of ingesting the medication I actually had like a 5 second duration of dizziness, and I felt this sense of relaxation come over me. Suppose it could be likened to smoking marijuana. I honestly thought I'd need an increased dosage. I suppose there's time yet.
Anybody else have these experiences?