I'm 21, and I've been considering going into Medicine for a long time. I have no idea when exactly I started, but I've never been one hundred percent sure, and Medicine really seems like the kind of thing you have to KNOW you want, because of all you have to put into it to come out on top.
I have no qualifications since GCSE, I went for a Multimedia BTEC National Diploma right out of school but dropped out in year 2 because of depression (Stupid, I know, but when you're depressed you really don't care. :/ ) and suffering with that, I tried to go back the next year on a music course but I couldn't face going back so I dropped out again and took a year off to deal with the depression (which I have done), I'm now in my 5th year after school and am on a course dealing with 3D design and things along those lines, which is fun and I definitely enjoy it... but literally every time I hear anyone talking about being a Doctor, or basically anything reminds me of it, I feel a horrible sense of regret not going for the A levels then to Uni for Medicine. It also feels like the skills I'm learning on the 3D course would be easy enough to learn at home as a hobby, if I did end up deciding that Medicine is actually not for me after all, and wanting to take that into the professional domain eventually.
My question is, would it harm me too much if I were to drop out of this course now and apply for the appropriate A levels, provided that I explain the circumstances for me having dropped out? It feels like I have a fairly valid reason for dropping out of my first two, and dropping out of this one is purely because I feel like it's the wrong choice and that I'd like to move onto something else... but it still doesn't stop me feeling like the last 5 years have amounted to absolutely nothing in terms of anything that will further my education or career, and a College/University would look at it and go "No. Not a chance."
Would it pay off more to finish this course and then perhaps decide to try for A levels and then University, to show that I'm over the problems that caused me to drop courses in the past and I do have the dedication to stick with something to the end? That's my main concern, being seen as someone who will drop out at the slightest work, which obviously would not look good for an applicant going for Medicine.
Thanks in advance guys.